Nothing New Under the Moon
A/N: This is my first AMC fic. I have been rivited by Kendall and Zach over the last few weeks and this popped into my head this afternoon. Please be kind if you review. I have just started writing FF and usually only write Josh and Donna/West Wing stuff (I am very familiar with them and that show - I've just started back into religiously watching AMC). Enjoy!
She sat there on the bench, staring up at the moon. She was still reeling from the Thanksgiving fiasco and Greenlee leaving town and now Zach had…
She couldn't even wrap her head around it, not now. It was all too much for her, but she seemed to be feeling that a lot recently when it came to Zach Slater. She couldn't pinpoint it or put an exact date on when this had started. She had married him to help Bianca and Miranda, to get back at Ethan for being a bastard, and to protect herself… from life and love and whatever other excuse she had come up with at the time, none of which she could remember now, sitting in the park, staring at the moon.
So he'd fallen for her… so he was in love with her. Now what? Was she in love with him too? More than likely, but she wasn't going to let her brain get that far. Did he want a real marriage now? Did she?
'It's too much' she thought to herself as she pulled her coat tighter around her body. She knew she should go home, get out of the cold and out of the park this late at night.
It was moments like this, when her mind was elsewhere that the kiss would come back to her. His confession and, what seemed to be, heartfelt words and that kiss… just thinking about it made her weak. She had imagined for weeks what it would be like to kiss him, to have his hands on her face, in her hair, on her waist as she molded herself as best she could to his body. She had thought about what his lips would feel like on hers. She was surprised at how reverent he was – like he was savoring every moment, just like she had. She wondered what would have happened if she hadn't pulled back, if she had ran her fingers though his hair and deepened the kiss. She wondered if he would have…
"I need to stop this. This is NOT happening" she said out loud to no one in particular. Her world had been so normal yesterday – well, as normal as life in Pine Valley could be if you were a Kane woman, but now, it was like a whole new world under this moon she had spent the better part of an hour staring at.
She started walking home, knowing her the back of her mind what she needed to do. She needed to move on. She needed to divorce this man before another moment passed. She wouldn't get hurt again. Ryan, Ethan, Greenlee – they had all let her down and crushed her over the last year and she was tired. She knew she had to protect herself first and foremost. She was surprised that she felt sad at the thought of actually going through with a divorce from Zach, but it had to be done.
As she started to open the door to her condo, she glanced across the courtyard toward where Zach was. For a moment, she wanted to go over there and throw herself into his arms and finish what had been started earlier in the evening, but she quashed that feeling as soon as it had arrived in her head. She stared up at the moon again, not knowing that she was being watched from the dark window across the courtyard. She made a silent promise to the moon that, starting tomorrow, she would start getting over Zach Slater before things got any worse. She stole one more glance at his door before going inside her home.
THE END