Five Years Later
Part 1
How could he have been so wrong? That was a question Blaine asked himself on multiple occasions over the years. When he looked at the situation honestly, they never should've gotten married in the first place. They still had issues to work through but they both believed they could deal with them over time, boy were they wrong.
While they certainly knew there would be some growing pains as well as the adjustment of living together, there seemed to be something else off. Even after they were married, the intimate part of their life didn't change much at all which if Blaine was honest was a bit disappointing. For a married man he spent way too much time getting off in the shower as Kurt hated if he did something like that in bed. On more than one occasion when Blaine closed his eyes in the shower, he got a warm feeling around him as he fantasized while getting himself off. He'd always start off thinking of Kurt, but that image would slowly change and become clouded the warmer his body got. He shook off the feeling each time as being caught in the moment, but that feeling always stuck with him for quite a while afterwards.
Then there had been that one day during his first year of school when he was grabbing coffee after class and was surprised to hear a familiar voice behind him. "Looking good Killer." Hearing Sebastian's voice sent a sensation through his body that was so familiar yet he didn't know why. They talked a bit, but Sebastian only happened to be in that part of town as he'd picked up study materials from a classmate. It didn't come to much of a surprise to Blaine when he heard Sebastian was going to Columbia. While it felt great to see each other, they both knew nothing good could come out of it as they both knew Kurt still viewed Sebastian as public enemy number one. And while Blaine knew that, he didn't object when Sebastian gave him his address as his parents had bought him an apartment on the Upper West Side.
Before Sebastian left that day, they exchanged a hug which once again sent a familiar sensation through Blaine's body. While he wanted to tell Kurt he saw Sebastian that day, he decided not to as he really didn't want to fight with him once more as that would happen. And as far as Blaine knew, he'd never see Sebastian again.
Once the two of them began to argue more and more, Blaine found himself sleeping on their couch as it seemed the only time he got any decent sleep. Their views were so different on so many things Blaine honestly had no clue who Kurt was anymore. And Kurt constantly told Blaine the same thing and talked about how much Blaine had changed. Blaine wasn't blind to the fact that he had changed, but Kurt had as well but refused to believe it.
Things had gotten so bad, that even Rachel was at a loss for what to do. Then the day came when she spotted Blaine walking out of a lawyer's office in Midtown. She didn't want to believe what she was seeing, yet seeing how frustrated Blaine looked; she could only come to one conclusion as to why he was there. She was going to approach him, but before she could, he hopped in a cab and headed off. While Kurt had mentioned to her that divorce that been thrown around in more than one of their arguments, he didn't believe it would ever come to that.
Yet that evening, Kurt was proven wrong as Blaine told him he wanted a divorce and had already met with a lawyer. Kurt accused Blaine of doing so to try and prove that he was serious that things needed to change, yet Blaine told him he did it because it was clear to him this wasn't going to work. Neither of them were happy, Blaine was just the first to accept that fact. Then when Kurt asked what was going to happen, Blaine told him he could stay in their apartment as he'd already found a place to stay and would be moving out the next day as he didn't have classes.
If anyone would've told Blaine that after not even four years of marriage he'd have filed for divorce he would've laughed at them. And when Kurt left the next morning he honestly thought they could still fix things. Yet when he got home from work that day, all of Blaine's things were gone. Kurt went through their apartment multiple times but Blaine had been meticulous as he hadn't forgotten a single thing. And then, when Kurt walked into the kitchen he saw this was certainly not a scare tactic on Blaine's part as his apartment key sat on the table.
From that moment on, Blaine's life became an even bigger hell if that was humanly possible. Since his Dad had insisted on them signing a pre-nuptial agreement, Blaine's entire trust fund was safe and secure. And while it wasn't as crazy as some of his classmates back from Dalton, it wasn't something to laugh at either. After Blaine and Kurt had gotten married, the only thing Blaine had allowed his parents to pay for was his tuition as he didn't believe they should be supporting him since he was married. While he wasn't keen on accepting their help now that he and Kurt were getting divorced, his parents had sat him down and told him he needed to let them do this as Blaine needed to concentrate on himself. Over the years they'd watched him become a shell of himself and it had killed them yet they didn't interfere.
