Darkness clouded her vision as she slipped further away from the person who meant the most to her. She reached out trying to grasp her hand but just barely missed. She used everything in her power to reach out one more time but still it wasn't enough. She slipped further and further into darkness. It was all too familiar of a feeling and brought back the ache in her chest. The panic began to swell as she struggled for air. Each breath felt harder than the last. She couldn't lose everything again after she had just rebuilt it all. She knew she couldn't survive that again. Knew it was too much to handle. The loneliness would consume her until she was begging for it to all end. Seeing Lena's face as she tried to reach out was almost enough to end Kara right then and there. She saw the guilt and sadness on Lena's face and would never wish that on her. She was consumed by the darkness at this point but heard a murmuring sound coming from above. She knew that voice, but it was impossible. She hadn't had time to grab Lena's hand before she was consumed by the darkness but here it was becoming clearer every second. She could almost make out the words but was struggling under the weight of everything else consuming her. Lena was begging her to come back. She knew she had one more shot to get back and wasn't going to let this one slip away. Using everything she had left in her body she shot up and reached her arm finally feeling someone grasp it on the other side. Light came back into focus as she saw Lena's form appear before her once again.
"Kara, wake up," Lena yelled as she watched her girlfriend thrash around on the bed. She had seen Kara have nightmares but never this bed. She had been trying to wake her up for the past few minutes but so far had no luck. She shook her one more time and Kara grasped her hand as she shot up in bed.
"Lena," Kara yelled when she saw her girlfriend next to her on the bed. Realizing where she was and that she had just had another nightmare she tried to calm her breathing, but it was only getting worse. Lena could see that panic attack that was building in her girlfriend and quickly pulled Kara's hand to her chest.
"Kara, honey listen to my heartbeat. Try to take a few deep breaths," Lena started as Kara slightly nodded her head. Lena tried to calm her own breathing and after a few minutes of this Kara started to control her breathing a little better. Lena sat with her hand on Kara's back rubbing slow circles as she waited for Kara's breathing to return to normal. They sat like that for 30 minutes as Lena just continued to whisper in Kara's ear that they were both safe and nothing bad was going to happen to them.
"Sorry for waking you," Kara finally said as she had just calmed herself down enough to talk again.
"Kara, look at me," Lena said as she grabbed Kara's chin and forced the girl's head up, so they were looking at each other. "You don't ever have to apologize for that. I am always going to be here for you," Lena said and wiped away the tears that had been running down Kara's face. Kara nodded her head and wrapped herself around her girlfriend not wanting to let go of her again.
"Do you want to talk about it," Lena said even though she knew what the answer would be.
"Not right now," Kara said as Lena nodded her head that she understood.
"Alright well why don't you close your eyes and try to go back to bed," Lena said running her fingers through Kara's hair.
"I don't know if I can. Would you just talk to me for a little bit?" Kara said turning to look into her girlfriend's eyes.
"Of course I can," Lena said kissing Kara's head as she started to talk to Kara about the new projects that her science division was working on. Kara had drifted off to sleep within a few minutes and Lena stayed up for a while making sure that Kara wasn't going to have any more nightmares. After a while she felt her eyes growing heavier and wrapped herself around her girlfriend letting sleep consume her knowing the two of them were safe in each other's arms.