Set after Scorpia Rising:
Alex liked the color white. It gave him peace. The paleness comforted him.
It was a color that did not require him to feel. He didn't have to think.
Red with rage, green with envy, blue with sadness. He didn't need those. The colors that blurred into one bright spot. No, white was enough. White was everywhere. Cold and blank just like him.
It was the color the bed sheets he found himself waking up in, the color of the doctor's coat leaning over him.
It was the color of the clouds that covered the sun, casting dark shadows as he stood outside.
It was the color of the lilies he laid upon the grave - no graves.
It was the color of the engravings set permanently in stone, Ian, John, Helen, J -
No, it was the color he saw behind his eyelids as he closed them.
It was the color of his scars littering his body as he looked in the mirror.
It was the color of the walls as he walked down the school hallway. The eyes that tracked his progress.
It was the color of Tom's drawn face as he peered at Alex's frozen one.
It was the color of the chalk scraping across the board, the words that Alex couldn't bother to read.
It was the color the paper, still blank that he turned in, all the work he had not done.
It was the color of the clock as the painful minutes ticked by, each longer than the last.
It was the color Doyle's fist flying towards his face when Alex merely stared at the hulk of a boy when the other had taunted him.
It was
- red. Red was the color that stained his fingers as he touched his split lip.
Red was the color of pain, the color of horror, the color of the sand, the color of the flames, the color of blood,
- the color of Jack's hair.
Jack.
Jack.
Jack who was gone.
The white around Alex cracked and bled.
He would dye the whole world red.
A/N: Just a tiny drabble that I couldn't get out of my head. Maybe something that Alex was feeling after the nightmare of a mission in Egypt and now with Jack Starbright gone. I had always felt like the ending didn't focus enough on Alex's emotional aftermath, possibly PTSD.
I know some of you were probably looking forward to the start of the Trigger sequel, sorry it's still in the works! Probably some of you are mad too with my super slowness with updates, I really apologize for that! Hopefully, I can pick up writing more fanfiction again. I really miss this fandom and love it to pieces!