AN: I decided to poke my head into what Mamoru was feeling after he broke up with Usagi, he's not really a man that I much like however I decided after writing this I like him a lot more.. I decided he would be thoughtful and deep.. charming and really, really depressed without his Usako.
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Usako, I know I don't deserve to call you that anymore.. but here is something that I wrote for you in one of the nights where I couldn't get to sleep, I know it doesn't help the pain but here is what I've been feeling when I have been without you.. I don't expect you to take me back, but please just read anyways.
The only way I can drown out
Is to go to sleep
And even in my sleep I still dream of you
I dream of your touch
And I dream of your kiss
I miss you so much
I thought I would be over it
It's been so long since we have been together
But yet you are fresh in my mind
I can't spend a day without thinking your name
Because it echoes in my mind
Your touch is something I often feel
When I wake within the middle of the night
I wonder if it was dream
And I cry my self to sleep again knowing its not real
Because my love, I've been a fool
I let you go for a dream
And it turned out to be just a nightmare without you
It's all my fault
Because I was stupid in believing there was a I with out you
Cause there isn't life without you its just living
I'm haunted by the goast of you
I'm haunted by the thoughts of you
I wish I could have known
I wish I could have seen
How losing you would tare me apart
Because living without you isn't worth it
You've got my heart and my soul
My body has always been yours
I'm in hell without you and I wish I could turn back time
Because I've been a fool
And all I want is you
I want to feel your sweet kisses again
To taste you
To touch you
Because you melt me
And because you make me real
I was so alive with you
And now I am without
I don't know how I move anymore
Its all a bad dream
And soon I'll wake up
But until then
I wish I could go up to you
To tell you again how I feel
How I regret my mistakes
How my actions make me feel
But how can I face you
How can I do that to you
To ask for you back
When all I have done is wronged you
For you are free
And I am just stuck here with thought of you
Mamoru