I moaned softly as my red headed lover thrusted into me, hitting a certain spot which made me see stars with each thrust. He leaned down over me, so our chests were touching. This changed his angle slightly, making each thrust more pleasurable. He took my left nipple into his hand and began rolling the hardened nub between his skilled fingers. His mouth met mine in a firey kiss, his mouth swollowing my pleasured moans as his thrusts became erratic, and his fingers stopped their pleasuring of my chest as he became focused on moving. I wrapped my legs tightly around his waist as he buried his head into the crook of my neck. We were close, it was blatantly obvious. Our moans were loud and his thrusts were uneven.
"A-AXEL" I cried his name as I came hard over both our chests, my already tight walls clamping around Axel. This was enough to send him over the edge, and I felt his warm release fill me. He kissed me softly as he pulled out and cuddled me close.
I woke suddenly, only to find a stucky mess in my pants. Great, I had a wet dream about him. Axel. My ex boyfriend. I felt the tears sting at my eyes. Pathetic, it had been months since Axel walked out my front door, leaving me beaten and bleeding on the floor.
Flashback: 6 months earlier.
I watched as Axels face twisted into a disfiguired angry form. His voice loud, and laced with hatred.i cowered in the corner, frightened tears springing from my eyes. I watched Axels face, the hurt and angry tears running down his face.
"Roxas," he barely breathed my name, but this calm wasted away in mere milliseconds, "ROXAS, YOU WORTHLESS, UNFAITHFUL C*NT(a/n: I physically cringed writing this word) YOU HYPROCRITICAL FUCKHEAD, you never understand me," his anger turned into hurt, and his silent tears ran down his face. "ROXAS, IF YOU DIDN'T LIKE THE DRINKING, THE DRUGS, OR THE SMOKING WHY'D YOU START DATING ME, I WAS DOING THAT SHIT BEFORE WE STARTED DATING. WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO CHANGE ME ROXAS, ARE YOU ASHAMED?" at this Axel pulled a knife and approached me, "YOU ARE ASHAMED OF ME" he screamed before he stabbed me in the side, the knife being forced into my tiny body until it reached the hilt. Axels face turned into absolute horror. He called an ambulance, and left the knife in my body before running out of my house. Everything faded to black.
Normal time
It felt as if my body was going to rip itself to shreds, the pain was unbearable. The heartache was killing me. I hated myself and my body for dreaming of him, let alone having a dream like THAT. I crawled over to the bedside table and pulled out the razor I kept in there. I took a deep breath as I drew it across my skin. The cut was deep, id need stiches, but I didn't want stiches, I wanted to die. So I drew the knife up my wrist along the vein. The blood flowing freely out of my body. I turned my head to see a figure. A figure with firey red hair. Axel ,my Axel, had come back. He ran over to my dying form and held me close, his tears were felt on my cold cheek.
"Roxas, why?"
"because, Axel, I love you."
Those were my final words as the world around me faded to black.
AXELS POV
I saw the boy bleeding on the floor. Roxas, was killing himself. i had come to see him, I had only just gotten out of juvi(i was only 17), something about bail and good behaviour. Roxas didn't know I was in juvi. I ran over to him.
"Roxas, why?" I had asked him
"because, Axel , I love you" his eyes closed at that. The tears flowed like a river from my eyes
"I'm sorry Roxas, I'm so sorry, please forgive me," I wailed into his cold dead body. The pain I had caused him had lead to his death, it was all my fault. I grabbed the razor out of his bloodied handand put it to my neck, looking up at the sky befor dragging it across my skin, silencing me forever. Now I could be with my Roxas forever. And I could finally apologise for the pain and hurt.