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Chapter 1: Present Time
Take a deep breath. Exhale. Take a deep breath. Exhale. Take a deep…
Kurt kept repeating to himself over and over again. He thought that by the time he's standing in front of the mirror, in his all white very expensive tuxedo, the fear would've at least subsided, but boy was he wrong. He was terrified. And I mean like, a moment away from passing out terrified.
Oh God, what if I do pass out?! No! Don't think like that. Just…, take a deep breath. Exhale. Take a deep breath. Exhale. There you go. Huff! Take a deep breath…
It's not that he's second guessing his decision to get married. In fact, the closer the wedding got, the better this whole thing settled with him. But that didn't seem to keep him from having the worst of feelings swirling inside of him. He was nervous beyond belief, terrified out of his mind and felt as lost as a little mouse in a giant maze.
Take a deep breath. Exhale. Take a deep breath. Exhale. Take a deep…
He kept repeating that until he heard a very soft knock on the door, which naturally made him turn and jump back a mile, almost breaking the mirror he was standing in front of for the past half an hour. His heart was pounding like crazy in his chest.
Jeez Hummel! Never mind passing out, just try not to die because of severe knocking on your door!
"Come in" he heard someone say.
Oh, so this is my voice for the day. Fantastic.
"It's time, Kurt. Are you ready?" Santana said from the doorway.
"Yes." he said.
Taking a deep breath which was shaky and caught in his throat making him cough a few times, he followed Santana out of the room. She led him to the door that led outside to where the ceremony was held.
The whole walking down the aisle thing took a lot of thinking on his part. His mother has died when he was 8 and his dad died of a heart attack when he was 16. He didn't feel like there's anybody in his life as important to him as his parents were to take their place of walking him down the aisle. He still wanted to do it, though. So he decided he would walk alone.
What the hell was I thinking?! Walking down the aisle ALONE! Oh God! I am going to DIE. I am going to trip, land on my face and die of sheer humiliation. This was a bad idea, a very very bad…
His thoughts, which brought him to a new level of terror now, were interrupted by the sound of music coming from outside. His legs started moving as if on autopilot.
This is it. Just breathe and don't trip. If it's hard to multitask you can forget about the breathing, but just don't TRIP.
The music was a bit hard to hear now because of the ever increasing pounding of his heart. People were standing on the two sides of the aisle STARING at him, which was of no help to his wrecked nerves. And now he's shaking.
Perfect.
Oh God, even the voice in his head was shaking. He saw it clearly now. He was going to have a panic attack at his own wedding while walking down the aisle. He would be taken to a hospital and the wedding would be called off. Not delayed, called off because who would want to marry him after that.
Oh God! Oh God! Oh God! Oh…
Just when everything was about to crack in his mind, he came face to face with the altar, or more specifically face to face with his husband to be. He locked eyes with what felt at that moment like the most beautiful eyes he'd ever seen in his life. The intensity of that gaze held him straighter up, his knees barely shaking now. And the warmth he felt radiating from it pulled him enough to continue walking towards the altar.
Well that was new.
Having only seen a picture of Blaine Anderson so far, he never thought anyone who he had just met, or rather just met eyes with, could anchor him like that. But he wasn't about to question what just saved him from having a break down right then and there. Besides, that was a good thing, right? The fact that his husband to be could do that must be a good thing.
He reached the altar and faced Blaine, their eyes never leaving each other's. They took each other's hands and…
Oh! Who knew holding hands felt like this and never told me?
At that moment, holding Blaine's hands and staring into his beautiful hazel eyes, he knew without a doubt, that marrying Blaine was the right decision. Yes, it's an arranged marriage, and yes, he didn't know much about the guy, but if there's one thing he learned from his father, it's to always trust his instincts. And right now, all his instincts are screaming 'RIGHT' at him.
Someone was talking but he wasn't paying much attention. By some magical power he managed to look right into Blaine's eyes and say "I DO" at the right moment. He tried to convey how much he's sure of those two words now to Blaine. Blaine smiled at that, so he must've succeeded, and the way he said "I DO" made Kurt's heart skip a beat.
The next thing he knows was hearing "I now pronounce you husband and husband, you may kiss now".
Kiss. Right. My first kiss. OH GOD! I am about to be kissed for the first time in my life! Why haven't I thought about that before?! I should've at least prepared myself mentally! How could I have forgotten somethi…
His thoughts were cut short and so was every sound or sense of place around him when he felt Blaine's lips press against his so very gently. His emotions went wild and were all over the place to even start to sort through them. But that's okay because his instincts were still screaming RIGHT at him and that was all that mattered.
Blaine's soft lips pulled away. And he felt himself open his eyes (When did I close them?!) and slowly get back to himself. Blaine smiled at him, let go of one hand and started to walk up the aisle, still holding the other hand, while people applauded and cheered for them.
RIGHT. RIGHT. RIGHT…
His instincts kept on reassuring him while he walked up the aisle hand in hand with his husband. HUSBAND! He felt himself blush a little at the thought, and all his worries and fears from before started to melt away just a little bit more with every step he took with his husband.
A/N: If you're reading this, thank you so much for giving it a shot and reading until the end. To those of you who are wondering, I WILL explain in later chapters how Kurt and Blaine got to this point. Please, please review. I would love to hear your opinions on this and answer each and every question any of you have.