Chapter 1- High School Hell
Anyone determined to find another person or group inferior can always find whole lists of grounds that demonstrate inferiority because we are all inferior to the ideals of humanness we have erected.
Marilyn French
I sigh looking at myself in the mirror fixing my hair once again. My boring plain, stupid har with no way to curl or style. I look into my plain undescriptive eyes, the color of mud and dirt and shit. I look at my lack of an hourglass figured body before pullng on my band t-shirt and jeans filled wih nothing but self loathing and hatred over everything that was me and my lack of brand name clothes. I pull on my sneakers cursing my balance for my lack of heeled fuck me shoes. I walk out the door skipping breakfeast again because really why would I need it and jump into my shameful truck cringing as it roars to life.
I look at the green in gray that is Forks as I drive. Wishing that this morning never came and at the same time thanking whoever that theres one less day stuck in this school than yesterday. Things at school aren't good. Ever since I moved here people have been picking on me and insulting me at every turn on everything. Guy never talked to me though they just laughed at whatever the girls said and run of to have a quicky before class. No one cared. No one , except for Emmett I wish I was back home in Phoenix. Where I had my music, had my friends and had Edward.
I sigh as I remember his emerald green eyes and his bronze hair and how he towerd me at six feet one inch to my five feet four inches. How he smiled at me as I sang as though each song had a secret meaning we both knew. He's probably got a new girlfriend. He promised he'd come for me when he turned eightee but itold him that he shouldn't wait for me. No phone calls, no emails, nothing. He deserves to move on rather than live in the past with me.
Besides, I bet his sister Alice would miss him terribly. Her four foot 10 form could be quite intemidating when she wanted to be. Her blue eyes were just as energetic as her personality and her stylish black hair bounced with her causing you to just wanna jump with her. I wonder if she took my advice.
I pull into the parking lot and look around to see a new car parked in the parking lot. It was hard not to notice because of how flashy it was. No onee had a car even close to the volvo currently parked next to mine. Well no one here anyway. Edward owned a car just like it. I climb out and look down at the ground as I slowly made my way to the building.
"Oh hey its Bella! Hey bella turn around and take your fat ass home!"
"Bella! Don't trip Bella!"
"Hey Bella you get those jeans out off a donation box?"
I just keep walking like nothing is going on. Pleading for them to stop. They start crowding in around me.
"Hey get away from her!" I voice growled. More importantly a voice that wasn't Emmett's. I look up to see blonde hair and hazel eyes. Everyone grows quite
"Jasper?" I look at him shocked.
"Hello darlin'." His texan accent coming through. He offers his hand to me and I take it gladly.
"What are you doing here?" it was like I was back in phoenix. That no one looked at me different. Like I was home. And that at any second Edward would wrap his arms around me.
"Hey get off her!" No that voice was definatly Emmett. We both look at him. Jasper releases me quickly once he sees just how big Emmett is. Emmett was a football player, and the top of the school's food chain which is why I've only been hit a handful times rather than the just as many beatings I could ave taken. He had dark brown hair and brown eyes harder than mine.
"Um…" Jasper stands behind me.
"Emmett this is jasper from Pheonix… the Texan."
Emmet smiles widely. "Finally!" Reaches past me and hugs Jasper in a maly way. "finally someone who won't think I'm racist because I side with the south."
"Harmph." I say ignoring everyone around me.
"You know what I mean Bella." I nod and start walking as the bell rings but turns to Jasper.
"You should let Emmett show you around your in the same grade after all." I smile and continue walking off when Jasper nods. I walk into my first period just in time because of all the long ways I gotta take to get to class. I sit in my seat as the rumors grow.
"Did you see that? Bella's such a slut."
"Told you Bella comes with an easy button."
"I wonder if shes pregnet and that's why he's here."
I glare as my pencil digs into the paper. Im not sure if it's the fact that I have Jasper back, that little piece of Phoenix with me or the fact that these people were widening there gossips bowls for my friends rather than just me. I ignore it tough as hard as it is and suddenly everything is annoying, anything seems close to set me off into a violent outburst and I don't know why. Its never happened before I mean why would it.
I continue through my schedule of history, math, and english before headed to my lunch. I walk to the stage and starts sweeping. Emmett comes a few minutes later and sits on the edge on leg danging off the side the other strecthed out. Jasper walks in as oon as I start sweeping the other side. He walks up the three stairs and engolfs me in a hug. I laugh hugging back and suddenly we're both being picked up by Emmet. I just shake my head and laugh because really, what else can you do in an Emmett-bear hug?
I shake my head.
"So Bella sing us a song, huh." Jasper smiles.
"Uh…"
"Bells can sing!" Emmett bellows and the whole room gets quite.
"Yup… you didn't know? Bella!"
I blush. "Ok one song." I clear my throat.
There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you
You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me
It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not todaaaay
So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today,
Is gonna bring me doooooown
There you go
You never ask why!
It's all a big lie!
Whatever you do
You think you're special
But I know, and I know
And I know, and we know
That you're not
You're always there to point
Out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not todaaaaaay
So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me doooooown
*shut up,shut up,shut up*
Is gonna bring me dooooooown
Shut up,shut up,shut up
Will never bring me dooooown
Don't tell me who I should beeeee
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away!
So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it!
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me doooooown
Shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down!
Bring me down
{shut up, shut up, shut up}
Won't bring me down
{shut up, shut up, shut up}
Bring me down
{shut up, shut up, shut up}
Won't bring me down
I smile looking more relaxed. I look at the now silent room before getting lost in a pool of green… well before getting lost in a pool of black.