I need her more then anything. The thought of her only grows deeper through out the day. She is a strong warrior and a great fighter. She keeps us all in line. I think of her a lot, if not all the time. All I want is to hold her in my arms and move my fingers through her soft hair. I want to feel the tips of her fingers turn my skin on fire. I want to wake up every mourning to her sweet smile. I want to smell the intoxicating sent of cinnamon on her pale skin. I wanted all of that, I wanted her.

"Hello, York! Anyone home?"

"What?"

I look and see a moving hand in front of me, It's Washington's. He moves his hand vertically, about two inches in front of my face. I push his hand away and come back to my senses. I can hear the laughter of Wash and North fill the locker room. I must of zoned out and started daydreaming. I can never concentrate anymore.

"York you've been sitting on the bench with your eyes closed for a good 10 minutes. I mean it was pretty funny at first, but we both got kind of scared. Did you fall asleep or something?"

I can hear a slight sound of worry in Washington's voice. I always seem to get lost in my own thoughts. I need to gain some control over that.

"Something along those lines."

That's all I can say, all I need to say. Sometimes I Wish I could say more, but I don't want the guys to know what's going on. That would brake her "rules." I push myself off the bench. I can feel the eyes of the two men on me as I open my locker and put my armor away. I close the locker door, shutting it and locking it. I turn to my left to see a worried looking North.

"York is everything okay?"

I look down at my feet not wanting to make any more eye contact. I want to tell them, but I'm no good with feelings and all that. I lift up my head and try to come up with some bullshit excuse.

"Sorry Guys, i'm just really tired. You both did a fine job of kicking my ass today in training. I figured I let you both win this time around. I'm just a nice guy like that."

A smirk comes across my face while looking at my friends. Wash just shakes his head and lets out a small laugh.

"I'm calling bullshit on that, but I wouldn't worry too much York, I'm sure Carolina will help you de-stress from your loss."

Washington elbows me in the side. I cough form the impact of his elbow pocking into me. He's grinning with a raised eyebrow. North laughs and rolls his eyes at us.

"Whatever, You guys are to much. I'm never that lucky"

I walk the other way across the locker room, away from them both. She thinks I should keep what we have to ourselves. I think Wash and North know more then they should. The laughter of North and Wash fades as I leave the locker room. A big smile comes across my face, I'm going to see her tonight. I make my way down the hall and take a right to the bunking area. My smile soon fades. It's crazy how a Women can make you feel happy and scared all at once. I can feel my palms start to sweat and my legs begin to feel weak, I'm starting to get closer to her room. I can hardly breath. I know whats going to happen tonight, I've been dreaming about it for days. Every ounce of me needs her. I reach the outside of her room and I knock lightly on the door, my heart is pounding.

"Hey there."

She opens the door and pulls me in closing it behind us. She's wearing a black t-shirt and a pear of tight jeans, she looks insanely beautiful. She pushes me on to the bed and mounts herself on top of me. Her long red hair falling across my face.

"Gezz, easy tiger."

I raise my eyebrow and grain. She lets out a soft laugh.

"Well York, I know you've been dying for this."

"And it seems like you have too."

She bits her lower lip and traces her finger across my jaw line. She leans forward and plants a kiss on my lips. She lightly licks my lips waiting for me to let her enter. I feel the warmth of our lips met and our tongues dance together. I pull on to the back of her neck to deepen the kiss. She pushes back a little and lightly starts biting and sucking on the bottom of my lip. I move my hands up and down her sides. I can feel her sexy tight craves, she has the body of a goddess. She slowly starts moving her hips back and forth. She's teasing me and I love it. I feel her hand creep up my thigh. My blood starts rushing and I feel myself become hard. She's kissing my neck and I feel her reach my sweet spot. She knows she's hit it and she nibbles on it, I gasp. I feel like I'm in heaven. She pulls my shirt off over my head, it lands on the floor. She slowly starts kissing my jawline and soon travels down to my abs. Lightly kissing and licking her way down to my belt. I push my hands through her soft hair. She kisses her way back up to my chin and looks me in the eyes. I look back at her and my mind can't understand how someone can be so beautiful. Not only is she beautiful in looks but also in who she is. She is a strong Warrior with a soft side not many get the chance to see. I cup her chin with my hand and she smiles sweetly at me. My mind and body fill with happiness. A strong feeling of joy over comes me. I've never felt this way before, this girl is all mine now. She is everything I have ever wanted. I feel so many things when I'm with her. All I need is her. I need her so bad that when I'm not with her, I lose myself. This is love. Maybe not, but it's the closest I'll ever be. I never want to have this feeling for anyone, only her. My voice starts to shake and I feel words over come me.

"I love you Carolina."

I let out a deep sigh, It feels good to get that out. Something changes and the air starts to feel heavy. The room becomes cold. Carolina pushes herself off me landing on the floor. She throws me my shirt. Her deep green eyes filled with hurt. She turns the other way, looking right at the wall. She sighs deeply.

"I never wanted this to happen. York, you can't love me. We can't keep doing this."

I can hear the sadness in her voice. I want to think she's right, but I can't. I don't want her to be right. I don't want this to ever stop. Never.