I've never posted to FF before. I used to post to LJ many moons ago. I firgured hey why not. Lets start with a maybe one shot that could actually turn out to be a full blown story if i fancy it. As always here are the T & C's
Name: Know me
Rights: Everything here belongs to Shonda Rhimes. I just like to use my words to play with her characters.
Rating: MA for lanuage and themes
WARNING: CONTAINS TALK OF SELF HARM. DO NOT READ IF EASILY TRIGGERED. DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN YOU.
Wanna know what i'm thinking? Why I can't sleep at night?
Wanna know what i'm drinking? A double of anything's fine.
The cold steely blue of her eyes burns through you. Wince. Distance yourself. Move on. Move forward. Except there's nowhere else to go is there?
This is my life now too.
Her head is all fucked up and her soul is drifting away in the gentle breeze left by hurricane after hurricane in her life.
This is my life now too.
Her voice cracking is an assault on your ears. One you didn't need tonight. Push past it. Push it way back into the darkest part of your mind. Get her to go to sleep. Get her to rest. Block her out. Then unpack it all. Unpack all the hate and give it free reign on your soul for the night.
This is my life now too.
Just one more. The burn is exquisite as the liquid slides down your throat. The hearty laugh of a stranger brings be back to this pit you call reality. That used to be you. You used to be her. How little she knows about the world. All that "life experience". It was all crap. Where's all that knowledge now? Festering somewhere you can't get to.
This is my life now too.
Just one more. Just a little deeper. The decadent sheen of red runs further over the bathtub lip. Just one more then its out. Just one more then i'll be whole.
This is my life now too.
Clean yourself up. Pack it all away. Bring the smile up.
This is my life now too.
The cold steel blue of her eyes burns through you. Wince. Distance yourself. Move on. Move forward. Except there's nowhere else to go is there?
This is my life now too.
Her head is all fucked up and her soul is drifting away in the gentle breeze left by hurricane after hurricane in her life.
This is my life now too.
The glass smashing is an assault on your ears. One you didn't need tonight. Push past it. Push it way back into the darkest part of your mind. Get her to shut up. Get her to leave. She obviously wants to. Block her out. Then unpack it all. Unpack all the hate and give it free reign on your soul for the night.
This is my life now too.
Just two more. The burn is exquisite as the liquid slides down your throat. The soft, polite, conversation of strangers lures you back to this pit you call reality. That used to be you. You used to be them. How little they know about the world. All that "life experience". It was all crap. Where's all that knowledge now? Festering somewhere you don't want to go.
This is my life now too.
Just one more. Just a little deeper then before. The decadent sheen of red runs further over the bathtub lip. Drips onto the marble floor. Just one more then its out. Just one more then i'll be whole.
This is my life now too.
Clean yourself up. Pack it all away. Bring the smile up.
This is my life now too.
The cold steel blue of her eyes burns through you. Wince. Distance yourself. Move on. Move forward. Except there's nowhere else to go is there?
This is my life now too...
Thanks all. As always R&R is lovely :)
ADIOS for now.