Regret

A KiKuro fanfiction

.

Chapter 1: Mistake

.

.

Disclaimer: Tadatoshi Fujimaki - KnB

Drama, family, hurt/comfort

Kise x fem!Kuroko

.

.

.

.

.

People might get tired of their love life at some point, and easily fall for a moment of temptation. This is why we should not forget the good things given, and how you were when you fell in love at the first time.

Else, it will become our greatest regret.

That one morning she woke up at, was not as beautiful as usual. She woke up in a foreign room, one small space with double bed, single armchair with a small coffee table, and a drawer. The room was good, but the situation was not. The usually-pair-of-bright-sky, this time clouded with fear and guilt. Tightly her hand clutched on the rather thick fabric, which was covering her to above her chest. What made her frightened even more was a sound of falling water from the shower in the bathroom. Her heart was beating so loudly. Worried and shock filling the girl's heart, made her rushed her move to quickly get down from the bed and took her clothes, after being neglected the whole night, to put them back on. Before the person there returned.

"What happened last night?! What did I do?!"

Only those kind of questions stuffed in her mind in this early bright morning. Soon she had her clothes back on, properly. Quickly the petite girl left the room without leaving any message or notes. On her way leaving the hotel, curses and blame from her directed to herself. Nothing in her mind clearly explained how did it happen, until one faint image snapped her into reality. An image of her, drinking with her friends last night. It wouldn't be a big matter actually. Not, if...

Kise Ryouta calling...

She jolted in surprise, immediately by instinct taking the phone from her bag, but not answering it right away. If the person who called her only a friend, she wouldn't be this scared and nervous. The problem here, Kise Ryouta was her husband. A conflict whether to answer the call or not, fought in her head. Why did he call her so early? Did he found it out already? This quick? But, why?

Her hand was shaking, even though what she had to do was only sliding the green button on the screen to the right. Only that. However, it felt like a heavy thing to do so suddenly. It felt like, if she picked the call up, the world will end. Well, in a way, a world would end if he did know what happened today. She realized it was her mistake, for letting her guard down last night, and accepting her friends' invitation to go out for a blind date, even though she had no intention looking for a date by joining them. Simply she only wanted to distract her messy mind she had recently. But, who would know that reckless decision would make her encounter such greatly dangerous situation? For a moment, she tried to short her thoughts and calmed her mind. At least for now, because she had to answer that second call from the same name. With a still slightly shaking hand, she put the phone on her ear once the line had connected.

"Tetsuna-cchi, good morning~!" What a cheerful voice he had. A voice which will make her feel as the worst person in the world to ruin the hint of happiness from it.

"..." For a moment, no word processed to come out from her mouth. Her throat felt dry, weirdly hurt and his voice only made it worse. However, she had to answer him. He, who was waiting for her to return the greeting. "Good morning, Ryouta-kun." She did it. She could give those words just as calm as usual, despite what happened and how's her condition at that moment.

One chuckle could be heard from him after her answer. Innocent and so kind. "Tetsuna-cchi, where are you now?"

"Eh..?" And then, swallowing felt so difficult after the question.

"I'm at home you know. But, you're not here to greet me. How mean..."

Yeah. Before she could answer, he had added more explanation. An explanation, which made her heart beating nervously fast. Kise's at home, when he supposed to get back 3 more days. Why?

"I'm sorry. I didn't tell you that I spent night at my friend's place after working. I will go home now."

"Alright~! I will be waiting here."

Their apartment actually pretty close, around 20 minutes by bus to get there from her place, but she couldn't afford to make him wait any longer, even a minute. As soon as possible, she wanted to get home, even though she also didn't dare to face him for the time being. What should see say to him—ah. No. Who knew he hadn't known yet? But then, how should she face him later? Even though it hadn't discovered yet, she couldn't even imagine herself able to look Kise in the eyes. Too difficult to do.

Seeing one cab coming to her direction, she raised her hand to stop it and got inside. Yes. She didn't care the charge would be high, because she couldn't walk to the bus stop and wasted to wait for a bus for thirty minutes, according to the memorized schedule. Hurriedly the young lady told the driver where was her destination while rustling inside her bag to look for a brush and mirror. Just normal stuff woman would have in the bag. No. She was not trying to put make up on or trying to look pretty. She never bothered to cover her face with make-up, since Kise also loved her with her natural look. She just wanted to look neat even a bit. After all, she was in rush when she left the hotel, unable to even see how was her appearance.

Better.

She thought after brushing her hair and cleaned her face a bit. See? Only that. No powder or lipstick.

Ah.

But, why did it suddenly feel like this? Deep inside her heart, she felt like she was that kind of girl who loved to betray their husband. Who had to quickly able make themselves looked presentable to cover the lie and sin they committed. There was unheard scream inside her head, refusing to accept that she was that kind of woman.

I'm not!

It was an accident!

Yet, what happened spoke something else to her. Mocking her denial, and forced her to open her hands and accepted what it showed.

As hard as possible, she tried to hold her tears back. Not letting and to fall down her cheeks and add more guilt into her feeling.

...I'm sorry.

Please, don't let him know...

Not because she intended to hide it forever so that she could free from the responsibility of her mistake, simply she didn't want to hurt that person's feeling. A person, who suddenly filled her mind with all of his sincere feeling and love toward her. Which yesterday, she thought he no longer loved her.

"We have arrived, miss." The driver spoke, and made her to quickly back into reality. Her steps were quick, she even too busy to think about taking her change from the driver even though it was only few yen.

Please... please...

She chanted in her mind as she walked inside the tall building, and headed to the floor of her room, where that person was waiting at.

That person...whom she didn't know, had received one special surprise in his mail.

Kise Ryouta, the man that woman married to two years ago, had one of his mail opened on his phone. A mail sent to him last night by unknown sender, who didn't answer when Ryouta asked who they were. He arrived this morning. Really early in the morning with a heart which collided with anger but also curiosity. And when he heard the door unlocked, Ryouta put his phone down on the table in their room, before walking out to welcome her awaited wife.

"Ryouta-kun?" She called while looking for her husband, whom soon after that appeared from their room. With a smile.

"Tetsuna-cchi."

To be continued...

AN: Hello! This is my first English fanfiction, so I apologize if you see so many mistakes in here. I would probably also use an excuse as not-an-English-native to dodge your critics, but I could say I have tried. I would love if you kindly leave a review to my work.

And, thank you for reading! I hope you enjoy it :)