Just a little Kira/Katou fic from Katou's POV. May be a little OOC. Probably one-shot. Rated for attempted suicide, rape, and all that luuurvely stuff -_-.
Disclaimer: I do not own Angel Sanctuary, so don't sue me. I own nothing but this computer and-- +checks pocket+ Uhm, this Hong Kong one dollar. O.o
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I awoke and blinked my eyes lazily. Blurry…everything was blurry…Wait. I remembered where I was. I tried to stand up but…fuck, that hurt. I managed to drag myself up into a sitting position, leaning against a hard brick wall. At last, I could see where I was. A dark alleyway; so dark…is it night? I don't know. I've lost all sense of time, and as it seems everything else too. I glanced at my watch. Crap…it's not working. Well, you get what you pay for, right? I sighed and stared at the ground. Then the memories came; that's the problem with my life. As soon as I start thinking anything good I might have had, any chance of happiness just disappears.
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I sat alone on my bed, crying. Sometimes I wish I had a family; not like I have now, I mean a proper family, y'know? But I know that's impossible. It'll never happen, not to me. Sometimes I feel so jealous of what others have…I'm always told to be grateful for what I have, but how can I be when I have nothing? I wrapped the blanket around myself, not that it was much comfort. It barely kept me warm, and I continued to shiver in the cold as I sobbed quietly. I heard the door open. Without turning around, I already know it's HIM. I know he's not my real father…a father wouldn't do such things to his son. I looked at him, and as soon as I did I knew I was done for...when he gets that look in his eyes I know not to resist. He walked over and I closed my eyes tightly.
I panted heavily. Breathing was difficult, and it hurt like hell. HE smirked at me and pushed me roughly down onto the bed. "You'd better not try to resist me, you little whore…"He said to me. He sat on the bed beside me and swiftly pulled down my pants. I knew what was coming next. He ordered me to roll over, and I knew better than to disobey when he used that tone of voice. I rolled over and lay on my front, trying to get rid of the feeling of fear that lurked in the bottom of my stomach. After all, this wasn't exactly the first time this had happened. I closed my eyes as he thrust his erection violently inside of me, biting my lip to prevent myself from crying out. He continued to thrust hard; it hurt so much, and it didn't help that my whole body was already in terrible pain, bruised and scarred from the beating I got earlier. I couldn't cry…I couldn't let him see my weakness…no…I felt him come, and whimpered quietly. A single tear dripped gently down my cheek.
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I pulled my knees close against my chest and rested my chin on them. I was…crying? I…I don't know…I felt nothing, I was completely numb. I didn't even feel the pain anymore. Well, perhaps not physical pain. Emotional pain, however, was a completely different matter. I hated this. I hated how he made me feel; I hated him. I still do. As far as I'm concerned, I have no family. Families are supposed to look out for each other and care for each other, right? Not like I'm exactly the right person to ask. In that case, Kira is my only family…but I don't even have him anymore. He's always hanging around with that stupid pretty-boy. He took the only thing I had away…it's like he ripped my heart out and stamped on it. Kira…
Setsuna. That stupid kid. He took away my only chance of happiness…I suppose…we're not that different really. Both of us have parents who hate us, though of course I knew since long ago that my 'father' isn't really my dad. Still, he has his sister too, as well as Kira. I don't even have Kira anymore. Hah. Everything always leads back to Kira. I love him…at least I think I do…I don't really know love. I'm so unsure…either way, Kira is all I have. He's the only one that cares about me…TRULY cares. Now he's gone, there's no point in living through this torture they call a life anymore. It's almost sad. I'm still young and yet I feel like this…I just want to just end it all.
I saw a rusty knife that lay on the ground near my foot. I almost smiled. I reached over and picked up the blade. It was slightly blunt, but still quite sharp. Sharp enough. I ran the blade over my finger, pressing it down hard. It cut just fine, as the blood that dripped from my finger showed. I pressed the knife blade against my wrist, and began to cut at the skin which was already scarred from previous attempts to do this. Blood poured freely from the cuts. I smiled weakly. Yes. THIS was my only chance of happiness. I lay back down on the cold ground. 'They've probably all forgotten about me. Won't even notice I'm gone…'I murmured to myself. Not that anybody would care…as I lay there, my eyes half closed, I noticed the shadow of a figure before me. I blinked and looked at him. He was silent.
