Long time no talk guys! Let's catch up. I'm home full time now with Ella who is so beautiful.. She's 5 years old and has my blonde hair but her daddy's eyes.. She is the perfect combination of the two of us.. She's got Jon's fearlessness though which I'm glad because this way she isn't afraid to try new things. Jon is on the road still so he's not home as much but he is always here when anything important is going on and thank god for face time because we FaceTime every night to put Ella to bed together so she has a routine. She's in school and she loves it her favorite subject is science.. Jon and i's relationship is strong but it is difficult to find time alone with a 5 year old running around
We were home I was making dinner and Ella was doing her homework at the counter in the kitchen. Jon would be home anytime. This is the longest Ella has been away from him in a long time because he was on the European tour which was 3 weeks long and FaceTime didn't always work in certain places.. I was finishing dinner when I heard the door open and shut I heard his bag drop to the floor
"Daddy!" Ella yelled jumping down from the chair and running to the front door I poked my head around the corner just in time to see her jump into his arms as he scooped her up with ease I smiled
"I missed you.." He said to her kissing her forehead before putting her down and coming to me we shared a very passionate kiss I was the one to pull away knowing if this continued we would scar our child and burn dinner
"Hello beautiful.." He said to me
"Hi..." I said as he held me into his chest
As we ate dinner Ella was filling Jon in on everything he had missed these past few weeks which was a lot according to her.. Her new friend Katie moved schools, penny wasn't part of the group anymore because she doesn't like pink, Mia is in the group because she likes pink and she get bonus points because she loves my little pony and a boy tried to kiss Brooke! I say all this so you all are caught up as well and I know what you're thinking what the hell? Yeah.. That's exactly what Jon was thinking too...
"So.. I have a question.." She said
"What?" I asked taking a bite of the chicken
"When my little sister gets here she gets her own room right?" She asked and I almost choked Jon looked at me with wide eyes
"Wait.. Are you pregnant?" He asked
"No! No! I'm not! But Ella has been begging for a sister since you've been gone.." I said and he shook his head
We ate and went through our nightly routine. I came down the stairs after putting Ella to sleep.. Jon was sitting on the couch I sat in his lap
"I missed you.." I said and he kissed me he picked me up and carried me up the stairs never breaking the kiss he kicked the door to our room open and pushed me up the against the wall before I knew it our clothes were gone he put me on the bed and began kissing my body.. I could tell he was ready he looked in my eyes and inserted himself in me I moaned a little
"God.. I missed you.." I said and he smiled kissing me as he started thrusting the longer the time went the harder and faster the thrusts got I could tell it was a lot of built up frustration of not having me for 3 weeks
I woke up to the sound of crying I knew it was Ella so I got up throwing jon's shirt over my head and slipping into shorts.. I walked in her room
"Hey baby.." I said
"Mommy I don't feel good.." She said
"What's wrong?" I heard from the door I looked to see Jon walking in like a zombie
"I feel weird.." She said to him as I held her
"Weird how?" He asked sitting next to us on the bed
"All fuzzy.. Like I'm dizzy and I see black dots.." She said I was a little worried at this point. She didn't feel warm to me.. So I knew it wasn't a fever I turned the light on and looked her over I didn't see any bites so it couldn't be anything like that I went in the bathroom to grab a cool wash cloth when I heard Jon
"Ella.. Ella.. Come on baby.. Don't scare me like this.. Ella! Open your eyes!" I ran in the room to see her laying on the floor.. She was having a seizure.. Jon just looked at me unsure what to do I got down there with her holding her head still and putting the wash cloth on her forehead
"Go get dressed and start the car and call the hospital to tell them we're coming and what's going on.." I said and he got up going to do that and start the car
"Come on Ella.. You gotta breathe.. Breathe.. Come on.. Hang on baby it's almost over.." I kept saying and she took a sharp intake of breath and let it out slowly before opening her eyes to look at me and closing them her breathing went back to normal and the convulsing stopped slowly
We got to the hospital in record time.. They took us back right away and started taking blood and vital signs and scans and tests and everything they could think of they put Ella on an IV with fluids Jon called work and told them he wasn't coming in tomorrow until we figured out what was going on and they agreed he should be with us
We walked in the room and saw Ella laying there.. Jon held my shoulders as we watched the nurses take vital signs
"My baby.." I said he kissed my cheek
"She needs you to be strong..." He said I nodded my head
"We're gonna give you a shot sweetie to make you feel better.." The nurse said
"Mommy!" Ella yelled at me I walked over and held her
There were doctors in constantly all night long.. Ella slept through most of it thank god but Jon and I didn't sleep hardly at all because we were both on guard.
"Mr and Mrs. Good.. I'm I've been overseeing Ella's care.." The doctor said coming in the room and shaking our hands
"After performing numerous scans and tests and examining blood samples it is to my knowledge along with three other doctors that reviewed the scans and tests that we have discovered that Ella has something called Status epilepticus.. Which is a form of epilepsy.. I must inform you with this particular form it can be life threatening because the patient can have one seizure after another and if they last longer than five minutes with no break in between it can be fatal.. We are going to prescribe her some antibiotics that should help prevent them that she will be on for the foreseeable future and we will also order a special pill that needs to be on her at all times in case she does have multiple seizures you can slip this pill under her tongue and it should help bring her out of it.. The nurses will come in and explain things in further detail to you and show you how to care for her during this episodes and answer any other questions you may have..." He said and that was it he left the room Jon and I just stared at each other trying to take in the information that he just gave us.. It was like our world had just been shattered.. Everything we've known is going to change and never be the same.. We're gonna have to learn how to live with this and care for our daughter completely differently and learn all over again and also teach Ella about what's going on so she knows so she can tell her friends and teachers so they know what to do when she gets older and we aren't with her if something happens..
"I'm gonna go get coffee.." Jon said getting out of the chair I shook my head I knew he wanted to be alone so I let him go I looked at Ella who looked so peaceful sleeping I got up and walked out of the room closing the door and sliding down it crying I felt arms wrap around me and looked to see Jon holding me with tears in his eyes "do what you need to do.." He said and I cried and something came over me and I started hitting him and he just held me tighter "shh..shh.. It's ok.. It's ok.." He kept saying and I just cried
"Why?! My baby! Why does she have to go through this? Tell me what I did!" I yelled at him
"You didn't do anything! You've done everything right! I love you ok.. I'm here.. I'm not going anywhere and she's gonna be ok!" He said I kept crying
"Daddy..." We heard from the room
"Stay out here until you can get yourself together.. She doesn't need to see you like this.." He said getting up kissing my head
I went for a walk and got coffee and tried to get myself together when I came back Ella was sitting up coloring Jon was asleep in bed behind her I smiled
"Hi mommy.. Shhh.. Daddy is tired.." She said
"You wanna come walk with me?" I asked and she nodded getting up I helped put her in sweats and grabbed the IV pole in one hand and her hand in my other and we started walking
"Am I sick?" She asked looking up at me
"Yeah.. But don't you worry okay.. Me and daddy are gonna make sure you get better.." I said
"Am I gonna be in here all the time?" She asked
"I hope not.. But I don't know baby.. We don't really know what's going on.." I said
We were released from the hospital and went home. I was sitting on the couch and Jon was playing with Ella in the playroom he came in
"Hey..." He said I looked at him "go lay down.. I've got her.. You need to go to sleep.." He said I nodded and began to walk up the stairs and he grabbed my wrist I turned around and kissed him
"I love you.." I said and he smiled kissing me again
"I love you.. More and more everyday.." He said
** What a crazy first chapter.. I know It was a lot in the first chapter but I wanted to get everybody caught up for the most part