Hey everybody!
This is my first fanfiction, so i hope you like it.
I did my best to erase any grammar/spelling mistakes, but feel free to message me if you still find any. English is not my native language, so it could be that i missed something.
Enjoy the fic!
As soon as you get into a situation that could possibly threaten your life, your whole world swifts. You will immediately go from "living" to "surviving". Suddenly, in this one moment, you will realize a few things that you have never realized before: how vulnerable you are, how easy it is to break you, and how much you don't want that to happen.
You will be drenched in the fear of losing your life, and in this extreme state of panic, you will start thinking. You will start thinking about who you are, what you want in life, what you don't want in life and who are important to you.
You will know that, will you survive this, life will never be the same. It will always be coloured by these events that once almost took everything away from you. And even if you will be able to go back to safety, you will never be able to go back to the you that you where before all of this happened.
Luckily, most people don't have giant trauma's that disturb there normal life and pull them into hell. Most people don't have to be scared for their lives.
And Yamaguchi was one of these people. Or so he thought.
He had an easy life. He lived in a big house outside of town with a beautiful garden and two lovely dogs. He was only child and never had to worry about money, because his parents were pretty rich. He was smart, not overly smart, but smart enough for people to raise their expectations a little bit higher, and he knew that if stuff would get rough, his parents would always have enough money to support him. While other student worried about getting a job to pay for college, he knew that he could always rely on the wealth of his family.
Yamaguchi didn't know that this so called "easy life" would turn for the worst really soon. He didn't know how cruel the world could be for people like him.
But even though he was rich, he personally never felt like he had it so much better that other people. Being Yamaguchi Tadashi came with its own set of difficulties.
One of these difficulties was the fear. Yamaguchi had always been prone to being afraid. Right now, he was riding home on his bicycle, the wind in his back, the sun on his face, the encouraging words from his teammates during practice in his head, and his homework almost finished. He felt relatively relaxed, but he still felt a little uneasy. This tiny bit of nervousness would never leave his side. It would grow if he had to talk to people or if he had to make a test, but even if he was just riding his bike, he couldn't help but feel a little tense.
Another difficulty was the distance that he often felt between him and other people. He didn't like to mention his family at school. The only one who had ever seen his house was Tsukki, and he intended it to keep it that way. Tsukki was the only one who didn't treat Yamaguchi differently just because of his family's wealth.
Other kids were jealous of him and saw him as a spoiled rich kid who thought he was better than everybody else. It didn't matter how hard Yamaguchi tried to be likable, how hard he tried to fit in, how hard he tried to be humble, he always fell prey to bullies. People simply expected him to be an asshole, just because he was rich. This eventually made him feel ashamed of his home, and he had come to a point where he didn't dare to tell anybody about where he lived.
Still, even worse than the kids, where the adults. Instead of looking down on him, they looked up to him, and expected him to do better than other kids. Every time he told his father about the bullying in school, he was told that he should just be a man and stand up for himself. 'you are a member of this family after all,' his father would say, as if that somehow made him a stronger person. Fancy aunts and uncles had been asking him what he wanted to be when he grew up since he was a little kid, and they were never satisfied with little kid answers, so five year old Yamaguchi heard himself saying stuff like: " I want to be a doctor," or "I want to be lawyer," or "I want to do what dad does." He didn't know what his dad did, but as long as his family was satisfied, he didn't care.
When he came home with a low grade, his parents always got angry, even though Yamaguchi truly tried his best. He could learn pretty well, but he wasn't some miracle student who could just roll through school in the blink of an eye. Even his teachers expected him to get better grades that everyone else, and Yamaguchi felt a lot of pressure to be someone he simply couldn't be. He didn't know how to deal with stress, and even now, In high school, he was still very insecure about himself. He always hid behind Tsukki's back and was afraid to do stuff without his blond, sarcastic friend at his side.
Today, Yamaguchi's parents would both be gone, and that made him feel a little relieved. Being home alone was one of Yamaguchi's favourite things to do, It gave him a little room to breathe. At school there where expectations to maintain, at home there where expectations to maintain, so Yamaguchi didn't have any way to escape the stress if it all became too much. Luckily, his parents where gone pretty often, and Yamaguchi always looked out to those days.
Sadly, he would never actually make it home today.
And even though he had felt a lot of fear in his life, the fear that he was about to feel would be far worse that he could ever imagined.
Yamaguchi saw himself as a coward. He could be an anxious mess. Sometimes, he felt like he had everything together, but at other times he was disappointed about how scared he could get from little things.
Like how he hadn't told his parents that he played volleyball yet. How he had told them he studied in the time that he trained. How he was afraid they would make him quit.
It were all simple fears, really. Simple, annoying, but manageable fears.
Yamaguchi knew that people envied him for his simple fears, his simple life. They envied how he never had to be scared about money or jobs. He was aware of the jealousy that other people felt toward him. He was even aware of the hate that surrounded his family. What he wasn't aware of, was to what lengths some people would go to act on that jealousy.
Yamaguchi was prone to fear. But he also tried to trust people. He hoped that by being open and kind, he would get people to like him. He always tried to believe people had good intensions. So when he came home, and he saw a strange car parked in front of his driveway, he wasn't suspicious. He wasn't scared. He was just a little surprised.
He didn't know that this 'surprise' would soon, very soon, turn into his biggest nightmare.
So this was the first part! This is really just a prologue, and I mostly just wanted to get into Yamaguchi's homelife, and set up the tone for the story.
I will update the chapter very soon, so I hope You'll stick around.
Feel free to command, and thank you for reading!