With his parents taking care of his expenses, Blaine was able to quit his job and concentrate solely on school. It took a bit, but soon his grades came up to where he always believed they should've been all along. If Blaine had been working, there was no way he would've been able to survive as Kurt was fighting the divorce every step of the way. It wasn't long till he lost track of the amount of time he was spending at his lawyer's office as he seemed to always be there.
The day the judge finally signed off on their divorce, Blaine finally felt free even though they'd been separated for quite some time. While Kurt brought up every issue possible during the proceedings, Blaine could only shake his head. Hell, the thought of dating didn't even appeal to Blaine once they separated. Though after some time, he obviously did start to get out in the world once again. But nothing ever went too far as he wasn't quite ready for it. And the more he thought about it, he'd been tending to his own needs during their marriage so it wasn't anything new. Yet now with their divorce finalized, Blaine got comfortable in bed after polishing off an entire bottle of wine as he was finally, truly free.
Once his hand snaked into his boxers, he closed his eyes as he began to stroke himself. It wasn't long till soft moans were escaping him as he started to get lost in his fantasy. An all too familiar sensation took over his body and the shadowy figure in his fantasy slowly started to become clear. Just as his orgasm took over, the image became crystal clear, the person in his fantasy all these years had been none other than….Sebastian. Blaine immediately sat up on the bed and grabbed the towel he'd set beside him and cleaned off his hand as he thought about what had just happened.
The more he thought about it, he remembered the first time he felt that sensation and it had been back when he and Sebastian had hugged after the Warblers had agreed to help him propose to Kurt. He felt it again when he heard Sebastian's voice at the coffee shop that day and again once they hugged. And to be honest, more than once Blaine had hoped to see Sebastian come walking through those doors again but he never did. Blaine shook his head as he couldn't believe what was happening to him in that moment. At first he thought it was a coincidence and Sebastian's certainly wasn't hard on the eyes. Yet the rest of the feelings, there was certainly something more to them.
Before he realized what he was doing, Blaine headed towards his office as his parents had insisted on getting him a two-bedroom so he had a place to work. He started tearing through boxes before he found his old first year music theory book. Quickly he flipped through the pages and he sighed loudly when he found the piece of paper Sebastian had written his address on. He didn't know why he ever kept it, but maybe it was his subconscious at work. But in that moment, Blaine didn't care. Now that he had it in hand, he went back to his bedroom and got dressed. Once that was done, he headed to the bathroom to brush his teeth before doing his hair. With as frustrated as he'd been over the years he'd stopped putting so much gel in his hair as he just couldn't be bothered. Getting ready in the morning was more about how quickly he could get out and look presentable. He thought about putting more gel in, but he figured this was who he was now and if Sebastian didn't like it, that was on him.
After giving himself a once over in the mirror, Blaine grabbed his phone, wallet, keys, and that little piece of paper. Thankfully cabs were a plenty that night and soon he was on his way. Blaine knew this was risky, because Sebastian could've honestly moved. But he figured since the Smythes had bought the place, Sebastian was going to be going to Law School at Columbia as well. When the cab pulled up in front of the building Blaine took a deep breath before paying the driver and getting out.
Once he headed towards the entrance he was greeted by a doorman, which shouldn't have surprised him considering where he was. While he easily could've walked in, he took a chance and asked the doorman if Sebastian still lived there. The doorman replied yes and that he'd actually just returned recently so he was home. Upon entering the lobby, he looked at the piece of paper he had in hand before looking for the elevators. After he stepped inside he hit the button for the thirty-second floor and soon watched the doors close. During the ride up, Blaine put the piece of paper in his pocket before wiping his hands on his jeans as they were getting clammy.
After the doors opened, Blaine stepped out into the hallway and quickly found which direction he needed to head in. Once he was standing before Sebastian's door, he felt his stomach begin to knot while that familiar sensation took over his body once more. And it was pretty clear considering how he was feeling, the conclusion he came to during the ride over was correct. Knowing Sebastian was home, Blaine took a deep breath once more before ringing the bell and praying Sebastian was alone. Upon pushing the bell, Blaine knew there was no going back. He was going to see Sebastian for the first time in over four years. Considering it was a corner unit, it didn't surprise Blaine that it took a bit for him to come to the door but soon her heard footsteps coming closer.
