May 11th
I promised you two things today. First, that I would stay here holding you by until the end, and second that when one of us turns first the other will shoot them to keep them from hurting anyone else. Even now, as you sit slumped over in sleep you are still the most beautiful person I've ever met. It's amazing how strong you are. Every day I wake up and I'm so scared but you're just determined to make the most of what we have left. I pull closer to you, trying to keep warm in the frigid air of the mall. I can see my breath make frosty clouds in the air in front of me as I wrap my arms around you. I can still smell the slightest hint of your vaguely flowery scent on your clothes and when I close my eyes I can pretend we're just hanging out together like we used to. Instead of staying up to watch I accidentally fall asleep with my head on your chest feeling warm and sweet and safe next to you.