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Chapter 1

Dear Diary
Why the fuck wont they just leave me alone, I know what I want, I don't need permission to live you know. I wish they'd just get out of my face. Im head girl this year…yay… I wish they'd all just leave me alone. I won't be the same this year, im fed up of all the bullshit. I can't believe what's happened this summer. I mean, with my parents, they just never saw it coming… the truck… stupid drunk drivers. I was fine before that, now im going back to school and I have to be resorted, seeing how my names no longer Hermione Granger, but now its Mya Zambini. I can't believe im a twin, and that im a pure blood. They gave me up, why? Just because they wanted a son as an heir, well my new family, they love me. That's a laugh; they only 'love' me because they've found out im powerful, and smart. Great.

Anyway, I think im going to be in Slytherin. I kind of hope I am. It is a good house and im fed up of being the Gryffindor know-it-all; maybe they'll give me a break. But the changes started before that, right when I got back, they told me I was adopted and they just expected me to be ok with it? What's wrong with them? They told me I went off the rails after that night we would constantly argue, id stay out late, get drunk, they knew I'd slept with guys they didn't approve of. Then I blew it all in one day, I dyed my hair, got another piercing and a tattoo. They went crazy, and I loved it. I've never seen them so pissed off, I just laughed in there faces.

That night my mother left and went to stay with her parents, my dad came up to my room, he told me they'd broken up and it was all my fault, I screamed at him that if he weren't such a bastard then it wouldn't have happened, he slapped me, but it didn't stop, he told me I needed teaching a lesson, that I was a whore and I didn't deserve to live, but that he could change that. At first I was just afraid he would kill me, but then I realised, I don't care if I die, I have nothing to live for now anyway, I tried to kill myself before now, but I didn't have the guts, I cut in to my skin everyday to let the life out of me to stop the pain but I couldn't take my life, I told myself I was weak and pathetic for it, but if he was going to do it for me, that was great.

But he didn't, he came back, but he raped me, I was in shock, I laid there crying, sobbing my heart out, while he slid in and out of me, groaning with pleasure. I felt sick; I was bound to my bed, and gagged so no one heard my screams, eventually I just passed out from the pain. I woke the next day and there was blood on my sheets, he washed them, acting as if nothing had happened. A few days later my mother returned home and everything went back to how it was. We never spoke about it.

Then 10 days later they died, in a car crash. I didn't even cry, I was in the car but I used magic to get out, I didn't try to save them, saying there wasn't time. I wasn't even blamed. They said nothing; I just stood there as the car went up in flames and watched. Im glad they're dead. My mother left me with him, she let him abuse me, and he did it, he never even said anything to me, just treated me like I wasn't real.

Well I am real, and now I don't give a shit.
Well-done mum and dad, you fucked me up and then let me go back to my pure-blooded family.

Im sitting on the train now, head girl and boy get there own compartment. I have my music on, so loud I can feel it inside my head. That's how I like it, blotting everything out. I haven't seen my brother yet, I moved to London and stayed in a hotel, which they paid for and I only met my parents once, they didn't want to overwhelm me. Screw them, I don't need them. I need to let this out, I need to cut, no-ones here, ill do it now, and I don't think I can take the rest of the day with this inside.

I'll write later.

- Mya

After I closed the book I just sat there, bleeding, releasing, and feeling something, even if I did have to cut to feel at east I still felt.

Shit, someone's coming. I said a quick spell to stop the blood flow and covered my arm.

Great, it's Draco.

"Well, well, well, if it isn't Mya Zambini, been avoiding us? Blaise!" he called hailing his friend, "she's in here."

Blaise entered. "Hey Mya how are you?"

I looked at the two Ice Princes of Slytherin, "im fine, did you two want something?"

"We wanted to know if you're getting re-sorted?"

"Yes…anything else?"

"We wanted to talk, just to see what happened to you this summer,"

"and I," Draco butted in, "wanted to know if its grief that agrees with you, or did something else happen to make you this fit?"

"Draco!" Blaise screamed. "What the fuck are you on man? That's my sister!"

"Well, she's a pure blood now and you know im not going to marry you, who else is there? Parkinson? No thank you."

"But she's my sister, and anyway, you no im with Pansy now Draco so…"

"Exactly, so leave it."

"While this conversation is interesting guys, I was busy you know." Mya interrupted.

"Listen, why don't you come down and meets the guys Mya?"

"Sure, fine, if you like, but could you give me a minute?"

"Yeah, ok err… we're just down here." With that Blaise left.

Draco was following his friend out of the compartment when Mya stopped him

Draco, she walked over to him a pushed him against the wall, "I hope my big brother (of like 4 minutes) isn't going to stop us from having fun this year."

He was shocked that she was being forward but he liked this side of her, it was very appealing. "Never, Blaise doesn't get in my way when it comes to anything, this,…" he said pointing from himself to her "…isn't any different."

She smiled in a seductive way, "that's good then, so, are you going to kiss me or what?"

He looked at her, "oh yes;" he thought to himself, "This year was going to be fun." With that he moved down to he lips and kissed her, softly at first but soon it became a battle for dominance. Which neither one of them was giving in to.

(A/N)
Well, first chapter of new fic, I liked writing it but hell for all I know it may suck, so let me know R&R