Cold
That's what Sasuke focused on as he trudged through the rain to the empty Uchiha compound, trying to avoid thinking about the events of earlier today.
It had been raining for hours, and despite pulling his patience and self control to it's very lengths, he could not spend another second in that damn room with Naruto, waiting for the rain to end.
They had been up early this morning to travel to the nearest city and go chaperone some political emissaries, and on their way out, it had started pouring buckets.
They were offered a place to stay, and Sasuke, not one for unnecessary exertion of effort, took the offer, without thinking who else would too.
Kakashi and Sakura opted to walk back, but Naruto stayed indoors to wait out the rain.
And so they spent the last five hours in a room so small it could be called a closet, where they were so close Sasuke could smell Naruto's sweet sandy colored hair.
He had less self restraint than he had earlier anticipated, and more than once he caught himself reaching out to stroke his hair or to pull him closer.
He had put up with it as long as he could, because it would look weird if just left in the middle of a storm after deciding to wait out the rain, but after five hours of sweet, blue eyed temptation, if he didn't leave he was going to do something he would regret.
As he neared the Uchiha compound he stopped suddenly, and was pulled out of his thoughts by the sound of someone clumsily running down the road towards him.
He had heard it the entire time, but was too immersed in his thoughts to acknowledge it until it came this close.
As he turned a corner he rushed into the bushes and crouched, waiting to confront his stalker.
The footsteps turned the corner and Sasuke rushed out and grabbed the stalker by the throat.
However, Sasuke was surprised to find that he looked into ice blue eyes.
"Naruto!"
Sasuke released his teammate and watched him slump to the ground, coughing, trying to regain his breath.
"What the hell!" Naruto choked out as he struggled to breath.
"I thought someone was following me."
"That doesn't mean you throw them up against the wall!"
"Anyways," Sasuke crossed his arms accusingly, "Why are you here?"
"I was worried." Said Naruto, the indignant look leaving his face." You ran out so suddenly, I thought something was wrong."
He reached out suddenly and put his arm on Sasuke's shoulder.
"Were teammates you know, if something's wrong you can tell me!"
Sasuke felt his heart tighten at the thought that he would follow him all the way back to the village in the rain just because he was worried about him.
He felt the sudden urge to be truthful, and to tell the blonde what was on his mind, no matter what his reaction would be.
"Naurto…..I-"
Naruto suddenly slipped forward and Sasuke reached out to catch him.
As he fell into Sasuke's arms, he went completely limp.
Sasuke quickly carried him over to the shelter of a nearby tree and laid him down to inspect for injuries.
Suddenly he noticed Naruto's face.
It was bright red, and as he put his hand over his forehead, he swore it singed a little bit.
The idiot had gotten a fever running after him!
Sasuke gingerly picked up his sick teammate and thought quickly about the options he now had.
He could take Naruto home.
Out of the question.
With a fever this high, he wouldn't be able to take care of himself, and might die.
The hospital?
He supposed that was an option, but he didn't trust hospitals, and Sakura would no doubt question what they were doing, since they were supposed to be waiting out the storm.
'You could always take him home with you, and nurse him back to health' Said the annoying little voice in Sasuke's head.
Looking down at Naruto, he supposed that maybe, just this once, it wouldn't hurt to take him with him. Not that he would do anything.
That was absolutely out of the question.
He wouldn't even be in the same room as him, because he remembered how well that worked out last time.
He was simply going to go home, give Naruto some medicine, and put them both to bed.
In separate rooms.
Possibly in separate buildings, depending on how rambunctious little Sasuke was feeling this evening.
As he neared the Uchiha compound, Naruto stared to squirm in his arms.
He entered the main house quietly, walking into one of the spare rooms and gently laying Naruto on the bed.
After making sure he would be warm and comfortable, he went into the kitchen to find some medicine.
He finally found some in the back of one of the cabinets, and walked back to Naruto's room with a glass of water and the large pills.
When he got back to the room, Naruto was sitting up in bed, looking dizzy and confused.
"Baka! Lay down or you'll get dizzy and faint again!" Snapped Sasuke.
Naruto's eyes, turned a dull blue from the sickness, widened in surprise at the voice of his caretaker.
"Sasuke? What's going on? What happened?"
"You got a fever from walking so long in the rain, so I carried you to my place. This is a gesture of my good will, so lay down and except it."
Sasuke passed Naruto the glass and the medicine, and he took them with slight difficulty.
Outside, thunder crashed and lightning lit up the sky.
"Well, I'm going to bed, try not to die."
Sasuke got up to leave the room, but was stopped by a hand frantically gripping his sleeve.
"NO! I-I…don't go."
Sasuke felt his heart stop in his chest.
"What?" WHAT?!
"I mean, I've never been in your house before, and it's kind of scary, and I don't really feel too well, and what if-"
"I get it Naruto, Il stay. Just lay down."
Naruto smiled, the heart warming one that made Sasuke's heart pound in his chest, and flopped back down onto the pillow.
"Thank you" he said softly, and than drifted off to sleep, his hand still weakly clutching Sasuke's sleeve.
Ten sleepless hours later, Sasuke was significantly regretting his promise to the blonde.
He had tried to lay down and fall asleep as well, but the thought of Naruto not even a foot away, laying there so defenseless had kept the worst parts of his imagination awake.
He was sorry to say he had to release himself more than once throughout the night.
The sun started to rise and peak through the windows of the room, casting an range glow on Naruto's angelic sleeping face.
He looked so innocent, so comfortable, so pure.
It made Sasuke want to preserve him, put him on a pedestal and worship him for all eternity, and at the same time it made him want to ruin him.
