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Chapter 1 - How Can I Tell You?

*A/N -

What if Ana became pregnant at the very beginning of Fifty Shades Darker? After knowing each other for just two months, what will they do? How will Christian react? How will Ana feel when she knows what Christian thinks?

This story will start around page 303? Where Ana is at work and Ethan comes for the apartment keys..

For the sake of the story, I've made it so they've known each other for around 3 months already.

Thanks for reading, I really hope you enjoy the story.

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Ana's P.O.V

I'm still feeling rather anxious, scared you could say. Knowing that Leila is out there, with a gun, wanting to kill me.

The nerves are making me sick, literally. But I don't want to bother Christian, I know he already has enough to worry about.

I love Christian so much, I really do. But sometimes I wonder if I can continue like this. I mean, there are plenty of things I adore about him and about being his girlfriend. But.. Well this, for instance, is enough to make anyone think twice, isn't it? Or am I being selfish? I don't know if some things are worth the anxiety that is pulsing through my body right now.

Since I decided to go back to Christian, things have been up and down..constantly. I mean, he told me he loved me, so that's great isn't it? The sex is incredible, all those years I went without I just didn't know what I was missing. Then Elena became an apparent thing in our lives, just wanting to cause a drift and trying to ruin anything she can for Christian and myself. And now Leila? This is too much to handle, I don't know how much more nervous upchuck I can take.

I know I'm being selfish but I need to think of myself too, which would be easier if I didn't love my fifty so much.

Wow, the things I think about whilst bored at work!

Pulling me away from my daunting thoughts, the phone on my desk rings and it's Claire, telling me there's a really cute guy at reception for me that she wouldn't mind having a few drinks with.. Definitely has to be Ethan!

I grab the keys and practically sprint for reception, although I'm slightly regretting that because of the slight nausea that's washing over me.

"Ana!" I see Ethan and give him a friendly bear hug.

"Ethan! It's so good to see you! I'm guessing you're not here for me." I feign a sad face before smiling again, "Here's the keys." I hand over the apartment keys and wish I could flee with him and go home. Alas, I'm stuck in the office for another few hours with my oh-so-creepy misogynistic boss, Jack Hyde.

"Thanks Ana. Kate and Elliot will be flying back Friday to save you from too much exposure to that boyfriend of yours!" I love Ethan like he's my own little brother.

After an extremely tedious day at work, I am glad when home time comes around and decide to head to the doctors before heading to Christian's, I need to get this virus or bug sorted out, it's draining me of any and all energy I possess.

Composing a text to Christian, stating I'm receiving a simple check-up, I head on over to the doctors. His reply insists I should head straight home to him for Grace to perform a medical exam on myself, but I'm already here now so what's the point in wasting her time? Besides, if Christian is worried about protection then he shouldn't be after all he assigned Sawyer to constantly be around me, or is it just me who remembers that? (Well, how can I forget!) He can protect me, the last place Leila would be is at a hospital... Right?

After having a blood test and explaining my symptoms to Dr. Pullman, I sit nervously waiting for the results.

I hope it's nothing too serious.

Finally, after what seemed like forever, Dr. Pullman speaks; "Well, Anastasia it seems you are pregnant."

I freeze and I swear I've forgotten how to breathe. "Pre..Pregnant?" I stutter, after a huge intake of breath.

My head is hurting, I'm feeling too many things right now. I don't know what to do, what to think, what to feel. I already have a monster of a headache building in my head, I can feel it burning it's way through.

I feel..Sad, scared, shocked, weirdly slightly happy? I'm carrying Christian's baby?

Oh shit, Christian!

He's going to hate me! There is no way he can feel positively about this, he wanted it as least complicated as possible from day one. How could he want a child? There's nothing more complicated than becoming a parent. Fuck! My head is spinning and I feel even more sick than before.

"Miss Steele? You look awfully pale, would you like a drink of water?"

I stutter a "Yes please" whilst gathering the millions of thoughts whizzing around in my head.

I take the drink from her with a shaking hand and continue to take a drink, then Dr. Pullman asks me; "I would like to perform a scan so we can estimate the timing and growth, if that is okay with you Ms. Steele?"

I manage a "Erm, yeah, sure, fine."

Questions about bleeding, when I received my last period and various things were being thrown in my direction, and after briefly answering them all, I was about to receive an external scan.

I blank the majority of words that the doctor is speaking to me, and I'm brought back in to reality when she squirts a dollop of ultrasound gel onto my stomach, bringing my attention to the black and white screen.

