I walked through the house, and dropped my bag by the door, the smile plucked of my face, I shouldn't be surprised it happens everyday now, that's why I come back as late as I can get away with.
Mum and Dad are fighting, it's different today though, it's louder, I can feel the anger suffocating me.
I run upstairs, happy that they didn't notice my arrival.
My little brother Tyler, is there looking so innocent and vulnerable- he's only five.
He's curled up on the corner of my bed hugging a teddy.
He looks up at me with those big blue eyes, I know he's scared, he tells me every night, every night is the same, mum and dad fighting, recently Tyler has been coming into my room, curling up on my bed waiting for me to come back, together we try and drown out what the walls haven't and eventually fall asleep, I'm last though, im always last to fall asleep.
I get changed into my Pj's and climb into bed, Tyler get's in the covers with me, a cuddle him,
And wait till he's asleep usually it's 11pm, today it's 12pm, when the house was finally silent I carried him into his bed, he takes to hit like a duck to water, I kiss his check and then get back into my bed.
I can't wait till the morning, till im in school with my friends, everything's normal then.
I want better, for us, for Tyler he doesn't deserve this, I turn 18 in 9 months.
9 months and then getting out of this house, ive got the money, ill take Tyler too.
9 months, you can have a baby in that time.
I try not too think about it, but it's in my head all the time, I need to get it sorted I need to be sure im not pregnant.
Im not.
I can't be.
It was only once.
Im being silly.
I reached down to the floor and got my purse.
$20 inside.
It's decided tomorrow, I go and get a pregnancy kit and get this worry of my chest.
******Later on***********
I woke and knew it was morning, the sun was pouring through the certains and lighting up my whole room.
I remembered what I had planned today, it was Saturday this meant that everyone from school would be out, and I do not want them seeing me with a pregnancy kit.
They won't be out at 7am.
I jumped out of bed, and put on my jeans and t-shirt.
Grabbed my bag and my purse and left the house.
Surprisingly it was really warm outside.
It didn't take long to get to the shop, living 10 minutes from town.
I went in and walked straight to the pregnancy isle.
They were pretty expensive, so I managed to get 3.
I shoved them to the bottem of my bag, it was embarrassing enough haveing to hand it over to the cashier, she gave me this weird look.
I rushed home, keeping my head down.
I looked at my watch 8am, okay I'm doing good for time.
"Morning!" said mum, she was in her dressing gown making some breakfast.
"Hey mum" I said.
Where's dad today?
"Would you like any breakfast?"
I shook my head and edged to the stairs.
"Ok, so where have you been then?"
"Out"
I wish mum would stop talking to me.
I do love my mum but she can be annoying, like now and last night.
My dad's probably left, he'll come back in a few days.
Although he's barley my dad, we never speak and when we do it's usually him shouting at me for no reason.
"Oh fine then, see you" she said, and I ran upstairs.
I went straight to the bathroom.
I started rumadging through my bag.
*Knock Knock*
"Can I come in!" called Tyler.
I flinched.
"Uh no I'm....naked"
"Oh Leah!!" he moaned.
"Go in the other one" I called.
There was no reply, I heard the footsteps fade.
I waited until was sure he was gone, then I took out the test.
I could feel my heart beating in my chest.
I was so scared.
What if I was pregnant?
What am I going to do then?
No I shouldn't think about that, I'm not.
I'm not.
I can't be right?
I don't feel different.
I haven't been having morning sickness.
I did the test, and now all I can do is wait.
2 minutes.
The house was silent apart from footsteps here and there.
2:55 minutes to go.
I look down at my tummy.
Flat and slim.
I can't imagine anything growing in there.
Silence....
2:30
I can't even imagine being a mother.
I don't look like one.
I look like a teenager, black skinnys,eyeliner...
I look in the mirror and imagine me having a big belly, I shove some towels under my shirt.
I wasn't perfect but it was enough to see how I would look- not good.
I then pretend I'm holding a baby.
It was weird.
1:40
I'm being stupid.
There is nothing inside me .
I'm just over reacting.
So what I'm late for my period.
It's normal for my age.
It's normal.
It's normal.
I chanted it in my head over and over again.
I jumped when I heard someone knocking on the door.
"Honey? Are you okay?" asked mum.
"Yeah, doing my teeth and that!" I called and turned on the taps.
"Okay sorry" she said, I heard her leave.
I stared at bath taps for a while, not thinking.
1:08
I could here my breathing.
In out.
In out.
I watched the clock count down until it hit 0:59.
I pulled the tower out from my shirt.
If I am pregnant, what will everyone think?
What about school|?
How will I tell my mum?
She's stressed out enough with dad.
I know I'm not telling Dad.
I don't care about him always shouting at mum when she doesn't deserve it.
I turned the tap off.
I thought of that Alien film, with the mosters growing inside the humans and then when there reading they foirce themselves out, snapping the ribs apart and killing the human after putting them though horrific pain.
I need to stop thinking about this, its freaking me out.
0:30.
30 seconds until it's all over, or just beginning.
I decieded since Tyler was banging on the door to fine out the answer in my bedroom.
I shouldn't worry this one could be faulty.
I hope.
I showed the test in my bag, then opened the door.
"Finally!" he said and went in.
I walked to my room, shut the door and sat on the cornr of my bed and put my knees up.
10 seconds.
9
8
7
I put my thumb over the answer.
6
5
4
3
2
1.
It beeped.
Oh my god,
Oh my god.
I closed my eyes, took a breath.
Whatever happens its gonna be ok.
I opened my eyes and moved my thumb.
Pregnant
4-6 weeks
Aurthor's note
I know it doesn't look like this has anything to do with Twilight yet, but it will soon hang in there.
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