She should be 's back with has to be happy. But she's not. Sure she didn't regret the kiss , but that's the reason they lost. Yes..She's sad because they lost...Oh who is she trying to fool ? She knows why she's sad. It's because of Jesse . She didn't expect him to be here , and when she saw his ... His face after...If you could call that a face... His showface was so damn obvious . She knew he was hurting ,god what has she done..
"Hey Rach"I heard Finn's voice and woke up from my thinking.
"Yes?"
"I have good news ! left to LA!" He sounded so happy...Yeah it was great that he left...But she didn't know why it hurt so much knowing that he left and didn't say goodbye..As if he would say something to you after what you did . "Rach what's wrong ? Your not upset because of him ! Because you saw him after the show ! He wasn't even surprsed or mad ! He didn't care about you !"
Yeah that's what you saw...But I know I hurt him bad, and it's killing me.
"No I'm sad because of Jesse...I'm over him..." a lie "It's just I'm not feeling well"
I can't loose myself in this. I'm Rachel Barbra Berry .I got over Jesse one time , I'll get over him this time . You never got over him . That voice in her head stung her heart . But she just ignored it . Everything's going to be okay . Rachel's is gonna live normally with her boyfriend that she loved. She's not going cry over Jesse . Why should she ? She left him . She can't cry .
And as much as she didn't want to admit it to herself it was eating her from inside knowing how much she hurt Jesse..