My eyes are searching wildy as I look for any signs of life, as to confirm the dream I'm currently in.

And there it is.

Sure enough, there is the tiny flashing blob indicating a heartbeat. The outline reminds me of a bean, as it's almost jelly bean shaped. My jelly bean.

Dr. Pullman is speaking to me, after I heard 9-10 weeks pregnant I continue to nod my head in agreement although I'm not listening. I still can't believe it, my little baby. There's a baby growing inside of me right now, I should be ecstatic but all I can think about is my other baby, how will Christina react?

I walk out of the hospital entrance to be greeted by Sawyer asking if I'm okay, and of course I'm not okay but instead I respond with; "Yeah, I'm just tired Sawyer. I'd love to get home as fast as possible, thank you."

During the drive home all I can think about is how im going to talk to Christian about my recent news. Him not being there to find out, I feel like I've cheated him out of something. It felt like being scolded and frozen at the same time, I can't explain it. I can't feel happy without feeling guilty about Christian, and I can't feel guilty for Christian without feeling even worse for our unborn child.

Staring at the sonogram in my hand, continually stroking it with my thumb, I plan in my head numerous scenarios of how to tell Christian, but no plan works in my favour.

I could just not tell him, pretend I'm getting fat and then one day pop the baby out and pretend I had no idea of it's existence? "Surprise Christian, I didn't know I was pregnant!"

Oh, who am I kidding! I have no clue on what to do. I'm buggered.

Surely Christian wouldn't leave me or kick me out, wouldn't he? Or would he?

The car comes to a halt and I immediately panic in my head and wonder what the fuck I'm going to do!

I know, I'll just not tell him, yet..That's gotta work, hopefully anyway.

My stomach is performing somersaults as I enter Escala.

"Hey beautiful, how did it go?" He seems in a better mood than before, I don't want to wreck the moment so I'll definitely not tell him yet. But long can I postpone telling him? It's not fair on him or the baby.

"Hey, erm the doctors was fine. Turns out it's just stress-related, it's nothing really. I've got some tablets so I should be fine." Really, I'm referring to the nausea tablets I was given.

"Are you sure you're okay?" Christian's stare burns into me and I have to look away to not act affected by it.

"Yeah Christian, I'm fine okay. I'm just gunna go get changed, I've had a tiring day at work." Hoping Christian won't see through my lies.

"Okay baby, come straight down when you're changed so we can eat."

I nod with my small fake smile and head for the stairs.

God, I feel awful. I really hope he doesn't suspect anything or think anything is wrong... Except from the fact that I'm carrying his child, there's a psychotically disturbed ex of Christian's that wants to kill me and another crazy lady that wants Christian all to herself... So no, nothing wrong then!

No matter how hard I scrub, I still feel dirty for lying to him. No amount of scouring can make me feel clean.

Getting out of the shower I take a long hard look at myself in the full length mirror. No noticeable changes as far as I can see, except my sore swollen breasts. I just had claimed that to be because of my menstrual cycle coming up... Guess I won't be getting one of those for a while now though. I didn't even notice I haven't had my period but that is probably due to the fact that I've been too busy thinking about Leila with a gun parading around the streets wanting my life in her hands!

Still looking in the mirror, I cradle my arms around my stomach and it's sort of..warming in a weird way to know that there is a little thing, an actual human being growing inside of me. But the thought is quickly turned negative when I think of how Christian will react. I shudder at the thought and am brought back to drying my cold, wet body in an effort to stop the shaking of my body.

I have no energy left to properly dry my hair and quickly give it a towel-dry in order for the water to stop dripping down my neck and back. I dress in a silk top and matching bottoms, suddenly feeling exhausted from the physical and emotional plagues of my day. So I lie down on the comfortable bed, but just for a minute, only to feel less tired..but the bed is too tempting and I my eyelids are forced shut from the sudden heavy weights on them.

"Ana? Ana, wake up." I slowly awake to Christian standing over me.

I blink and rub my eyes before yawning and realising I must have fallen asleep.

"I'm up, I'm up" I croak, pretending to be wide awake.

His lip curled up before he spoke, "I was waiting half an hour for you, to find you asleep in bed? I'm sorry baby but if you're going to sleep at least eat something first." I open my mouth to protest against him but then thought; if not for me then for the baby.

So I just nod and quietly say, "Yeah okay", before sitting up and holding his hand as he leads me downstairs.

