Disclaimer: I don't own HDM, it all belongs to Philip Pullman.
This is going to be split into two songfics. One for Will and one for Lyra. Because I think they deserve two songs that at least describes what they're going through because their feelings for each other are strong; that I believe. So, this first one is meant to be for Lyra, but I suppose it can be for both of them, because I think it fits. This song is called Untouchable by Taylor Swift. I kind of teared up while writing this, so tell me what you think, yeah? I don't want to put this at the bottom after the songfic because I think it'll break the atmosphere.
Untouchable
Untouchable,
Like a distant diamond sky.
I'm reaching out
And I just can't tell you why.
I'm caught up in you,
I'm caught up in you.
My heart reaches out to you, and I don't know why because I know this is the right thing to do, but my heart does it anyway. But it can't reach yours because it's untouchable, like the sky. I'm caught up in you, and I always have been and always will be.
Untouchable,
Burning brighter than the sun.
And when you're close,
I feel like coming undone.
You burn brighter than the sun, brighter than anything else I've ever seen, including the witches. Whenever I'm close to you, I feel like coming undone, though I don't know if you've ever noticed. And when you're soon going to be untouchable, back in your own world, I know I won't ever feel like that around anybody else.
In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream,
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name.
Whenever I dream, it's the same dream; the little stars spell out your name across the sky, and I always know what time it is because that bit always happens in the middle of the night; a clock strikes the time.
You gotta
Come on,
Come on,
Say that we'll be together.
Come on,
Come on,
Little taste of heaven.
And in this same dream, just after the stars spell out your name, you appear and I always call out to you. But nothing happens because that's when I start to realise that you can't hear me and I start crying. Calling and crying for you, and then you slowly turn around, and I'm hoping that you'll say we'll be together. And even though the dream you doesn't say it, I wish it, and even though the dream you don't do anything, it's like a taste of heaven, just a little bit.
It's half full and
I won't wait here all day.
I know you're saying
That you'd be here anyway.
I'm in the Botanic Garden now, sitting here on our bench. It's half full, there's people walking about, and wherever I look, they're always walking in couples, to me anyway. And I can't sit here all day, even though I'd like to. It just brings back too many memories of you, of us, and I would end up breaking down to pieces and start sobbing and crying for something I can't reach anymore. And I know that you said-promised-that you'd be here, sitting on the other side of the bench, but it's still not in my world, and it's breaking my heart.
But you're
Untouchable,
Burning brighter than the sun.
Now that you're close,
I feel like coming undone.
But you're still untouchable, and you always will be until we go to the Land of the Dead for the last time, and then, like we promised, our atoms will join together into everything, and when they want to make something new, they can't take one of us, they would have to take two because we'll be joined together so tight and never letting go. And you'll still burn brighter than the sun, you even outshine it. And now that I'm sitting here on our bench, I feel like I'm closer to you because you promised that you'll be sitting here too, and just thinking about it makes me feel like coming undone.
In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name.
And I'm back in this same dream, where nothing changes, nothing new begins, nothing happens out of the usual. And it's breaking my heart, you'll never know how much until I tell you, and that will be years away. And so, here we go again, with the stars spelling out your name, and then I know what will happen next, yet I long to see you, even if it's only in a dream.
You gotta
Come on,
Come on,
Say that we'll be together.
Come on,
Come on.
And there you are, standing there with your daemon, and you turn to me, and this time, it seems different because you turn to me, smile and open your mouth, and do you know what you said? You said the very words I was longing to hear in this dream; you say that we'll be together. My heart leaps for joy, and this time, when I start crying, it's because I'm so happy, but before I can answer, something happens.
In the middle of the night,
Wake up from this dream.
I wanna feel you by my side,
Standing next to me.
I woke up from the dream in the middle of the night. I looked around and finally realised where I was; in bed with my daemon, and no one else was there. I drew my knees up, buried my face in my arms and started crying. Just when the dream seemed perfect, I had to wake up! Oh, you'll never know how much I cried that night, I was so overcome by grief and sorrow. I want to feel you here with me, whether you're by my side like you were on our adventures, or standing next to me, just so long as you were here, wherever I was. I cried so much, the hardest and longest I've ever cried in my life. And I think that the full realisation that you'll never be here with me until death had finally shattered me into little tiny pieces.
You gotta
Come on,
Come on,
Say that we'll be together.
Come on,
Come on,
Little taste of heaven.
And while the full realisation of our separation had hit me, and while I was crying, I still remember you in my dream saying that we'll be together, and even though I had woken up from it, it was still like a taste of heaven, even if it was just for that one second.
I'm caught up in you.
But you're
Untouchable,
Burning brigther than the sun.
Now that you're close,
I feel like coming undone.
I'm caught up in you, and as long as my heart beats, and even when I'm dead, I'll still be caught up in you; that feeling will never die. And you'll still burn brighter than anything else in the universe, even the sun. But as long as I'm alive, every second of my life, I'll feel like coming undone, no matter how close or far apart you are.
In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
And I'm back in this dream again. Will it ever end? But I'm still hoping that you'll say we'll be together, and I'm hoping even more that this time, I won't wake up before I can give my answer. And this time, when the stars spell out your name, there's a pang in my chest. There's been one every night I've had this dream, but tonight, my chest gave a particular loud one.
You gotta
Come on,
Come on,
Say that we'll be together.
Come on,
Come on,
Oooohhhh woahhhh
Yes, it is the same dream as last night's. There you are, and you turn and smile and say those magical words and my heart leaps in my chest and I start crying again.
In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
But this time, to my joy, I don't wake up, and I can answer you back, but of course, the dream you knew my answer anyway, and you take my hand and we stare up at the stars where they've spelt out your name. Then, to my surprise, the stars spell out my name next to yours; Will + Lyra. And that's when I knew I was going to cherish every memory of you, all the moments and all the times I spent with you, our first meeting, when you saved me from my mother in the cave, our first kiss, our last kiss, and even this dream. Every single moment I'll cherish in my heart for ever.
You gotta
Come on,
Come on,
Say that we'll be together.
Come on,
Come on,
Come on.
And then we lie on the grass together, our daemons playing around us while we stare at the sky with our names written on it, and our hands are still intertwined. We turn to each other and say 'I love you. Forever and always' at the same time.
In the middle of the night
Wake up from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side
Standing next to me.
And then I wake up. It doesn't take me as long to realise where I am, but when I do, I start crying again. This time though, it's for a different reason. I cried because I felt so happy to have seen you, even if it was only in a dream and for a little while. And there's still an ache in my heart telling me that I still want you by my side or standing next to me, but it's not as painful as it was before.
You gotta
Come on,
Come on,
Say that we'll be together.
Come on,
Come on,
Little taste of heaven.
And that's when I knew that even though we're far apart, a world away, we'll always be together, in our hearts and in that dream, and we'll be together when our atoms join and we'll never separate. That dream will be my little taste of heaven because that's when you say that we'll be together and the stars write our names in the sky and our daemons are playing happily and we're spending some time together.
In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars
Spelling out your name
And now this dream comes back to me every night, without fail. And one night, we even kissed in the moonlight, with the stars still twinkling high above us in the letters that forms our names.
You gotta
Come on,
Come on,
Come on,
Come on,
Come on,
Come on.
Oh oh oh woah
Like a million little stars
Spelling out your name.
Spelling out your name.
And now the dream even finishes in the same way, without fail. Before I wake up, the last thing I see in the dream is you and your daemon standing in the moonlight, and high above you, in the sky, our names are still written there.