He fantasized about how Naruto's face would look in complete and utter anguish, tears streaming down his face, betrayed by his best friend.
Sasuke shook his head to free himself of those thoughts.
As much as he loved Naruto, his feelings would never be reciprocated.
Naruto was a bright light, a friend to everyone in the village.
He would grow up and make a brilliant Hokage someday.
Naruto was the nicest person he knew, and he knew he wouldn't judge him for liking him, but Naruto was too nice.
Naruto would go out with him, indulge him, allow Sasuke to stain his pureness, simply because it was what Sasuke wanted.
But Sasuke didn't want that.
He wanted more than anything to be loved by Naruto the way he loved him, and he knew that was too much to ask for.
Naruto was to good to him.
He could, and did, have lots of friends, bright, social people who enjoyed his company in a platonic way.
But Naruto chose to stick with him, the gloomy Uchiha who had hated him for a good time before they became friends.
He didn't deserve it.
Even this, as he looked down at his sleeping friend, was too much.
He didn't understand why Naruto would do so much for someone such as him, to be so comfortable to fall asleep next to him.
The sun was getting brighter, and Naruto began to stir in his sleep.
He rolled over on his side, and slowly blinked his eyes open, staring up at Sasuke with a look of confusion on his face.
"Hmm? Sasuke? Why am I here?" Naruto rolled over in the large bed, coming closer to where Sasuke sat.
"You got a fever when you ran after me in the rain, remember dobe? I carried your ass back here after you passed out near the training grounds."
Naruto blushed and rolled over, burying his head in the pillows
"Sorry" he mumbled
"You'd better be" Sasuke snapped, then smirked. He couldn't resist teasing him a bit, and he'd say after the night he just had, he was allowed to have a little fun.
Because of this stupid, oversensitive blonde, he had gotten absolutely no sleep last night, and his patience and self control was wearing thin, so he decided, fuck it, he was going to indulge himself, if only a little bit, as payment for taking him in for the night.
"Because you know Naruto, I don't think I can really look at you the same after what you did to me last night. I mean, you attacked me, and did all sorts of awful things, that was just horrible Naruto!"
Naruto jumped up, all the color draining from his face, and Sasuke tried his very best not to snicker.
"What I, What I did, What? Umm, what exactly did I do last night?!"
"You mean you did all those horrible things and you don't even have the decency to remember what you did?!"
Sasuke was about to burst out laughing, the look on his face was so precious.
Suddenly though, he froze, and his laughter subsided
Shit, shit, shit shit shit.
He had made him cry.
Naruto was slumped on the bed, head shoved in his knees, his precious blue eyes drowning in tears.
"I'm *sob* so sorry *sob* I never meant to*sob*"
The rest of his words were lot as his body was racked with retched sobs.
Sasuke wanted to punch himself.
He made his angel, the only person left in the world who really, truly cared for him, cry, simply because he had had a bad night.
He was the very worst kind of person.
"Naruto" he said softly
"Naruto!" He said more loudly, when he didn't respond.
"Naruto I was kidding! You really didn't do anything! I'm fine, I promise."
Naruto looked up at him with those watery blue eyes Sasuke had such trouble resisting.
"Really?!"
"Really, you weren't even awake for that long. You just fell asleep, that's all. I was just teasing you because I was bit cranky."
Naruto's face softened with relief.
"Thank god. I would never hurt you Sasuke, you know your my best friend, right?"
Sasuke didn't answer.
He didn't deserve his friendship.
He was a horrible person, anti-social and calculating.
He didn't deserve anyone's love, much less this perfect, infinitely forgiving blonde angel sitting before him.
"Sasuke? What's wrong? Are you listening to me Sasuke?"
He should really just stop existing.
He had just made Naruto cry his eyes out, and he had forgiven him almost instantaneously, even hurting himself before he hurt Sasuke.
And he still called him his best friend, after years of putting up with his selfishness.
He didn't deserve anything at all.
"Naruto" Said Sasuke softly, "I think you should leave now. Il walk you home."
Naruto's face fell, and Sasuke felt worse.
"Come on, lets go."
Sasuke tugged softly at Naruto's arm, and he stood up rather reluctantly and followed Sasuke out of his house.
They walked in silence until they reached Naruto's house.
"Bye" Said Sasuke softly.
"See you later" Naruto retaliated softly.
Sasuke turned to go back home and wallow in self pity, but was stopped when a small, strong hand grabbed his sleeve and nearly pulled him off balance.
He turned around and was met by a questioning look.
"What's wrong Sasuke? You never told me yesterday, and you seemed off of your game this morning too! You need to tell me if something is bothering you, you know? Nakama share all, bakadatchi!"
That did it.
He was too nice, too pure.
And Sasuke had to taint him.
With a snarl he pulled Naruto's face to his, crashing their lips together in a lustful haze.
He viciously attacked his lips, only stopping when he felt something warm and wet fall on his face.
He stopped and pulled his face back, slowly lifting it and looking up at his poor, torn angel.
What he saw froze his heart.
Naruto stood there, tears in her eyes, an expression of complete and utter shock writen on his face.
Sasuke slowly dropped his arms to his sides.
He had done it.
He had broke the fragile balance between them.
And there was no going back.
AN: Lol, y'all hate me don't you. I just love is going to be a two shot probably, it was originally going to be just the one chapter, but I couldn't put in as much angst as I wanted without the change in chapters. The waiting for salvation makes it all the more dramatic. But don't worry, for all my fellow pervs out there, there will be the full frickle frackleing next chapter. Unless this goes on even longer and becomes a long multi chapter story.