I'll never forget her, she was gorgeous, agile and most of all the kids adored her. The Adults…called her a Mangled mess but to me she'll always be my Foxana. All but one man and perhaps that's why he was always my favorite. I would watch him try and hand her, her parts when the day was done but soon even they couldn't put her together again.
It's not the kids fault, they're doing what kids do but…why the adults couldn't try harder I'll never understand. She didn't do anything but love them and in return they loved her not matter if she was missing an eye or her jaw was barely hanging on. Maybe looking back that's what I loved most about her. I would tell her when the lights shut off and the crowds were gone that I loved her, that I always would and quietly I would hear her in a soft static voice answer me, "I…love….too…"
But then…that awful day came. I saw him, the wicked man that would destroy our little world and tear me apart from her forever. I saw him touch a child and I know what he had done, what he was going to do again so I attacked even when I could hear the others screaming not to. I did…I missed…
I did something I can't ever take back now forced to stay behind this curtain. I don't know what happened to my Foxana. I know this is my punishment but the man, and I knew he was my favorite for a reason when he came to me one night after we opened up again a few years back and slipped something to me that I still hold tight to my heart. It's all that's left of my love. Her small voice box still crackles alive at night calling out 10-1, 10-1, but every once in a while it calls out something different in the dark, "I…still…love…you…"
I love you too Foxana and one day…I hope I'll see your beautiful face again. Until then I'll watch over my favorite man, I always pop in on him when he doesn't turn on the cameras for a while. He's all I have left and I can't let anything bad happen to him. I hear the cameras turn on and I sigh relieved. It's already 3am and there's still a few more hours to go…the static picks up again from her voice box and I hold it close, "Soon…we'll be together soon…"