Standing Still

Author:Tyrael

Rating:G

Feedback: Um lemme think about that for a seco-YES!

Disclaimer: All Goddesses belong to Joss Whedon-except my girlfriend. She's MINE!

Pairing: T/W sorta

Summary: Tara thinks of Willow.

Spoilers: Up until "Wrecked".

Tara stood on the hills overlooking Sunnydale. The very ones Angel had stood on years before. She sighed blissfully as the wind whipped through her long blond hair, closing her eyes and opening her arms, embracing it. She smiled softly, allowing herself to indulge in memories of bygone years.

Cutting through the darkest nights are my two headlights

Try to keep it clear but I'm losing it here to the twilight

There's a dead end to my left

There's a burning bush to my right

You aren't in sight

You aren't in sight

After holding up against the immense typhoons of pain for so many years, the sadness had begun to take its toll on Tara. Not that she wasn't dying from the beginning. It was just harder and harder to get up in the morning each day. She had been strong for this long, she can break down now right?

Do you want me?

Like I want you?

Or am I standing still

Beneathe the darkened sky

Or am I standing still

With the scenery flying by

Or am I standing still

Out of the corner of my eye

Was that you passing me by?

So many questions were left unanswered. It was so hard when she fell to bounce right back up again. She had left and it was clear that both of them had suffered because of Willow's inability to control herself. Dark magic was not something to play around with. Tara had seen her on the campus, and not surprisingly Willow had changed. She had stopped using the dark forces eventually but as much as she would've liked to get up and talk to her again...there was that barrier.

Mothers on the stoop

Boys in souped-up coupes

On this hot summers night

Between fight and flight

Is the blind man's sight

And a voice that's right

I roll the window down I feel like I'm gonna drown in this strange town

I feel broken down

I feel broken down

She wanted to run, so far away. She hated Willow for making her feel this way! That damned bitch was tearing her apart! She ripped her soul, her mind, and her body and just tore them right down the middle. But then again, part of her was staying for Willow. Why do you think she hasn't moved on? Willow...Willow......

Do you need me?

Like I need you?

Or am I standing still

Beneathe the darkened sky

Or am I standing still

With the scenery flying by

Or am I standing still

Out of the corner of my eye

Was that you passing me by?

She was broken! She didn't work without her beloved Willow! She couldn't work without her Willow! Her Willow who had mind-raped her and chosen dark arts over her! She screwed up the memories she had just gotten back from her encounter with Glory! And when she actually started to trust Willow, she tore it all up into tiny pieces and threw it away!

Sweet sorrow- will you call tomorrow

Sweet sorrow- will you call tomorrow

Tara shook the tears from her face as the last question flittered across her mind.

Do you love me?

Like I love you?

Or am I standing still

Beneathe the darkened sky

Or am I standing still

With the scenery flying by

Or am I standing still

Out of the corner of my eye

Was that you passing me by?

Are you passing me by?

"I-I can't do this..." Tara shook her head in shame. She needed to talk to Willow! I need to talk to her, I deserve to know! I can't hold anything back. I love her, I would die for her, anything for my Willow. I belong to her. I'm lost...Willow will find me.

Do you need me?

Like I need you to?

Do you want me?

Like I want you?

She always does.