Inside this broken smile.
Through my rage and sorrow I hide
I shall continue to try to be kind
Which rips my heart apart.
I shall try not to take in your insults,
It's a new surprise.
And it doesn't do anything.
I scream at the world,
Never again.
To make you happy.
Let me carry that for you
I am a servant?
The people?
The stars, the sun, the clouds?
What have I done to the moon,
What have I done to this earth?
Because they don't know what to do.
But laugh when they do
They feel my pain
It's just me alone.
I have never had a good friend.
But what's this?
Causing people to back away.
Too strongly for me
My dearest friend cries out again for me
The stars think you and your thoughts
Are odd but they can't see you make
A beautiful image in the night sky.
And leave you broken.
They say as they turn their back
They're all lies
But prick you when you get too close.
Soft velvet and a symbol of love.
When shall I bloom into the rose,
What tears we shed when a bud dies.
Some bloomed but some are buds…
Fields are covered in flowers,
To destroy you.
You scream out to the world
And see what it does
"Help Me!"
No words to describe it.
But all I feel is pain,
I see their mouth move
Images are not definite.
People see different things,
Look at the clouds.
Only to find you are ash.
To see your face once again
I walk through the fire
Sorrow, tears, memories.
It's exactly what it deserves:
The wind is cold and shallow,
How I wish it would all
Be swept away by the wind.
But only their faces appear.
Waiting for an answer,
I cry out to the skies and heavens
Did you look for me?
Hidden in the darkness of the flood?
Do you see me, invisible?
Sweating memories and pain.
With the sorrow they all shed.
I stand and become soaked
Through the shadow of the rain
And a broken soul
I pick myself up again,
With a blood stained face
I carry their water for them
Through the desert.