The smell of spaghetti bolognese shouldn't be as appealing to me as it is, but it is and I suddenly feel mouth-wateringly hungry and am glad I agreed to eating.

As I dig into my food I pause when I see Christian looking at me with an amused disgusted look on his face.

"What?" I ask, glaring at him.

"You are a very.. Messy.. Eater, Miss Steele." Christian says playfully as he pats my face with a napkin.

I blush, although I knew the real reason contributing to my big appetite.

"Well Mr. Grey, I forgot to have lunch because I had an extremely busy at work, mainly evaluating chapters of manuscripts.. Oh and Ethan came by for the keys to Kate's apartment."

His amused expression was lost as he looked at me with one eyebrow raised, "You just 'forgot' to have lunch? Honestly Ana, what am I going to do with you?"

I smirk, "Well Mr. Grey I know a number of things you could do to me. But, perhaps another time as I'm feeling far too tired for anything strenuous."

He playfully sighs before holding out his hand to lead me upstairs.

How did I ever get such a beautiful, caring man? Out of all those beautiful women he's had in his life, swooning at his feet, willing to do all the things from his contract, he could have chosen any one of them, so.. Why me?

"Penny for your thoughts, baby?"

"I just.. How did I get so lucky? To have you as my gorgeous boyfriend?"

He looks at me deadly serious in the eyes, "No Ana, how did I get so lucky to have you as my gorgeous, talented, kind, warm-hearted, perfect girlfriend?"

His words made my heart skip a beat and my cheeks arouse a new shade of pink which I like to call "The Christian Effect."

"Now Miss Steele, please will you accompany me in the land of sleep?"

I wasn't aware he had stripped to just his boxers. I want him, so much! But what if he can tell I'm pregnant? What if it's really obvious to him in some way that I didn't realise? I can't take that risk just yet.

I just want to scream at him that I'm pregnant with his baby and that he needs to be okay with that. But I just can't? Oh I don't know!

I know one thing for sure, I need to call in sick tomorrow and visit someone, perhaps Grace. I mean, I have to confide in one person, at least?

I yawn fiercely and then proceed to cuddle up to Christian's side, his arms holding my waist, and even though it doesn't mean anything to him, it feels significant to me.

Awakening because of the heat radiating throughout my body, I squint my tired eyes to my side to find Christian is still draped over me and I accidentally let out a little giggle because he looks so adorable.

I gently remove his arm from my side and climb out of bed, after glancing at the alarm clock. 5am? What a joke, why must my body wake me at the most inconvenient of times. Unfortunately, I'm awake now so I may as well make my way downstairs.

I'm startled to see Gail sitting at the breakfast bar.

"Morning Mrs. Jones, what are you doing up so early?" I greet her, groggily.

"Oh good morning Miss Steele, I'm typically awake at this time every morning, although usually around 5:30 am is when I awake. May I ask why you are currently up, I know you don't usually awaken until at least 6am?"

"Oh erm, same reasons really, just thinking about... Things. You can call me Ana if you like, and perhaps I could call you Gail? I mean, if you feel comfortable with that. It's just that, Miss Steele feels too formal for me."

She gives me a warm smile, "Of course, I'd like that Ana. Would you like a cup of tea?"

"No thank you, I'd love a glass of water though." I reciprocate her smile and start to ponder my thoughts as she passes me the glass of water.

"Something on your mind, dear?"

I really want to just tell her, I feel as though I'm bursting at the seams with this information. Wouldn't it be wise for her to know anyway, I mean, what if she cooks a certain meal or type of food that I wouldn't be able to eat?

"I..I'm..never mind." I begin to speak but I can't finish my sentence. If she found out before Christian then how would that make him feel? But, I need someone. I don't think that Christian can handle this yet, I mean we've only known each other for a matter of months. Gail is lovely, she reminds me of a motherly figure, and she is that for Christian and I'm starting to feel the same way, like I'm one of her own.

"I know that I'm perhaps only a member staff but if you ever need to talk with someone about anything at all, then please feel free to talk to me, it would be in total confidence. I am an excellent secret-keeper." Her smile feels very consoling to me, perhaps I'm feeling vulnerable but either way I feel the utmost trust for Gail at this current moment.

"Gail, I'm pregnant."

Her shocked expression doesn't do anything to calm my nerves, or even more so when she looks right past me and her eyes widen further. Anxiety burning in my chest, I cautiously turn around to find Christian froze in his tracks.

Oh shit.