My Everything
My heart was beating against my chest faster than I had ever experienced it before. No enemy I had ever fought could possibly compare to the fear I was feeling right now as I stepped into the gateway that would take me to the place where I wanted to be the most, yet feared more than death itself at this point.
It was there, that I knew she was waiting for me.
She, for whom I had chosen to cast aside everything: my career, my sanity and my heart.
She, for whom I felt numbness envelop my body and my legs becoming weak every time I thought of.
She, who had stood by my side my whole life – through my strongest moments, and who had given me the strength to continue when all I wanted to do was just give up, lay down and wait for the end.
She whose smile always illuminated my day, every morning as I woke up, and every day before I went to sleep.
The flow of time and space got distorted around me as I entered the gateway and was sucked into another world – her world.
The journey took but a mere second, yet it felt like an eternity.
I soon found myself breathing in air that was nostalgic, and at the same time, completely unfamiliar. It was still afternoon here, even though it was late at night where I lived.
I walked through the grass, feeling it tickle my legs. Anxiety and excitement clashed in my heart. I heard a sound I had previously only heard through a recording device, but although I knew I was defenseless, I did not let it scare me. I kept going. I wanted to be with her. Forever.
I had made my choice. Long ago, but only now did I truly realize that I'd found my answer without ever having needed to look for it.
After walking silently through the grass for an hour, I could at last make out what I knew was her hometown. I felt a few birds of prey lock their eyes on to me. I kept going regardless.
My fear was overwhelming, but I refused to let it stop me. I had already come this far. I had to press on – she had to know how I really feel about her.
My step hastened from a slow walk to a jog, and from a jog to running. My heart rate went crazy. I did not care.
I wanted to see her again.
I HAD to see her again.
She was my everything. She meant more to me than my reputation or sanity.
If people wished to judge me, so be it. As long as I was with her, I wouldn't ever care.
I finally reached her hometown as the sun was starting to set behind the hills.
Even though I was out of breath, and started to feel the taste of blood in my mouth, I kept running. I had to find her. I pushed my physical stamina to its very limit – a small price to pay if I wanted to tell her how I felt before it was too late, and we would grow distant. I did not want to be a memory – just a chapter in her life that had come to pass, like I did not wish for her to be a mere chapter in my life.
I knew this place well enough for it to be a second home to me, yet it was completely unfamiliar territory, and much different from anything I had seen in the rendition that I was familiar with.
However, as if by instinct, I knew what corners to turn to find her. It felt as if she was guiding me… one last time, like she had always done for most of our lives.
Eventually, I found her house.
Home of Leaf Verde and Celica Verde, it said. This was it.
It was do or die.
No matter what happened from this point onwards, I knew there was no going back.
I gathered my courage and rang the doorbell. As each ring's echo resounded through my ears, so did the bell get mimicked in my heartthrobs.
There was no answer.
I felt compelled to leave but at the same time, something stronger than my fear kept me from running away like the coward I normally was. She deserved that I at least gave her a chance.
I rang the bell again.
This time I heard the sound of footsteps frantically running down the steps of the staircase.
A woman opened the door.
I realized that this must be her aunt. They looked almost identical, only difference I noticed was that this woman had her hair in a bob-cut and wore a far more weathered expression on her face. Her hair was also starting to have grey streaks, such as which can be perceived in people who have experienced much of both joy and sadness in their lives.
"Yes?" she asked with a stern, uncertain voice.
I tried to speak, but I couldn't find the words.
"Can I help you?" she asked, "I do not recall seeing you here before, young man."
I took a deep breath, "I… I want to speak to Leaf. She must have mentioned me…"
Her expression softened and she let me pass through. Leaf had clearly told her about me. I thanked her briefly and walked up the stairs.
I knew she was waiting.
I closed my eyes and remembered all the courage I'd possessed when the two of us were fighting our demons together. And how we had promised to meet again if fate allowed it.
I did not wish to put my faith in destiny. It was too much of a gamble.
I loved her. More than anything – and I wanted to make my own destiny. My own future. With her – and only her.
I gently knocked on the door much like how she had always done whenever she wanted to enter my room back then.
"Is that you, auntie?" I heard her voice echo through the door, "Come in! I'm just playing a game here!"
My hand gripped around the doorknob and I opened the door.
I found her lying on the bed, wearing the headphones I had given her once, and playing on the game console that I had given her as a gift.
She looked at me, and our eyes locked.
She gasped, and the game console dropped from her hands, landing on the bed.
Leaf got out of her bed and carefully walked up to me, her expression both shocked and happy.
"Y-you?!" she asked me, tears filling her eyes. "Is it… is it really you?! I'm not dreaming again… am I?"
There was a brief silence between us as neither could realize that we were really looking at each other again. Then before I knew it, I felt her hug me as tightly as possible. She rested her head on my chest, and I heard her cry.
"Please, don't cry…" I said while stroking her long, beautiful brown hair.
She looked up at me with a smile, and I wiped her tears away. She leaned in towards me and I down to her.
We looked each other in the eyes for a moment, then we closed them and I felt her lips against mine. It was the most beautiful feeling I had ever experienced.
My body felt both immensely warm and freezing cold at the same time.
My left hand stroked her hair and my right arm wrapped itself around her waist. I felt her press me tightly against her, and I felt her chest against mine.
We kissed again, this time even longer. It felt like an eternity.
The most wonderful eternity I'd ever experienced.
"I… I missed you so much," she whispered to me after she had calmed down. We were still in the same position.
I smiled and whispered; "I came back. Like I promised…"
"Why?" she whispered to me and kissed my left shoulder.
"Because… you're my everything," I told her.
I saw her blush, and felt her whole body heat up.
And at that moment I knew it. She was who I wanted to spend the rest of my days with.
No matter how long or short my life would be, I wanted to spend it with her.
Forever.
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Author's Notes:
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