Chapter 1
~~Return~~
"Please make this stop, I can't look at this again" Shinji spoke to no answer. To him the repeating event of ripping apart his own body felt like it was only hours in his Eva Unit 01. Reality was to far from the clutches of the LCL inside Unit01 14 years had passed while Shinji was fighting with himself inside the entry plug. "Make this STOP!" Shinji began crying as he wrapped his hands around Asuka's throat. He'd seen this before but every time it happened his heart hurt more and more.
"Stop, please stop" Shinji said as he lifted Asuka off the ground watching as her face changed a hue of pink and then purple before her eyes that were blue and deep as the ocean it's self began to fade to a blue that can only be described as empty. Shinji stood the even after strangling the life out of Asuka just demented in his thoughts "Why is this happening to me" he asked "Because you are weak" a reply from himself but Shinji hadn't heard a voice in so long he was stunned from the reply "You're so weak you've let me do this to you for this long. Never once have you put an effort to stop me. Not even a small effort. It's pathetic that we are one in the same." The voice spoke.
"Who are you!" Shinji screamed spinning around looking for the owner of the voice. The room felt heavy and Shinji didn't know why. His feet led him in to the hallway where the room of his dead red headed roommate was. He looked deep at the opening of his room which was right in front of the room Asuka once stayed in. His room was small as he remembered but this room was different, changed, somehow the room he once remembered was changed he hadn't done anything but it was no longer the same. A room filled with mirrors and a bed. Not the room he remembered leaving that day before fighting Zeruel. Then he asked again "Where are you" when he spoke the lump in his throat stopped him after each word. "Look closer Idiot Shinji. Is that what you'd want to hear. Asuka is gone Shinji we did this to her. Over and over how many times will you let this happen" a voice so similar to his own Shinji started pacing around the room looking for its owner.
The mirrors had no end, making Shinji even more desperate and irritated. "Stop hiding and show yourself!" Shinji screamed out to the walls of mirrors. As he said that a slight change in the appearance of himself in the mirror took him by surprise causing him to walk closer to the mirror. "Let me out of this place. Please I just want to see my friends again" Shinji pled to the mirrors. "Why would I do that. Here no one will hurt us anymore we can't be hurt by Asuka the one we care so much for. Misato can't judge us for not wanting to pilot the Evangelion. Father can't be disappointed in us if he never has to see us again. And we can't fail Rei if we stay here. No one will ever remember us the never needed us. We were disposable and that's why I'm keeping us here" The voice was coming from himself Shinji realized.
Looking at himself in the mirror his eyes were filled with tears and his irises had began to glow Amber he'd never seen this before. "What do you mean we won't be hurt anymore, I'm hurting every time I have to watch myself kill Asuka how much worse can they hurt me. They're my friends!" Shinji said with a stern voice hoping this would persuade what ever has imprisoned him. But before the voice could reply he heard a voice coming over the Eva's voice channel "Baka Shinji do something i can't kill this thing and save you" Asuka said in a strained voice. His heart exploded with anger at what ever was hurting Asuka. Her voice was enough to push him far past any anger he's felt before. The cage around unit one opened at the Evangelion's eyes allowing Shinji to attack what ever with eye lasers he learned when fighting Zeruel. And like that Shinji did a twisting motion not knowing his position and shot to help. The angel was dead as he fired. Asuka stayed in awe as Unit 01 saved her from death even after not being powered and in orbit of earth for 14 years. Shinji began losing his consciousness after putting the rest of his A T field into the laser attack to save Asuka. As the world began to fade for him Shinji heard himself again "Now you've gone and done it again. Pathetic and I was gonna save you from pain" after those words the world was dark and cold in his Entry plug.