I spoke just a single word. 'Kira…'
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Yes, I know it's shit…-_- Feel free to review and tell me how bad it is^^ I could do with someone agreeing with me for once. If you actually want me too continue this crap, then tell me so in a review, otherwise it's just a one-shot. Anyway, thanks for taking the time to read this thing^^
Disclaimer: I do not own Angel Sanctuary, so don't sue me. I own nothing but this computer and-- +checks pocket+ Uhm, this Hong Kong one dollar. O.o
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I awoke and blinked my eyes lazily. Blurry…everything was blurry…Wait. I remembered where I was. I tried to stand up but…fuck, that hurt. I managed to drag myself up into a sitting position, leaning against a hard brick wall. At last, I could see where I was. A dark alleyway; so dark…is it night? I don't know. I've lost all sense of time, and as it seems everything else too. I glanced at my watch. Crap…it's not working. Well, you get what you pay for, right? I sighed and stared at the ground. Then the memories came; that's the problem with my life. As soon as I start thinking anything good I might have had, any chance of happiness just disappears.
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I sat alone on my bed, crying. Sometimes I wish I had a family; not like I have now, I mean a proper family, y'know? But I know that's impossible. It'll never happen, not to me. Sometimes I feel so jealous of what others have…I'm always told to be grateful for what I have, but how can I be when I have nothing? I wrapped the blanket around myself, not that it was much comfort. It barely kept me warm, and I continued to shiver in the cold as I sobbed quietly. I heard the door open. Without turning around, I already know it's HIM. I know he's not my real father…a father wouldn't do such things to his son. I looked at him, and as soon as I did I knew I was done for...when he gets that look in his eyes I know not to resist. He walked over and I closed my eyes tightly.
I panted heavily. Breathing was difficult, and it hurt like hell. HE smirked at me and pushed me roughly down onto the bed. "You'd better not try to resist me, you little whore…"He said to me. He sat on the bed beside me and swiftly pulled down my pants. I knew what was coming next. He ordered me to roll over, and I knew better than to disobey when he used that tone of voice. I rolled over and lay on my front, trying to get rid of the feeling of fear that lurked in the bottom of my stomach. After all, this wasn't exactly the first time this had happened. I closed my eyes as he thrust his erection violently inside of me, biting my lip to prevent myself from crying out. He continued to thrust hard; it hurt so much, and it didn't help that my whole body was already in terrible pain, bruised and scarred from the beating I got earlier. I couldn't cry…I couldn't let him see my weakness…no…I felt him come, and whimpered quietly. A single tear dripped gently down my cheek.
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I pulled my knees close against my chest and rested my chin on them. I was…crying? I…I don't know…I felt nothing, I was completely numb. I didn't even feel the pain anymore. Well, perhaps not physical pain. Emotional pain, however, was a completely different matter. I hated this. I hated how he made me feel; I hated him. I still do. As far as I'm concerned, I have no family. Families are supposed to look out for each other and care for each other, right? Not like I'm exactly the right person to ask. In that case, Kira is my only family…but I don't even have him anymore. He's always hanging around with that stupid pretty-boy. He took the only thing I had away…it's like he ripped my heart out and stamped on it. Kira…
Setsuna. That stupid kid. He took away my only chance of happiness…I suppose…we're not that different really. Both of us have parents who hate us, though of course I knew since long ago that my 'father' isn't really my dad. Still, he has his sister too, as well as Kira. I don't even have Kira anymore. Hah. Everything always leads back to Kira. I love him…at least I think I do…I don't really know love. I'm so unsure…either way, Kira is all I have. He's the only one that cares about me…TRULY cares. Now he's gone, there's no point in living through this torture they call a life anymore. It's almost sad. I'm still young and yet I feel like this…I just want to just end it all.
I saw a rusty knife that lay on the ground near my foot. I almost smiled. I reached over and picked up the blade. It was slightly blunt, but still quite sharp. Sharp enough. I ran the blade over my finger, pressing it down hard. It cut just fine, as the blood that dripped from my finger showed. I pressed the knife blade against my wrist, and began to cut at the skin which was already scarred from previous attempts to do this. Blood poured freely from the cuts. I smiled weakly. Yes. THIS was my only chance of happiness. I lay back down on the cold ground. 'They've probably all forgotten about me. Won't even notice I'm gone…'I murmured to myself. Not that anybody would care…as I lay there, my eyes half closed, I noticed the shadow of a figure before me. I blinked and looked at him. He was silent.
I spoke just a single word. 'Kira…'
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Yes, I know it's shit…-_- Feel free to review and tell me how bad it is^^ I could do with someone agreeing with me for once. If you actually want me too continue this crap, then tell me so in a review, otherwise it's just a one-shot. Anyway, thanks for taking the time to read this thing^^