Chapter 1 – GaMtAv – aLCOHOL ADDICTION
Tavros Nitram knew that Gamzee Makara liked to drink, but honestly he never knew how much Gamzee drank when he was gone. They were in high school and had been dating since the 8th grade. Tavros was paralyzed from the waist down and was stuck in a wheel chair so it made it hard for him to get around to places. He tried to get together with Gamzee as much as he could be Gamzee's house wasn't very wheelchair accessible so they hardly ever went there. This is why Gamzee was able to keep his secret for so long.
One day after Tavros had come home from school he pulled his laptop onto his lap and opened up an application called "Pesterchum" which he used to regularly contact his friends. Tavros began by talking to his friend Nepeta when he noticed his boyfriend wasn't on. This didn't worry him at first considering Gamzee had lots of things to do after school seeing as his father neglected him and his older brother was at his girlfriend's house 99.9% of the time.
Tavros didn't start worrying until 7 because he knew Gamzee got off of work at 5 and was at least going to pester Tavros on his phone if he were at the store or something. Tavros went down the hall to tell his dad he wanted to go to Gamzee's house (he didn't want his dad to think he was worried) so they got in the van and went to there. Tavros got out of the car – with help from his dad obviously – and went to the front door as quickly as possible. He was about to knock on the door when Gamzee's older brother Kurloz opened it. Kurloz gave Tavros a smile.
"Gamzee didn't say you were coming over... then again he's been really quiet since he go home from work"
"Um, th-that's why I'm here. He hasn't p-pestered me all day so I was worried." Tavros said with his stutter
Kurloz stepped out of the doorway "Well I gotta get to Muelin's house if you don't mind me leaving you guys alone"
"Uh, o-okay" and with that Kurloz was gone.
Tavros rolled through the doorway and down the hall to Gamzee's room. He got nervous because there was a sound like glass breaking then liquid spilled onto the carpet in the hallway. There was loud screaming and honking. Tavros hesitantly knocked on Gamzee's door, extremely afraid something bad was happening to his beloved clown obsessed boyfriend. The door creaked open, revealing a slightly bloody and crying Gamzee. "What the motherfuck do you want motherfucker?"
Tavros was a bit shocked by Gamzee's hostility "uh, how... w-what happened Gamzee?"
"I lost my motherfuckin' job and we all know I'm probably gonna die now so I just motherfuckin' pulled out the alcohol to drink my motherfuckin' self to death. Better die motherfuckin' happy right?" Gamzee said with a raspy voice, presumably because he just screamed at the top of his lungs.
Tavros was shaking with fear "P-please there must be some other way... I don't want you to die Gamzee."
"Well I want to die..."
"W-where's the bottle you just had?"
"I accidentally motherfuckin' broke that shit." He said as he haphazardly walked to the box in his room, stepping on glass with each step.
Tavros rolled into Gamzee's room and next to the box. The box was full of different types of whiskey and liquor that were very unsettling to look at considering the where Gamzee's self-esteem was at the moment. Gamzee reached for a bottle and Tavros swiped it from his hand.
"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING THAT'S MINE?!"
Tavros felt extremely scared and helpless. For one thing Gamzee had an easier time getting around and was a lot stronger than he looked. For the first time that day Tavros saw how broken Gamzee was in that moment. Gamzee's clown makeup had smeared from his crying and he was still crying. Anger and fear was coming from every feature in his face. He was very skinny and his hair was a mess.
Tavros lurched forward as best he could to give Gamzee a bear hug. He whispered sweet thing in his ear hoping he'd calm down. Gamzee crumpled into Tavros's soft touch and started to bawl. Gamzee tried to get as close as he could to Tavros and he just sat there and cried while his boyfriend stroked his hair. "I'm really motherfuckin' sorry..."
AUTHOR'S NOTE: So for one thing I have not been on here in forever. For another thing I might permanently or temporarily pause a few stories since I am not going to be on here often knowing me. ALSO THIS IS MY FIRST HOMESTUCK STORY :D and its sadstuck/humanstuck PBJ :) so I hope I killed all your feels and you enjoyed this
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