A/N:
I quite liked this story at the beginning, then I had authors block near the
end. Gross, I hate having no ideas.
Even
Angels Fall (the Return of Shadows)
I hate Sirius Black.
It
was the first thought that registered in Kaiya Blint's mind when she woke up, regardless
of rain or shine, and she'd woken up to the same recurring thought every day
for the last 15 years.
No, this is deeper than hate. I detest....I loath Black.
That
thought always seemed to follow the first, except this one was thought more
forcefully, and thought when she was truly awake.
"Like
7 am is actually an hour that you can be truly awake. And I'm talking to myself
again." Kaiya shook her head, trying to clear her mind. It seemed like she
had been trying to do this too, for the last 15 years of her life.
Kaiya
stretched, and attempted to stand up. That took too much work, at this ungodly
hour, and she collapsed back unto her bed. Her room, her entire apartment was
dismal and bare. There were no rememberants of her past, nothing to tell of the
popular, friendly Gryffindor beauty she
had been years ago.
There
was however one thing - a sign of friendship; a friendship so deep it didn't
matter if one was gone, so deep it was painful. A framed Muggle photograph, an
old one with a bent right corner, stood alone on Kaiya's bedside table. There
were two girls in the picture; one had waist length auburn red hair, and
magnificent emerald eyes, and the other girl's gleaming blonde hair fell just
beyond her shoulders, and matched her brown eyes perfectly. Their arms were
slung over the others' shoulder, and their smiles were evident from feet away.
"Kaiya, come on, Mum sent me a Muggle camera for Christmas! I want a
picture of us!"
"Lily! For crying out loud, it's only 8:04 in the morning!"
"Get up right now, or I'll get Sirius to take the picture...Ow!
Don't throw a pillow at me!"
Kaiya
almost smiled as she remembered the conversation. She finally stumbled out of
bed, and made herself a cup of coffee. She sat in an overstuffed chair near a window,
and started blankly out of the window, the hot mug warming her fingers. There
was nothing else to do...there had been no one to do anything with since...
Kayia
found herself doing what she did everyday it seemed...staring out of the window
at nothing at all, engulfed in heartbreaking memories. Memories that she wished
she could relive...just once.
Around
lunchtime, Kaiya found some strength, and managed to magic herself a bowl of
soup. As she walked back into her dining room, she watched as a tall, very thin
man appeared out of nowhere. The bowl slipped to the ground, drenching the
floor in tomato soup. The man, turned, shocked into a stupor.
"Get
the hell out of my house." Her voice quivered slightly, and hatred
dripped from every syllable.
"Please,
Kaiya, I can explain, I didn't-"
Before
Sirius Black could say another word, he found himself staring down the end of a
wand held by a very temperamental
woman. Sirius had been under her wand many times before, through hair colors
and a brief period as a frog, but had never feared for his life before.
"I'm
going to give you five seconds to disappear and never come back, or else I will
not be held responsible for my
actions." Kaiya whispered heatedly, her brown eyes blazing.
She
was quite startled when Sirius dropped to his knees. "I didn't kill Lily
and James."
There
was a brief pause, which was only broken when Kaiya hollowly laughed. Then
Sirius realized she wasn't laughing...she was crying. Kaiya had never cried
before in front of...well, anyone come to think of it. It made Sirius feel
worse than he already did. He was nervous as hell to being with, and now here
she was crying. He felt like crying himself.
"You
didn't kill them," Kaiya mockingly sneered through her tears. "I'm not
stupid, Black," she spat. "You were their secret keeper!"
"I
wasn't, Kaiya. James switched to Peter at the last moment-" Sirius started
hurriedly, but Kaiya interrupted.
"Peter's
dead! YOU KILLED HIM, LIKE YOU KILLED JAMES AND LILY! OUR BEST FRIENDS!"
Kayia shouted.
Sirius's
shining eyes were burning into her own. "Kaiya, please, just listen,"
Sirius choked out, bowing his head. Kaiya saw a solitary tear fall to the
floor…and realized it wasn't hers. It was his.
