HI EVERYBODY! I am back! Some of you might know me as the author of the in-progress FF, "Big Time Oops", and I am going to be updating that, but this story idea popped into my head, and I couldn't let it go... I really realllllllyyyyy hope you enjoy, and I am super excited about this story! Let me know what you all think!

I do not own Big Time Rush, nor do I own the four beautiful boys. :(

Let Not Your Heart Be Troubled

Kendall...

Kendall Knight never lacked in the area of popularity. Was he the most popular kid in his school, no, but everyone knew his name. The girls fell at his feet, he was a God-send to the hockey team, and he could sing. Eveyone loved him. But there was one thing no one knew about the boy. He was gay. Too scared to come out, Kendall walked around the school like all his guy friends did, looking at girls, rating how they were in bed, and Kendall wasn't lying. He did know how they were in bed. A guy has needs, and since he had admitted to no one that he liked guys, he had sex with women just for release and a warm body to hold through the night, trying to chase away the immense alone feeling he held inside. Whenever he did, it made him feel awful, because he was just using these girls, and they thought they could finally be the first girl Kendall was in a relationship with. He had never had a girlfriend. He has slept with a lot of girls, but never had he taken them out on a date, or acknowledged what had happened after they had sex. But most of all, he had sex with them so no one would be suspicious.

It was senior year, though, and Kendall had promised himself that he would come out about his sexuality sometime this year. It scared the hell out of him. He knew what happened to the guys that admitted they were gay. Like Logan Mitchell and James Diamond. They have been a couple since tenth grade, but it has made them the center of a lot of cruel practical jokes. Like the time that Conner Hayes put a hidden camera in Logan's room, which recorded Logan and James having sex, and Conner posted it on everyone's Twitter and Facebook. And everyone laughed at them. When they would walk down the halls, a student would start humping the nearest object saying stuff like, "Your ass feels so tight". Kendall had never been a part of the teasing, but he had never done anything to stop it either. His heart went out to these guys, and he wished he would get the courage to talk to them. To ask the questions he ached to know the answers to. To maybe make a difference with how everyone treated them. To have friends around like him. One day.

"Yo, Ken-dog, what up my man?" Dustin greeted the blonde haired boy, holding his hand out for them to do their signature handshake. Kendall accepted it, then pulled his best friend in for a quick hug.

"Not much, how 'bout you?" Kendall asked, leaning up against his locker.

"Excited about tonight's game! You nervous?"

"Nah, not really, we're playing the Badgers, we've been beating them since Kindergarten." Kendall shoved his hands in his pockets and looked at the kids walking up and down the hall. Nerd, jock, ditz, douchebag, nerd, geek, idiot, nice kid, little miss sunshine,...whoa. Kendall blinked a couple of times, then did a double take. Walking towrds him was by far one of the most beautiful men that resided on this planet. Kendall swallowed hard as time seemed to slow down. He wore a purple hoodie that was unzipped with the hood framing his beautiful face, the sleeves shoved up to his elbows, a dark gray converse shirt underneath, black skinny jeans, with purple shoes that matched his hoodie. And oh my gosh, his caramel colored skin made goosbumps rise on Kendall's arms and neck. He had kind brown eyes, an easy smile, and oh god-those lips, but a stride that screamed "I'm new here, and am feeling insecure". Kendall blindly smacked in Dustin's direction, until he made contact,

"Wha-?" Dustin said not tearing his eyes away from his cell phone.

"Who's that?" Dustin looked up long enough to see who Kendall was pointing at.

"Oh. I think his name is...Alejandro Lopez? Somethin' like that. He's new."

"Figured, since I never seen him before." Kendall could not take his eyes off him, and his body screamed at him to go to him, but his feet felt glued to the floor. His breathing felt heavy, his chest constricted, and a slightly dizzy feeling flew around inside his head. He grasped at courage like straw, but it slipped through his fingers everytime, every breath. But fate had other plans, because as soon as the boy was walking in front of Kendall, they made eye contact, and the books the boy was carrying slipped out of his arms landing with multiple loud, "THUD-s". Kendall geared into auto-pilot mode, and kneeled down helping him pick up his book.

