Tapping her freshly manicured fingernails impatiently at the keyboard, Rebecca Logan stared at the laptop screen to what seemed to her like an eternity. She kept refreshing her email inbox, hoping for a message even though she knew there wasn't one coming. When did this happen? When did she turn into this girl who was this pathetic? Or as Evan put it 'acting so desperate and clingy'? Evan, a four letter word she thought she understood but she really didn't.

Letting out a huge sigh, Rebecca slowly walked towards her bedroom door and closed it completely shutting out the peals of laughter and blaring music. Even though she loved her fellow ZBZ sisters though she would never say straight to their faces - tonight was just not the night for all the single ladies dance parties.

Although that's exactly what she was now, single. The last time she'd been single was spring break fresh off her break up with Evan, almost a year later and she could now call it a tradition. 2 weeks to spring break and Rebecca wasn't exactly sure what to do with herself. Ever since Casey and Cappie left, things had been different and yet sort of the same. It felt weird not to have Casey around all the time to question her judgement however they caught up time to time on Skype and Casey was sure to raise an eyebrow or two at her latest ZBZ scheme.

Rebecca was shaken out of her musings when she realized her phone was vibrating, her heart leaping as she reached for it. However seeing Ashley's name on caller I.D a shadow of disappointment passed her face. She quickly masked it, and forced some cheeriness into her voice as she pressed answer, holding her phone close to her ear hoping Ashley would not be able to tell.

"Bex!" " How have you been? It's been forever! We have so much gossip to catch up on" Ashley's cheerful voice exclaimed, panting for breath.

Rebecca resisted the urge to roll her eyes, smiling instead and saying "Ash, we had coffee two days ago...What could have possibly happened?"

"Bex, you're the president of a sorority you should know that's like a year in girl years...anyways, I have got huge news, Rusty said Cappie and Casey are coming to myrtle beach for Spring Break, isn't that awesome? Plus, I scored a week vacay from Clarissa so I'm good to go!

"Wow that is awesome" Rebecca gulped but recovered saying "That is actually great, I actually really miss them, who knew right?

"You're too funny Bex, so yeah we can count on you, Laura and the rest of ZBZ right?"

"Er yeah, Heather is super stoked for spring break actually, she won't stop hammering on and on about it" Rebecca grinned thinking of her little sis.

"Well I gotta go Bex, I just wanted to let you know and keep me posted on ZBZ fundraisers, though I have not been able to change FART's name – it just opens up many more clients including ZBZ alums, which would be great for you girls too."

"Sure thing Ash thanks, see you later" Rebecca replied sitting dejectedly on her bed. Putting her phone off she realized she'd now be single in Myrtle Beach with her best friends coupled up, while chaperoning Heather and all the pledges.

What really was wrong with her? Rebecca began to think that there was her life before Evan, and then after him - completely skewing everything she took for granted. She had gone through a lot with her father and then ZBZ but yet throughout all that she had come out stronger, no matter what. Whether she was right or wrong - she was decisive, she took decisions and she moved on.

Ever since their break up, Rebecca found it difficult to classify Evan. When she went to see him in his dorm after the KT's house been torn down he seemed apologetic and remorseful. Then at Cappie's graduation party he stared at her a great deal and bought her a lemon drop. She appreciated the gesture even though she didn't like lemon drops very much. Then as they were saying bye to Cappie and Casey, he nudged her, his blue eyes smiling. They met for coffee soon after, but it was too polite and it felt like they were tip toeing around each other. She ran into him a few times on campus, and even though he was in a rush to get to the law library, he'd send her these promising looks making her hope that he'd call, or text, or e-mail.

Rebecca picked her laptop off her desk and onto her lap, glancing at her inbox she quickly signed out. Enough, she realized that even though she had refrained from talking about Evan to the house and her friends - she hadn't cleansed him out. She needed time she realized, and she needed to focus on herself something she was pretty good at and focusing solely on ZBZ just wasn't good enough. 'She was Rebecca Freaking Logan and if...' a brochure from her psychology class caught her eye and stopped her mini rant.

Rebecca opened it up eagerly, an exchange program in England...she glanced at the requirements, she had a decent GPA but other than the sorority she wasn't exactly involved in any campus activities or research work she thought regretfully. Maybe she could approach Professor Damien from her previous sex studies class, and ask if he had any research openings up? But there was hardly any time she thought between juggling her major psych courses and being ZBZ president. Rebecca shook her head she'd make the time, and in that time she'd think about Evan a little less, and a little less till she fully cleansed him out.