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Bella's POV

School was torture. I avoided Edward at all costs, and everyone who had heard what happened did too. Well, everyone except Lauren. She would never do something like that. Edward for some reason didn't seem to like her attention much, though.

With the help of Alice, Emmett, Rose, and Jasper, I moved on some. I began to go out and laugh more, and I got over the incident much faster than I would have originally thought. Of course, I still loved him with all my heart; it was just that he didn't love me back. They were right; the first real loss of the love is the hardest. (A/N I was so going to end it there. Don't underestimate me.)

As if life wasn't complicated enough in Forks…things had to get worse. Jasper and Alice were fighting more. Charlie was never home, because his transferred job as a policeman was a full time job. Esme, who was Rosalie and Jasper's mom, and Carlisle, Edward's dad, were flirting like the teenagers, and it seemed to be getting more serious. Emmett and Rosalie were the same, thank goodness, except the fact that they could never keep their hands off each other. That had become normal, though.

I poured more of myself into baseball and music than I ever did before. Edward was out of the band. Jasper and I worked on our music together more, and we came up with some awesome songs. We were in my basement, practicing for our upcoming Club Show the next day. We both had come up with another song, and he was going to play his for me now. I was sitting on the couch, with my feet curled up beneath me. He started humming like he always did, and I smiled.

I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who'd have known
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed, to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never set foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault

I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I'd survived
I can't wait till I get home
To pass the time in my room alone

I smiled, grinned, and hugged him. He was awesome. He hugged back for a few seconds, before handing me my guitar. I took a deep breath and let it out in a huge gust. My song was much deeper than my usual ones. I began strumming, hoping he liked it. Jasper's approval was more important to me than ever. It's not like I liked him that way (that would be so wrong with Alice as my sister), it's just he had been there throughout the entire situation and stuck by me the whole time; even though Edward is (was, I got corrected, but I thought he shouldn't stay mad at him for something that wasn't between them) his best friend. That had to leave some impression.

Never win first place
I don't support

The team
I can't take direction and my socks are never clean
Teachers dated me
My parents hated me
I was always in a fight
Cuz I can't do nothin right
Every day I fight a war against a mirror
I can't take the person staring back at me


I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
It's bad when you don't know yourself
So irritating
Don't want to be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
I wanna be somebody else
Yeah


L.A. told me
You could be a pop star
All you have to change is everything you are
Tired of being compared
To damn Britney Spears
She's so pretty
That just ain't me


So doctor doctor won't you please prescribe me somethin
A day in the life of someone else
Cuz I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
It's bad when you don't know yourself
So irritating
Don't want to be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
Yeah
don't let me get me don't let me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you don't know yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
So doctor doctor won't you please prescribe me somethin
A day in the life of someone else
Don't let me get me


Oh I'm a hazard to myself
Yeah
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
It's bad when you don't know yourself
Yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
Its bad when you don't know yourself
So irritating
Don't wanna be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
Don't let me get me

Jasper stared at me for a few seconds after I finished before cheering. He began clapping and wolf whistling, making me blush. He wouldn't stop, either.

I got so embarrassed I flicked him on the ear to make him stop. Then he jumped on me and started tickling me. I couldn't stop laughing. We fell off the couch, and lay on the floor, shaking with laughter. We quieted down after a few minutes, but stayed in the same position.

Then Jasper turned on his side, propping his head on his arms and staring at me. "Is that really how you feel about yourself? That you're like a disease or something?" He looked at me with his clear blue eyes, and I knew I couldn't avoid the question.

I moved so that I was in the same position as him, and thought about it. Did I? "Maybe. All I know is that every time something good happens in my life, I mean really good, I get bad luck. Does that answer your question?" I thought for a few seconds, before continuing. "What about your song?"

He sighed, and tapped his chin in thought. "I guess. It was more that I wrote it for the person like you who had been through some form of heartbreak or betrayal, and could even after they got over it possibly end up alone. You know?"