"Shit, I can be so damn clumsy." The new kid grumbled.

"Hey, no problem, have seen tons worse." Kendall smiled. Once all the books were retrieved, and again in the Alejandro kid's arms, Kendall stuck his hand out,

"I'm Kendall Knight, by the way." The raven haired boy smiled, and glanced down at the books.

"I'd shake your hand, Kendall, but..." Kendall looked down and started mentally kicking himself.

"Oh yeah, duh. Want some help?" The shorter boy happily lightened his load, letting Kendall take some of the books.

"Yeah, and I'm looking for my locker, actually. 218?"

"Oh that's not far away from here." They started walking, and the awkward silence was overwhelming to Kendall.

"So...I never did get your name?" Kendall asked, even though Dustin had already told him what it was.

"Oh, sorry, man! Carlos Garcia. Today is my first day." Dustin...For reals? Alejandro? Ughh.

"I kinda figured. This is Minnesota for crying out loud, and a small town to boot. New people stick out around here."

"Yeah, it's really different from where I came from."

"Oh yeah? Where'd you move from?"

"Los Angeles."

"Dude, no shit? You moved here? From friggin' LA?"

"Yeah, my Dad is a cop, and my mom is pregnant, and they wanted little Garcia to be raised in a quieter place. So he transferred, and here we are. " Carlos said with a shrug.

"Wow. Then this is quite the culture shock to you. Are you going insane with the quiet?"

"Fuck yes! And I'm bored out of my brain, and so far you are my only friend."

Holy crap holy crap holy crap! He said we're friends! Kendall was squealing in his head, but fought to not let it show on his demeanor.

"So we're friends?" He asked nonchalantly. Carlos smiled,

"Yeah, I think so. I find people are a lot nicer here. Which is cool, 'cause I was kind of a loner at my old school."

"Really? Why?"

"...Just reasons."

"Ok...Well, here's your locker." Kendall said pointing at the metal box.

"Sweet. Thanks so much, Kendall." Carlos said. "Can you hold the rest of these so I can open my locker?"

Kendall took the other books, and watched Carlos fiddle with the padlock. He couldn't help but stare at the Latino's ass, it was just so perfect.

"Alrighty, I can take those back." Carlos said, jarring Kendall from his thoughts. When he placed the books in his locker, Kendall cleared his throat.

"Hey, can I take a look at your schedule?"

"Oh sure, let me get it." Carlos dug around in his pocket and pulled out a slightly wrinkled piece of paper, and handed it to him. Looking over it, Kendall was practically giddy with excitement.

"We are in physics, calculus, and creative writing together. Sweet!"

"Cool! You can show me where they are!" Carlos beamed. God, that boy took Kendall's breath away. How the hell was he a loner back in Cali? What a bunch of shit heads!

"Yeah. And what are you doing after school?" Kendall asked, as Carlos shut his locker door.

"Nothing, I think. Why do you ask?"

"Well, if you say we are friends, I think we should get to know eachther better. How about a movie over at my house after school?"

"Dude, yeah, that sounds awesome! Maybe Minnesota isn't so bad after all."

"Great, let me put your number in my cellphone, and I'll text you." As they finished getting eachother's numbers in their phones, the bell rang, signaling for their first class. Kendall pointed him in the direction of the Home Room, and they went their separate ways. Kendall's phone dinged about a minute later.

"See you at physics! ;D"

Kendall's heart stopped when he saw it was from Carlos, and the biggest, goofiest smile graced the young boy's face.

"Sounds good, can't wait till movie time! Hunger Games?"

"Hell ya! Team Peeta! :P"

Kendall wondered if it was unusal that he was already head over heels in love with this boy. Yeah, probably was, guess it's a good thing he didn't give a shit.

SOOOO, watcha all think? Good, bad, ok? It will get better, I promise! Logan and James will be incorporated into the next chapter, and it will get...steamy. But in later chapters! Hope you all love! REVIEW! Pwease! *puppy dog eyes*