My first English FanFiction. I´m sorry for translation mistakes!
If you find one, please tell me!
The characters belong to Jun Mochizuki, the Song "Lacrimosa" belongs to Kalafina!
Endless live
The surrounding silence pulled me into darkness and I wasn't able to think properly.
The sun had disappeared behind the black-looking mountains far away from me, I had watched it, like the previous days.
Since she was gone, there was no sense for living anymore.
"Kurayami no naka de mutsumiau
zetsubo to mirai o"
My quiet sigh and the rustling leaves which were blown away by the wind, away from their branches, broke the silence, while my only thought meant for her.
I had been able to save her young live, but I wasn't there when she needed me so much, I wasn't able to save the person I love.
The rising moon bathed everything in cold, bluely light and hit the sad scenery that perfect, that tears ran down my face.
"kanashimi o abaku tsukiakari
Tsumetaku terashiteta "
The Will of Abyss promised it, she told me he would change past, wrong gotten things and she did it, no doubt, but everything felt unreal and wrong when I looked up to the bright shining stars.
She was gone leaving only grief for me, bittersweet grief wanting to overwhelm me now, here, in this lonely place.
I tucked up my legs, I didn't want to cry here, only surrounded by grief and silence.
I let my gaze wander and tried to repress all the thoughts and feelings swamped me now.
She was not here anymore, the only important thing!
I sacrificed everything, my live all the important things to me, I wanted to see her happy face one more time, I wanted to let her live, I even felt a bit like a martyr, but it was too late to change these things!
"Kimi no kureta
Himitsu no shirube ni"
The promise, my live, everything was worthless in the face of loss of this much beloved girl.
I saw her laughing face in front of my eyes and while standing up I felt her little and warm hands touching my only ones.
I went away, nearer to the horizon, far away from the following grief, in the direction of the moon
"Aoi yoru no
Shizukesa o yuku"
I only wanted to get away from here, far away!
"Lacrimosa tooku
Kudakete kieta"
I fought an hopeless war against the tears shedding my eyes, I cried painfully, it teared the silence around me.
"mabushii sekai o
Mo ichido aishitai"
She would never come back again, never, I wouldn't see her face one more time, I wouldn't be able to see her happy.
I wasn't able to breath anymore, I stoped running but not crying, I wasn't able to do!
I didn't want to give her up, let her go even if I knew she didn't want me to mourn for her!
She had been my everything, my only one!
If I could be able to change the past!
"Hitomi no naka ni
Yume o kakushite"
I fell on my knees, I wasn't able to stand any longer, too great was the grief and the loneliness.
The cold ground made me freezing, but I wasn't able to stand up, to go my way onward while laying there, while crying.
" yogoreta
kokro ni"
Come back, I need you!
My words, not louder than the wind!
My cold body, laying here, in the middle of nowhere!
My quiet crying, that quiet that nobody could hear me!
I lost my consciousness slowly!
"namieta ga ochite kuru
Made!"
Stay with me, Emily!
End
Songtranslation:
Joining harmoniously in the dark
Despair and the future
The moonlight that exposes my sorrow
Shines coldly
With the secret you gave me as a companion
I proceed into the silence of the blue night
Lacrimosa
Broken and vanishing into the distance
I want to love this dazzling world once more
I hide my dreams within my eyes
Until my tainted heart
Receives falling tears