Dear dragon,
I don't even have the strength to be mad. Not really. Just kind of numb. Not even sure what that means. I'm just tired. I spent the last 4 years trying to get forgiveness for 1 sin. I know you say you have forgiven but you haven't. But at least mine was once. Yours keeps going. And I am drowning in it I can't even breathe any more. You are suffocating me. You aren't even here and you are slowly killing me. I started cutting again. You leaving and being gone and now having a crush plus a snuggle buddy who you kiss at night is killing me slowly. But I don't think you understand not really. You think you do. But I'm not so sure.
You say you're just lonely but I am lonely and you don't see me kissing and sleeping with over people. I don't know what you expect from me but I'm not sure I can give it.
I am a good woman. For all of my faults I am a good woman. But I'm not sure I can give you want you seem to need. I really did love you my dragon. I gave you my everything. I hope she makes you happy. Because that's what I want. For you to be happy.
She is pretty dragon, but she won't ever be as good as I was to you. Good as I was to you this is the thanks I get. Guess all the years we spent were easy to forget. This is the way it's done dragon looking out for number one. Have you finally found the one, your dream come true? Well my dragon she is everything I can't be. Younger skinny beautiful. But I promise she won't ever be as good as I was to you.
I hope remember the times we had. And all the times I pulled you back from sinking. What a shame we became such a broken thing. I can't let myself regret anything though. That's just a selfishness I can't handle. So my dragon I truly do hope you are happiness. I will find a way to heal myself. Not more fighting for you dragon.
I know when we first met you had to protect me and I needed you to be able to stand. But not anymore. I am strong enough to live and breathe and fight. I will not cut anymore to numb the pain you caused. I am better than that. Hurting myself because of you means I am weak. But I'm not anymore. You can't make me and I refuse to be. Dragon you deserve to be happy but so do I, and I will be damned before you hold me back when I can't hold you back.
I love you but like I said dragon you are killing me and I just can't anymore. So dear dragon this is good bye. Live life be happy. Maybe one day we can be friends. But not now. I really did love you.
Love the star princess.
I am no longer in your reach.