I nodded, and then was silent. We sat there looking at each other, not really seeing. We were each lost in our thoughts.

Suddenly an idea popped into my head, and I sat up and grabbed the guitar. I giggled as I strummed, writing down the notes on and lyrics on my notepad. Jasper watched me with an amused expression, kindly respecting what Emmett called being in 'the zone.'

Once I had the gist of it, I stood up and sprinted over to the recording side of the basement. Jasper followed, and plopped down on the couch where I motioned him to. I switched on the system, and west to work.

Jasper disappeared for a few seconds, returning with Alice, Emmett, and Rosalie. They all watched me with an amused expression, as I sprinted back and forth. Alice came forward to help, and soon everyone was involved in the recording process.

Once we had worked it all out, we began playing the music. We did each instrument at a time, then all together. We didn't add the lyrics yet, though. Rosalie was controlling the machinery while we played, asking us to redo parts and try different things. Once we were done, I shooed everyone else out of the basement. I wanted to record the vocals by myself.

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Jasper's POV

Bella had kicked us out. I guess she wanted it to be a surprise. Oh well. We trooped upstairs, and Rosalie and Emmett drove over to our house. I sat down on the couch, with Alice curled into my side, and we watched MTV. Not particularly my favorite thing to do, but it was what Alice wants.

Bell immerged from the studio two hours later, tired but triumphant. We all gathered around her stereo as she put in the CD, and listened.

I wake up every evening
With a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place.
And you're still probably working
At a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell

Now where's your picket fence love
And where's that shiny car
Did it ever get you far?
You never seem so tense, love
Never seen you fall so hard
Do you know where you are?

Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a dame that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then she's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Where did it all go wrong?
But the list goes on and on

Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a dame that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then she's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see
What you've done to me
You can take back your memories
They're no good to me
And here's all your lies
If you look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a dame that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then she's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell (hope it gives you hell)
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell (hope it gives you hell)
When you hear this song and you sing along well you'll never tell
And you're the fool I've just as well I hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
You can sing along I hope that it puts you through hell

When it finished, Emmett, Rosalie, Bella, and I were laughing so hard. Alice was grinning, but she seemed confused. I wonder why?

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Bella's POV

After school on Friday, Alice, Rosalie, and I drove to the mall. Apparently we needed new outfits for performing. I don't' know why, though.

The first store we stopped at, I got dragged in to face a pile of dresses. Oh snap. Alice came out with an orange one that looked amazing on her. She wouldn't stop twirling around the room while I lay laughing helplessly on the floor. I and to admit, she looked awesome, though.

"What are you guys doing?" We both stopped ant tuned slowly to face Rose. She stood in the doorway of her changing room, hand on her hips. I gaped at her for a few seconds before jumping up to hug her. She looked hot!

"Rose! That's perfect!" Alice squealed while bouncing up and down.

Rosalie blushed, ducking her head in embarrassment, before leaning in to whisper in my ear. "Do you think Emmett will like it?"

I turned to her, smiling in reassurance. "He'll probably have to resist not jumping on you on the spot." I giggled, and she laughed before swatting my arm playfully.

We had to go through six more shops before I found what I was looking for. Since Alice and Rosalie were both busy debating the topic of earrings, I grabbed it and snuck quietly into the changing room.

When I put it on, I felt amazing. I opened the door of the room slowly, before walking nervously down the hall towards the mirror. I stared. It looked beautiful! I touched the neckline, wondering how something like this would go over with Alice. Even if she said no, I was buying it. No doubt about that.

"EEEEEEEEEK! BELLA THAT LOOKS AMAZING YOU HAVE TO BUY IT OH MY GOD HOW COME I DIDN'T FIND THAT IT IS JUST PERFECT FOR YOU ROSALIE COME QUICK!" Alice shrieked, making my eardrums throb. She darted over to me, grabbing my wrist before yanking me out to show Rose.

When she saw me, she produced an Alice worthy squeal, and they both made me buy it. I didn't mind, though.

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