I'm Sorry
One-shot (SPOILER)
By: AsakuraLenne
:: I Do Not Own Shaman King, although I wish I owned Hao and HoroHoro ::
I watched you Yoh, I watched you with certain and confident eyes as you told you'd stop, as you merged that spirit of yours into that sword. I watched you as you cried out and lunged at the Great Spirit, as you lunged at me. I watched you with power blinded eyes, as you backed away and then lunged right back at me.
"It's no use."
I really believed that as the Great Spirit pushed you away. When you fell, I thought you were going to die and I felt something. It wasn't satisfaction, it was something at didn't understand then. When you came back, thanks to your spirit, I was relieved. But I pushed it back thinking that it must have been because I wanted you to be better so I could fight you.
I watched you Yoh, I watched you as you kept fighting against me, even though all odds seemed against you. Even though at that moment, I was stronger.
"Even if it took me 1000 years, I finally did it."
I cannot believe now that I believed that before. That I had really done it. That I finally had the power. I cannot believe now what I have done to you Yoh. You kept attacking with such force, such persistence. I was amazed Yoh, I may have not shown it but I was proud of you. It was not my place, but I was. And then I caught you. Such power, in my hands... I remember what you said Yoh, I remember it well.
"You don't open your heart and you never did. That's why you're power thirsty and that you wanted the Great Spirit."
That was why I threw you down with force. Because you... were right. I did not have the ability nor the will to be like you Yoh and that was the reason I wanted you dead. I was angry, even in battle you seemed to be able to smile. You and your spirit shared a bond I could never share with anyone and even in battle you showed it.
I wanted to kill you and I'm sorry. I've seen what it is like to have friends, what it is to be loved. I've seen what it is like to be so happy. I've seen it all in you. I wanted you to disappear because of it, because of all that happiness and joy you had and still have in your life. You had everything I didn't have and I hated you for it. Even under that fire everyone else believed in you and gave you the power to defeat me.
"You should have never been born Yoh."
I should have never been born, all the pain I caused, all the pain and sorrow I brought. I'm sorry. Thank You Yoh. You don't know how much defeating me meant. Not just for the world, but for me too. You've opened my eyes, and in a way, opened my heart.
I am not dead, and in 500 years I will come back. Except, there will be a difference. I will live my life like you did. With a big smile.
Lenne: There, I hope y'all liked it. It was just a little something I concocted while watching the last moment of my dear hunky husband Asakura Hao. Leave a little review and an opinion of what you think of my upcoming story pretty please.
Upcoming Story summary, Not real summary btw:
500 years have past, the world has changed and so have the human's and Shaman's ways of life. There is a new evil rising, and all Shamans are called to make up an army to defeat it. Meet Eleanor, 14 years old shaman orphan. She receives the call and journeys to battle this 'evil'. Join her as she meets all kinds of shamans, even one that says he apparently was born some 1000 years ago.
Lenne: Ok, so I'm no good at summaries but watcha gonna do about it? please don't forget t o leave a review!!