The instant the door opened, Blaine couldn't help but smiled as Sebastian stood before him looking just as handsome as he remembered. "What can I do for you Killer?" Sebastian asked with his trademark smirk as he leaned against the doorframe, impeccably dressed. While some might only look at that smirk, Sebastian's eyes gave away how happy he was to see him.
"May I come in?"
"Sure." Sebastian replied as he stepped aside so Blaine could come in. After closing the door behind him, Sebastian wrapped his arms tightly around Blaine and pulled him into a hug which Blaine immediately reciprocated even though he was shocked by Sebastian's reaction. "I've missed you Blaine." Between the sound of Sebastian's voice and his arms around him, Blaine felt content for the first time in a long time.
"I've missed you too." Once they separated, they made their way down the hall and Blaine's eyes bugged out when he saw the size of Sebastian's apartment. "I'm pretty certain your living room is almost the size of my entire apartment."
"Oh, I'm sure you and Lady H…sorry, Kurt, have a bigger place than you think. May I get you something to drink?" Sebastian asked as Blaine looked around.
"Whatever you're having is fine with me." Blaine replied upon spotting a wine glass on the table.
"Coming up." Sebastian replied as Blaine walked towards the bank of windows and looked out onto the city. "Now Killer, are you sure you're not going to get in trouble being here as I doubt your husband's opinion of me has changed any over the years?" When Sebastian spoke, he was walking back with a glass of wine for Blaine as well as his. "I can't imagine he was too thrilled to find out you were coming to see me."
"What I do isn't any of Kurt's business." Blaine told him before taking a sip of his wine. "You have a stunning view Sebastian." While Blaine spoke, Sebastian had set his glass of wine down and was now staring at Blaine.
"Talk to me Blaine. What's going on as you're not the type to be so dismissive of someone's feelings, especially your husband's?"
"He's not my husband anymore Sebastian, we're divorced."
"Excuse me?" Sebastian replied while taking Blaine's wine glass from him and setting it beside his. "Blaine, what happened?"
"It was a mess from the start Sebastian and it only got worse. Finally, a little more than year ago I couldn't take it anymore and went to see a lawyer and filed." Once Blaine finished, Sebastian grabbed his wine glass and took a rather large sip.
"I think we need to sit down and talk." Blaine nodded and grabbed ahold of his glass once more and followed Sebastian over to the couch. No sooner were they seated did Blaine begin to tell Sebastian everything and that was something he hadn't done with anyone. Yet it felt like the most natural thing to do. It didn't come to much of a surprise to Sebastian to hear how fiercely Kurt had fought the divorce as he'd always knew he was a little bitch in his opinion.
By the time Blaine was done talking and getting little bits of feedback now and then from Sebastian the bottle of wine was finished and they'd put a good dent into a second. "I didn't come here to dump this on you Sebastian." Blaine told him before taking a sip of wine.
"I know, but it's obvious you needed to talk and I was more than willing to listen. I meant it when I told you that day we ran into each other if you ever needed to talk I'd be here for you."
"I probably should've taken you up on it soon."
"Of course, but that's in the past." At this point of the conversation, they were both leaning against the back of the couch, their hands propping up their heads as they were sitting face to face. "May I ask you something Blaine?"
"Of course after what you just listened to, you could ask me anything."
"Why did you come over here after all this time?"
"You're going to think it's silly."
"Try me, I might surprise you."
"I had an epiphany today at a rather interesting moment." Sebastian cocked an eyebrow and looked at Blaine.
"How interesting?"
"That's not important."
"I'll be the judge of that."
"Sebastian, please." Blaine said as a faint blush came to his cheeks and in that moment Sebastian reached across and took ahold of Blaine's hand.
"Fine, I won't push, at this moment. Now what was this epiphany that brought you to me?"
"Do you remember when I asked the Warblers to help me propose?"
"Unfortunately."
"Sebastian."
"It's true Blaine. The only reason I agreed to do it is I knew how much it meant to you. And then you got the most adorable look on your face once I said yes. But…never mind, what else?"
"What were you going to say Sebastian?"
"It's not important Blaine."
"I'm going to pull one of your own lines, let me be the judge of that."
"We were talking about your epiphany. So go."
"Sebastian."
"Blaine."
"Fine. Well…" Blaine paused and took his free hand to rub the back of his neck before looking at Sebastian once more. "Do you remember us hugging?"
"I do, it was the best part of that day."
