Goodbye My lover…
It's over; it's so over were the thought that kept running through Derek's mind. These were that last words Meredith had spoke to him since the wedding and that was three days ago. This time Derek knew it was over, he wasn't going to fight either, and he was fighting a losing battle.
He knew Meredith still loved him and he loved her but why put himself through all the pain if he was only going to come out heartbroken once again.
Over the course of the three days every time he saw Meredith he wanted to nothing more than to kiss her and tell her everything would be okay. But she would only push him away and this is another reason why he was done.
As Derek lay in his bed, the rain pounded down on the outside of the trailer, causing lots of noise, he thought about the last three days and how shitty they had been, but right now he just need sleep.
About 4 hours later he was awoken by the sound of his phone ringing, thinking it was Meredith he jumped up and answered it.
"Hello,"
"Derek Michael Shepherd you have not been and visited us in almost a year,"
"Sorry Mom,"
"When will you be visiting?"
"You know what I will be there in two days,"
"Mind and bring your girlfriend I want to meet the girl that you wouldn't
Stop talking about,"
"Mom, Meredith and I are over,"
"Der I'm so sorry,"
"I have to go mom bye,"
He hung up the phone nearly on the verge of tears, now it was official, they were over.
As he walked through the halls of Seattle Grace he felt all eyes on him , he was on the way to the chiefs office to take a leave of absence for three weeks, that was more than enough time to visit his family and for him to get over Meredith,
He knocked on the door rather gently.
"Come In," yelled the chief.
"Hello Sir, I was wondering if I could have a leave of absence for three weeks,"
"Derek I'm not sure, we are already short staffed as it is,"
"Richard I need this time off,"
"Has this anything to do with Meredith?"
"Yes and No I just need you to do this for me I haven't had any holidays since I have came here and I know as well as you do that I deserve this,"
"I know Derek sorry,"
"Thank you sir," he went to walk out the office but he stopped when the chief spoke.
"You will work things out," Richard said
"I don't know sir I have a feeling things will never be the same,"
Derek walked over to the nurse station and looked at charts, knowing fine well they were okay, he just need to distract himself from Meredith who was staring at him across the room.
He didn't noticed that she was approaching him
"Dr Shepherd I'm your resident for today," she said politely
"Okay prep the patient in room 7855, he is having a craniotomy you will assist,"
He walked away no other words were said.