First story ever...Try not to be too harsh on me...So here it is my first Arthur/Morgana fanfic...It is set after the end of season 2...

Rated M for future chapters

1. Decisions

The sun that burst into his room woke him up completely, not that he was able to get any sleep at all during the night. Her face was right in front of his eyes every time he closed them in hopes of sleeping...

He suffered from insomnia for the last two weeks. Not even Gaius' medicine could help him, well they didn't help her either, maybe Gaius needed to revalue his methods...

He got up from bed before Merlin had arrived to serve him breakfast. He felt tired and exhausted, like all energy was drained out of him when she was taken. He felt weak; it was unacceptable for him to feel weak. He was not a little boy, he was Prince Arthur, future King of Camelot, meant for greatness and glory, yet he was so weak over a woman's absence.

But she was no ordinary woman; she was his sister, his friend and, above all, she was the woman he would love for all his life. He had only realized now that she was not with him. Only now he understood what people mean when say that you value what you had only after you've lost it.

And he had lost her… Maybe forever…NO! He was Arthur Pendragon and he would anything in his power to find and bring her home with him. He was standing by the window when he made this promise.

"I will search the world and spend all the years of my life until I hold you in my arms again.", he said.

"I'm sure you will, Sire."

Arthur turned around to find Merlin looking at him with a huge smirk on his face, as if he caught him being naughty. Obviously Arthur was lost in his thoughts that didn't hear him enter.

"Cut the smile, Merlin, and where is my breakfast? Are you completely useless?"

Merlin just stood there looking at him like he expected him to scream out her name and admit his feelings. Well, Arthur would rather die than act this way.

"Are you deaf? Or would you like to spend your day in the stock? Go get my breakfast!"

"Of course, Sire." Merlin said and excused himself to bring the Prince's breakfast that was already lying on his table.

Merlin was and will always be Arthur's punching bag. He has accepted that. But his mood has gotten way worse than usual the last few days. Merlin knew why but what could he really do? Arthur was not the person who would talk about his feelings.

The Prince did feel a little guilty for being such a prat towards his friend but he needed someone to channel his frustration and anger. Lately he wasn't the man he thought he was. Training wouldn't take his mind away and no hunting trip was interesting enough to forget her.

"MERLIN!" he shouted. His servant was waiting behind the door and entered his chambers ready for the second round of insulting and chores.

"Get my horses ready. We're leaving in an hour!" he ordered.

"But we just returned from a hunting trip." the boy complained.

"Stop troubling your tiny, little brain with my schedule and get the horses ready!"

"Yes, Sire."

And with that he exited the room. Now Arthur had the peace he needed to think from where he would search for her. He had no idea where she could, no one had but still something called him to start this mission now. He would follow the words of the woman who had taken: "When the time comes, you will know the way." That's what the blonde sorceress had told long ago and that's what he would do. He would follow his…horse.

The next moment he was off to see his father. Not to take his permission on what he intended to do but to show him that he will not give up hope like he did. He was utterly disappointed by Uther. The King sent no one after her and he had forbidden Arthur too. Even though, he was supposed to protect her, he made no effort of finding her. He continued his life as if she never existed.

"I AM GOING NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY! HOW CAN YOU DO THAT TO HER? YOU GIVE UP ON HER WITHOUT EVEN TRYING TO RESCUE HER!" he had screamed to his father when Uther announced him his decision.

"WHAT KIND OF KING ARE YOU? WHAT KIND OF GUARDIAN? SHE ALWAYS THOUGHT YOU WERE CRUEL BUT I WOULD NEVER BELIEVE YOU WOULD HAVE FORSAKEN HER THIS WAY!"

After that outbreak, Arthur spend a week in the dungeon and was allowed a hunting trip the previous day with the "protection" of ten knights all ordered by the king to stop him from leaving. That hunting trip didn't last long.

Arthur entered the Great Hall to find his father discussing matters of state with his council.

"We need to talk." he said and waited.

"Leave us. We'll continue later on." said the King and the members of the council raise from their seats. The Great Hall was soon empty.

"What is it, Arthur?" the King demanded like he didn't know what was coming up next.

"I'm going on a searching mission." Arthur announced proudly.

The King sighed and looked at his son with tiring eyes.

"I… Very well… Go…Do whatever you wish."

Arthur didn't expect such a response, he wanted shouting and anger and fighting. He was disappointed by his father's reaction.

"I will go alone. Only me and Merlin." he said and left the room.

On the way to his room, he came across with Gwen. She greeted him but he ignored her. When he passed by her, he could see the pain in her eyes but there was nothing he could do right now. He belonged to HER.

Arthur visited Gwen two days after he was set free from the dungeons. He went to her house to see her in hopes of remembering why he loved her so much. So much that made him oblivious towards the woman he knew he loved now. He got in and hugged her and kissed her with passion hoping that Gwen could make his pain go away but she couldn't. How could she when he was dreaming of a different body in his arms, a different pair of lips on his, different set of eyes looking at him? He knew he was being unfair to Gwen with his behaviour but there was nothing he could do. Arthur mumbled something like "I'm sorry" and "Forgive me but…" and Gwen had looked at him with the same pain in her eyes. Pain that only meant that she understood what was going on inside of him.

But that was over. He would never allow another woman take his love away from HER. Never.

So that's the first chapter.

It may contain some grammar and spelling errors (sorry for that).

Feel free to ask anything you don't understand.

Please review to help me become better.

Next Chapter: 2. Dreams