In the distance you heard the muffled cries of my wife, while Rosalie held my daughter, rocking her back and fourth. She had just been born and I couldn't bring myself to hold… my daughter. Could you believe it, I had a child? Alice was upstairs watching over Bella (who had yet to awaken), Esme inside with Rosalie and I was pacing back and fourth. Alice wasn't allowing me to check on my wife and it was utterly frustrating. I wanted, no needed to see that she was okay. "Edward!" Rosalie called. I rushed over to her, freighted that something was wrong with my baby. She smiled; arms outstretched attempting to pass me the smiling child. I frowned, turned towards Carlisle's office and walked away. I heard the infants protesting, tearing at the heartstrings I should've had. I knocked on his door and he permitted access.
"Carlisle I apologize
for disturbing you. Do you have a moment?"
"Of course Edward.
Please don't be ridiculous. What is on your mind?"
"Truthfully,
my wife, which is being kept from me."
"Son she'll be fine. You know this isn't the best time for you to see her. Let's say that we did allow you to see her. You, being the compassionate lover that you are would crumble seeing her like that. I understand that this is hard for you but we are doing this because we all care for you." I smiled, finally understanding. However, there was still more that I wished to get off of my chest. "Carlisle I can't… I can't bring myself to hold her. What if I hurt her? She is so small so fragile."
"I see. Edward you and I have been with each other for so many years. I know you, did you hear me? I KNOW YOU EDWARD. You are not a monster, not a beast. You are a considerate person, one that loves his wife and his daughter. It is not within you to hurt anyone. The sooner you realize this for yourself, the easier your forever will be with your family." He stood up from the desk, walked over to me and hugged me. He supported my shoulders and assisted me back outside towards my sister. As I approached her I said, "Rosalie may I have my daughter."
"Of course." She smiled handing her over. The child outstretched towards, wanting me almost. As I adjusted her into my arms I got the first glimpse of her. Half Bella, half me but all beautiful. She exhaled and allowed herself to fall asleep, content and trusting. I kissed her forehead and addressed her for what she was, "Sleep well, my daughter, my love and my life."