Maybe
it was the tear that made Kaiya sink to the floor beside Sirius, throwing her
wand on the floor. Sirius had never, ever, ever, in her whole 24 years of
knowing him, cried. It just wasn't in
his nature to cry. Seeing him cry broke her down.
"My parents were killed. By Death Eaters, those bastards. My
entire family is gone, and I have no one," Kaiya told Sirius. Lily was
sitting beside her, crying a bit, and trying in vain to comfort her best
friend.
"You've got me, Kaiya. And Lily, James, Remus, Peter, and hell
you've got more friends than I can name. We all love you." Sirius
stuttered the last bit out, wrapping an arm around her shoulder. Kaiya remained
stony faced. "You can cry, you know. I'll even cry with you, if you want
me too," he said.
"I don't cry."
"Don't
cry, Sirius. I- you.....James switched?
To Peter? But you and James were best friends..." Kaiya hesitated before
laying a shaking hand on Sirius's trembling fingers.
He
looked up, and with obvious difficulty, looked into her eyes. "It was a
bluff. Who would ever think that they'd use...that rat...for anything as
important...as their lives?" Sirius shook his head in disgust. "They
died because of me. I should have known... For the life of me I don't know why
I didn't think it was him..." Sirius explained about tracking down Peter
and Peter blowing up the street, being taken away to Azkaban, the torture of
the years. He told her about Harry, the beautiful baby who'd looked just like
James, down to the smile, except for his eyes. Harry had inherited Lily's
emerald eyes.
When
they had talked themselves hoarse, Sirius stood, pulling Kaiya with him. And
suddenly, it felt like they were sixteen years old again, and Sirius wanted to
ask her to the Christmas Dance. "I've missed you...so much...Kaiya, I've
loved you forever."
"Forever....forever
was when we were 16 years old, and had no idea what forever meant. We
can't..." she shook her head, dropping his hand. "Do you remember
when we were 17 and you promised yourself to me? We were so naive, Sirius."
"Kaiya,
I've had half of my life to think, and besides Harry, Quidditch, and food, you're all I think of."
"I'm
glad I rank behind Quidditch; it's such an essential part of life," she
quipped sarcastically.
"Honestly,
did you hear about the Quidditch World Cup? Ireland, really-"
Kaiya
shook her head. "You haven't changed at all."
"I
tried not to."
Kaiya
sighed, and plopped down on her couch. She opened a leather book, flipped
through a few pages, and pointed at a picture. "Do you remember this?"
Sirius sat beside her, staring silently at the picture, a half smile on his
face.
"Of
course. How could I forget?" It was a wizard photograph, and in it were
Sirius,Kaiya, Lily, James, and Remus Lupin in all their glory, tongues out, in
a many armed hug. Lily was sitting on James's lap, her arm around Kaiya, who
was squishing Sirius, with Remus popping up between the two girls, and knocking
James on the head. "One of the best day's of my life."
They
continued to look, laugh, and even sniffle at pictures, wizard and muggle,
until the sun faded so much that the pictures could only be seen by the few
wisp of gold that came from the windows.
"You
should go, Sirius, before it gets too late."
"I
just want to stay here, and get caught snogging with you."
Kaiya
almost blushed. "Nothing like a direct hit."
"Thought
I'd try," Sirius shrugged.
She
grasped Sirius, pressing her face into his shirt, wrapping her arms around his
shoulders, trying to keep the feel of him in her mind. Sirius responded,
hugging her tightly, kissing her gently on her forehead.
She
let him go slowly. "Owl me, sometime, okay? And...and come see me Sirius.
I...I-yeah." She attempted a half hearted smile.
"I
love you, Kaiya." And with one, lasting squeeze of her hand, he walked out
of the door.
Kaiya
fell asleep, as she did many nights, with one thought occupying her mind.
I love Sirius Black.
So? Tell me what you think. Remember, there is Jello involved!