It hurt so bad... Still. She felt like everybody could hear her heart pounding as she walked by The Brew, completely embarrassed. She had caught Toby's eye, and he was with another girl. Spencer and Toby had broken up almost a month ago; as they had a secret relationship together. They kept it secret in order to prevent "A" from hurting them. They even kept their relationship a secret from Spencer's friends, or "the other Liars".
But why did they break up?
They were so in love before... So why end things? Spencer didn't want Toby to get hurt, and Toby didn't want to keep being a secret boyfriend. Spencer told him it was only for his own good, but he didn't listen. He wanted their relationship to go public. She knew it couldn't happen.
She loved Toby so much, and that meant she couldn't let him get hurt. It would literally kill her to know that she was the reason he was being tormented. If she did what he wanted, they'd all get hurt. "A" had hurt everyone Spencer got close to. And it was either she let him deal with the pain, or she ended things for a good reason. She had to end things, or Toby would only get hurt.
And that infuriated Toby. He thought Spencer loved him! But she told him this exactly, "I know you want us to be together... And I do, too... But I can't make you be in a secret relationship. If we go public, it's only going to hurt you. When I tell you this, just walk away. I'm not dragging you into a secret relationship, and I can't go public with you. I need to protect you. You deserve to be with a normal girl that has no secrets, and nothing to hide. So don't comment... Just go. You don't need a girl who forces you to be a secret couple..."
She was almost crying at this point. Spencer tried to hold her tears back, but it hurt to see Toby's shocked face.
"I love you, Spence." Toby whispered. "I'm not leaving you. You don't need to protect me. We can be a public couple- Nothing will happen to me, I promise. I only want you. I don't want another girl, because I love you!"
Spencer shook her head, "Just go! I'm not worth your time! And we can't be together... It's too risky. Even if we don't go public, they'll find out about us being together and hurt you anyways. I can't let you get any closer to me, Toby."
"You're worth every second!" Toby cried. "I'm in love with you! Who's they? Who's going to hurt me?"
"Someone," Spencer whispered, referring to A, "someone dangerous."
"Don't keep this a secret from me." Toby said. "Just tell me, I'll go hurt them myself! Do your friends still think I killed Alison? Are they threatening to hurt me if I get close to you? I don't give a crap about what your friends think, because I love you."
"My friends don't care," Spencer said, "it's not them, it's someone else. It's someone really dangerous. So just stop wasting your time with me and get the hell away. This is for your own good."
"Are you making all of this up to dump me?" Toby squinted his eyes. "A casual break-up would've been better!"
"No. It's not fake. I want to be with you more than ever," She stared at the ground, "but I will never let you get hurt. I love you."
"If you love me, don't push me away!" Toby yelled.
"I have to. Now get away." Spencer demanded.
And that was the end of them.
One month later...
ROSEWOOD; BY THE BREW
"Toby," A girl grabbed his arm, "hey, Toby!"
"Hey Em," He smiled.
Yes, he was dating Emily Fields. He didn't care that she was a lesbian. He swooped her off her feet, and she decided Toby's worth it. Maya was dead, and Emily never knew that Spencer and Toby went out. Toby kept flirting with her, so she just gave him a chance.
Right then, Spencer was walking out of The Brew. Her eyes met with Toby's.
"Who are you looking at?" Emily asked.
"It's Spencer." Toby honestly replied.
Spencer looked away, heart pounding... Her lesbian friend was dating her ex-boyfriend? If Emily knew that Spencer dated Toby, she never would've made a move on him. But she never found out, so she didn't know any of her friends had a history with Toby, besides being friends.