Disclaimer: This is the tenth story in The Songs of EO. It features the song My Immortal, by Evanescence. Liv is still undercover, and they are missing each other. Anything that is known to be someone else's isn't mine. Read and review, yall!
My Immortal
By Julia
I'm so tired of bein' here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
if you have to leave I wish that
you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
You cried I'd wipe away
all of your tears
You'd scream I'd fight away
all of your fears
And I've held your hand through
all of these years
But you still have all of me
It was a beautiful day, but to Elliot Stabler, it felt like a horrid, rainy day. He was lying on his couch, something playing on tv, he just wasn't completely sure what it was. His partner, Olivia Benson, had been gone for a month, and he missed her terribly. They had had a stupid fight, and she'd gone undercover. So he couldn't even contact her to tell her he was sorry. He hated that. He loved her so much. She was haunting him. She was all he thought about.
Olivia Benson hated Oregon. She was without Elliot. It was horrible. Even though their fight had happened a month ago, the pain was still fresh. She ached to see him. She just missed him. She loved him so much. She was never going to get through this. What if they never saw each other again? She didn't like that prospect.
Elliot lay on the couch, listening to Rod Stewart. He was so depressed. He hated this. He hated working without Liv. Dani Beck seemed to be a nice woman, but she was no Livvy. He missed her so much he couldn't put it into words. Every time the phone rang, he thought it might be Liv. It never was. He wondered if she missed him as much as he did her.
Olivia was lying on her couch. She couldn't even use her real name. All she thought about these days was Elliot. She didn't have any friends up here because all she did was throw herself into her work, and go home and think about Elliot. People at work tried to get her to talk, 'cause they could tell something was wrong. That's how lost she was. People she didn't even know her could tell she was lost.
You used to captivate me
With your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Elliot hadn't showered in four days. It's a good thing Cragen had given him a couple of weeks off. He suspected that Cap knew he loved Liv. He had been treating Elliot like glass lately. It was driving him crazy. He hated for anyone to feel sorry for him. He even hated for Liv to feel sorry for him. He knew she had, and could be now. He tried not to let himself think that way.
Everytime he went to work, he had to look at Dani sitting in Liv's chair. Working at Liv's desk. Liv got a new location. He had the same old haunts. Everytime he went to sleep, Liv's face came to the forefront of his brain. He had never loved Kathy like he loved Livvy. Time wasn't going to heal this gaping wound in his heart. For the thousandth time, he wondered if Liv missed him.
You cried I'd wipe away
all of your tears
You'd scream I'd fight away
all of your fears
And I've held your hand through
all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
Olivia told herself every day that she was going to have to live without Elliot for now. Some days it was hard. She felt like he was right there with her. Everytime she went to do anything, she wondered what Elliot would say. When guys asked her out, (and there had been some; apparently, she was hot) she always turned them down because of Elliot. She would give anything to just turn back the clock. She would have fought to stay with him. Told him it was one of their stupid fights and she loved him. She just ached inside. She looked out the window, towards New York. Would things ever be the way they had been? He may have been the one. Now, she may never know.
You cried I'd wipe away
all of your tears
You'd scream I'd fight away
all of your fears
And I've held your hand through
all of these years
But you still have all of me
all of me
Elliot wiped tears from his face. Olivia Benson was always going to have all of him. No matter if he saw her again or not. It was such a big wound. It would be open and gaping until she came back to him for good.
Author's note: I LOVE that song even more now that it reminds me of EO. For the longest time, it reminded me of an ex, and I couldn't listen to it. Now, almost 24/7. I just love my EO. Shoot a review, even if you hated it. But who could hate any EO story? Non-reviewers can go take a hike. I've no use for you. Still working on Heartbeat, and as soon as I figure out another song, I'll have another songfic. TTYL, ya'll!