He loves me? NOT!
chapter 1
So Mattie... when are you going to stop lying to yourself?...You say that you don't like him, but I know you do. So c'mon, tell him, tell him TELL HIM!
I woke up and realized that I must've been yelling in my sleep because I had my brother, Alfred F. Jones, beside my bed trying to calm me, you know the ususal, stroking
my hair and telling me that everything is going to be alright and so on. I sit up in my red colored bed and wrap my blanket, that is drenched in white maple leaf patterns,
around my shoulders and let a long sigh escape my lips and said, " Al?...why does m-my life have to be so, um...crappy?" I saw that he didn't understand what I meant by
the derp face he was making. "Mattie what do ya mean? Your life isn't crappy and do you wanna know why bro?" I stared at him waiting for and answer " because! you have
the most amazing mother fucking bro in the mother fucking world!" and that narcissistic comment was follow by that annoying laugh of his.
After getting dressed in my usual weekend clothing, a red hoodie with a white maple leaf in the center, blue jeans and red high tops. I grab Mr. Kumajiro and head outside
for my morning walk around town, but after I walk a few feet I stop dead in my tracks because of what lies in my view. Blood red eyes gazing up at the sky, snow white hair barely moving from a light breeze, muscles gleaming in the sunlight raised above his head in the grass...Gilbert Beilschmidt.
There's a knot in my stomach, half of me want to turn around and run away, but you know...there's always going to be that otherside of me that wants to walk past him
and gaze some more but all-in-all I was snapped out of my daydream when I tripped over my shoelace and did a faceplant right into the concrete. I brought my face off
the ground only to see that Gilbert isn't just staring at me, HE WAS LAUGHING AT ME! I have never been so embarrassed in my whole life! But, I managed to laugh at
myself and tell an obvious lie, "hehe, I-I guess it was, um, a little funny hehe".