Okay so this is a little different from the other Hetalia stuff I have done so far but I hope you guys enjoy. now just a few short notes before we start:
1. These will all be one shots unless you guys really want another
2. These will be with multiple pairings
3. I will be taking requests
4. I don't own Hetalia or any of the songs I use
Song: Dirty Little Secret
Artist: All-American Rejects
'This was never supposed to happen. You aren't supposed to fall in love with your enemy. I'm pretty sure that that goes against all of the teaching on how to win a war. But then again we are not still at war. It still shouldn't have happened. I may be heartless at times but there was no way that I was just going to leave him there. So small and venerable, but he wasn't really was he? He will never cease to amaze me.'
Ivan glanced back into the small Russian hotel room. His gaze settled on the large bed and the small figure lying under the covers. They had been seeing each other like this for years. Even though Ivan had wanted to give his lover everything the small Italian man insisted that they kept it simple and stayed in hotels. The only thing that Ivan got his lover to compromise on was on how nice of a hotel they stayed in. So far he has managed to keep them out of the worst of the hotels. He would do anything though to keep his little Feli happy.
Let me know that I've done wrong
When I've known this all along
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you
Ivan looked back out the window. Usually when they are together like this Ivan sleeps like a baby in his lovers' arms, but it had been particularly hard for them to sneak out this time. After every meeting the two of them make their excuses and sneak away to the hotel. Most of the time Ivan doesn't need to make and excuse, but Feli always has to come up with some reason for staying in whichever country.
'At this last meeting as Feli went about making an excuse to stay here in Russia Ludwig threw up a red flag. When my little Italian said that he wanted to stay and see the sights the German began to insist on staying in Feli's company. It took forever for Feli to convince Ludwig to leave him here.'
Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know
'Feli knows that I try so hard not to knock the German unconscious every time I see his face. I want so much to pull my lover out from under that controlling grasp. But, Feli insists that this is the best way to keep the peace. He is so unselfish. He will do anything to keep any of us from fighting again. Not that I would worry about him if we fought but I want to keep the peace too, even if is only to keep him happy. There are things that the German has failed to notice in the time since the war. Feli is not the person that the German typically mistakes him for.'
I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
'It's been so long now since I found out just how much I love him. I, just like many others, had always just thought that Feli was just weak and annoying. I had always assumed that he clung to the German for protection. But over time I have come to learn a very different tale. He clings to the German for fear of being left behind. After his young lover left he told me that he had fallen into a personal hole. The darkness had consumed him completely and he turned to religion just like his brother had. It kept him afloat for a time but once again he fell. Just when he thought it would be better to end it all he met the German. With the appearance of an older version of his childhood lover Feli fell head over heels for this man. After some time it became apparent that looks where all that this man shared with his lover. Knowing the German was much stronger than himself Feli stayed by his side to avoid and harm to him and his people. So he took on the weak and helpless persona in order to keep everyone safe. Another selfless act that amazes me.'
Who has to know
When we live such fragile lives
It's the best way we survive
I go around a time or two
Just to waste my time with you
"Ludwig!" feli whimpered from under the plush covers.
Ivan rushed to his side and slowly pulled back the covers to reveal the sweat soaked Italian. With wide eyes Feli looked around the room. After a moment his chocolate eyes found the concern filled violet eyes of his Russian lover. He let out a sigh of relief and threw himself into Ivan's strong arms. For Ivan time ceased to move while the two of them sat there.
Tell me all that you've thrown away
Find out games you don't wanna play
You are the only one that needs to know
"I had a dream," he mumbled into Ivan's chest. "Ludwig found us out. He beat me and then he," his voice cracked, "he left me alone. Just like my old lover did."
"Don't you worry. If we are found out you will still have me. I refuse to leave you." The Russian spoke softly into the brunets hair, and for the first time he felt as if his words where the truth. He knew how scared his lover was by even the thought that the dream might come true. In that moment Ivan knew that he would do anything in his power to make sure that his lover's dream never came true.
I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
'How has he managed to keep his true nature hidden for so long? I know that he puts on such a happy face for the others. But how can they not see through the mask? Am I the only person who knows his true nature? Does his brother know? He is not as he appears. I know that I'm the one that everyone is supposed to be afraid of but I am seriously scared of him. There is a devil behind that smile. They always say that Romano is the dangerous brother but it is a lie. How the German never figured it out is beyond me. All I know is that there is something that he only shows to me, and I feel so blessed that he is willing to show me the side of him that no one else knows.'
Who has to know
The way she feels inside (inside)
Those thoughts I can't deny (deny)
These sleeping thoughts won't lie (won't lie)
And all I've tried to hide
It's eating me apart
Trace this life out
'I should have guessed from the beginning about his true strength. It was his fear of being left that brought us together. When Germany marched into my motherland Ludwig was with them. My Feli, for fear of being left by the German, had secretly followed him. He stayed behind and tried to hide from the Germans, knowing that if he got found out he would be sent back. Unfortunately he over slept one night and there was a blizzard that morning when he awoke. These things caused him to lose the Germans and in fright he ended up stumbling blindly after them. It was there that I found him, near death in the deep snow. I took him in, it took him a few days to come to but when he did it was beautiful. At first his face was painted with fear but it was soon a portrait of gratitude. It was then that I realized perhaps there is more to this small man than meets the eye.'
I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret)
'I had him stay for a few days to make sure that he was well. When he was deemed fit I allowed him to go, but to my surprise he stayed. He told me he felt safe with me. He stayed until the Germans left, so his absence would go unnoticed. After that our feelings blossomed and we started to see each other more and more. Even through the war. Once it was over we started to see each other after every monthly meeting. The time that we spent apart became painful, at least for me. I began to treasure ever moment that we spent together. And I know that I will continue to until the day we die.'
I'll keep you my dirty little secret
(Dirty little secret)
Don't tell anyone or you'll be just another regret
(Just another regret, hope that you can keep it)
My dirty little secret
Dirty little secret
Dirty little secret
Ivan looked back down at the little man in his arms. Feli's breathing had now slowed and he had drifted into a deep sleep. Ivan brushed a stray lock of hair from his lovers face before setting down with his lover in his arms wishing that this is how it could be every night.
Who has to know
Who has to know