DPOV
"You are the most arrogant, self centered, jerk off, retarded, insufferable, miserable excuse for a dog Derek Souza!!!"
I internally winced at Chloe's words. On the outside i probably looked indifferent, but on the inside...I hate to admit it, but i was probably crying my guts out. I had stepped over the wrong line in releasing my anger and insulted Chloe's deceased mother. Her mother was the most important person in Chloe's life when she was alive and missed her even more than i missed my own missing father.
But, i still had to go and hurt someone else to make my f-ed up temper calm down. Normally, if someone started insulting me i wouldn't have given them a second thought. But this was Chloe. Chloe was my world. She was the reason i deal with all the shit we're in. She's the reason i try to be a controled and decent person. Well, as much as i could be. Being a werewolve made that a bit difficult.
But she was worth it. Her blond hair made my rainy days shine with sun. Her blue eyes only made me feel peace and something i couldn't explain. The only downside to her was that she had the qualities that the wolve inside me thought was perfect for me. So everytime she was near, i ached to touch her, to hold her.....to do something that would make her feel perfect and protected. But i couldn't, she was Simon's girl.
Anyone could tell that my fool of a brother was head over heels for Chloe. I should've expected it and i did. What caught me off guard was the feelings that decided to make an entrance for me. Ever since we had finally made it to the safe house with Andrew the wolf kept saying mine, mine, mine!!!!
It made me so mad because she wasnt mine and she never would be. It was impossible.
Suddenly a door slammed shut and i was ripped from my thoughts. The door was the door to Chloe's room. I had been so out of it and hurt that i hadn't even noticed she had stalked off.
I listened up to see what she was doing. Just to make sure she was okay. Well, she wasn't okay emotionally, but physically i wanted to make sure she didn't hurt herself.
I wished i hadn't listened though. Because the next thing i heard, was Chloe's muffled sobs as she cried into her pillow. That sound completely ripped my heart out. The feeling wasn't just emotional either. i felt like someone just punched me in the stomach. My heart rate picked up and my breathing started hitching. i literlly couldn't breathe.
i clutched my chest and fell backwards against the wall. I'm pretty sure i dented it but i couldn't check over the havoc reaking in my head. i slid down the wall and had half of my back propped up on the wall.
My breath was coming in pants, my chest was heaving, and my sight was going blury. i slightly knew what was going on. i was having a panic attack. from what though i....oh. i had made Chloe cry.
"NO!" my yell came out as a cry of defiance, pain, and a whimper. i almost sounded like i was crying, but i knew i wasn't.
i knew why i had said it. i didn't want to believe i had hurt Chloe. i didn't want to know that i had pained her so bad that she had cried. i couldn't take that. Shoot me, stab me, or throw me off a building, but nothing could be worse than me knowing i had hurt my mate. i whimpered some more at that thought.
"Derek!! HOLY CRAP MAN WHAT HAPPENED!!!!!" i heard Simon kneel at my side and put a hand on my shoulder. "Derek, can you hear me? Derek come on whats going on?!" i couldn't answer him though. he couldn't help me. i needed something that i could never have. i needed Chloe. "Andrew!!!! Help!!" Simon's voice echoed through the lonely house, "Derek come on answer me!!!!!" i coughed and then i smelt blood.
What? where was the blood coming from?
i was still coughing when i realized it was me. i was coughing up blood. that can't be normal.
"Holy shit..." Simon murmured.
Everything started to go hazy and my senses were dying like i was falling asleep. Soon enough i was in a state i thought i would never be in. i wanted to give up and leave everything behind me. i wanted to just escape everything and never go back. i fell asleep to the shrieking voice of Chloe. My name was falling helplessly off her lips. i closed my eyes and the black was welcomed.