"Thinking back, I feel the same way." Once those words came out of Blaine's mouth, Sebastian scooted a bit closer.
"Continue."
"This is what's going to sound silly, but I got this crazy sensation throughout my body when we did. And the longer it went on, I didn't want to let you go."
"I felt the same way Blaine as having you in my arms in that moment felt so right. I thought about it more than a few times over the years and I'm not that type of person."
"I know."
"Killer, I have changed a bit you know. While I still go out and have a good time, it's nothing like I did in high school which is odd since now it's legal."
"Did you get those same feelings when we hugged that day in the coffee shop?"
"I did."
"Have you had them any other times?"
"You mean besides when we just hugged earlier?" Blaine nodded. "Don't you think that's a bit personal Blaine?"
"Not if I tell you I've had them at times when we weren't hugging but you were certainly on my mind even though I wasn't quite sure. Yet those feelings relate to you and only you Sebastian."
"What are you trying to tell me Blaine?"
"I'm not quite sure, but all I knew earlier tonight when I was lying in bed is that I needed to come and see you."
"What were you doing in bed Blaine?"
"Sebastian."
"I deserve the right to know what brought you to my door tonight Blaine as I've thought about you showing up on my doorstep numerous times over the years. So please tell me?"
"Masturbating."
"About me, I'm honored."
"I didn't know it was you to start with though. I closed my eyes and began to fantasize and soon the fantasy I'd had numerous times over the years began. But the person was always a bit cloudy that I couldn't make him out. Yet this time, the picture came clear and it was you, it's always been you as those all too familiar sensations always accompanied it."
"So fantasizing about me brought you to me. I'm touched." Sebastian said in frustration as he let go of Blaine's hand. "I hope the image of me got you off."
"Sebastian!" Blaine reached out and grabbed ahold of his hand. "That's not it. That image coming clear put everything together for me. And hugging you earlier felt so right."
"What are you trying to say Blaine as I have an early morning tomorrow?" Sebastian told him even though it was a lie, but he was hurt in that moment and he fell back on what he knew to protect himself.
"What I'm trying to say is…I need you Sebastian."
"Oh, so now that you're single you finally want to sleep with me, I get it. More jerk off material for a later date."
"Sebastian, stop! Please!" The pleading look in Blaine's eyes caused Sebastian to back down slightly. "What I'm trying to say and doing a horrible job of doing so, is…I…crap." Seeing Blaine so flustered wasn't something Sebastian was used to seeing as Blaine was usually so put together. "May I do something Sebastian?"
"What would you like to do Blaine?" Sebastian replied as his guard had gone down once more after seeing how flustered Blaine was.
"Kiss you."
"Excuse me?"
"I want to kiss you Sebastian." Sebastian just looked at him and before he realized it he couldn't remember if he'd even answered Blaine but soon Blaine was straddling his lap. "Hopefully this will get across what I seem incapable of saying." Blaine then placed his hands on Sebastian's cheeks before leaning in to kiss him. The kiss was unlike anything either had ever experienced as they both felt their hearts flutter even with as soft and almost innocent as it was. When Sebastian wrapped his arms around Blaine's waist to bring him closer, he expected Blaine to object, but Blaine allowed Sebastian to do so.
Now with his body flush against Sebastian's, Blaine flicked his tongue across Sebastian's lips and was instantly granted access. The kiss didn't get any crazier, but a million words seemed to be said through it. When it finally broke, Blaine leaned his forehead against Sebastian as they both had smiles on their faces. "Do you know how long I've waited for that Blaine?"
"Longer than you should have, and I'm sorry about it. What I was trying to say earlier Sebastian and was doing a terrible job in doing so is…" Blaine then paused a moment before continuing. "It's always been you and I was too afraid to admit it as the feelings were something I didn't understand."
"You and me both killer. Now, what do you want to do about it since it's pretty clear we both still feel the same way?"
"Would you like to go out with me tomorrow night Sebastian?"
"As in a date?"
"Yes, as in a date."
"I'd love to Blaine." Sebastian then leaned in to kiss Blaine once more. While they easily could've gotten lost in the moment once more they both knew they needed to talk. So Blaine made his way off his lap once this kiss broke and they began to talk about everything that had been going on with them over the years. They both knew if they were going to give his an honest shot they needed to get to know each other again and see the men they'd each become.