Hey momma.
Let me tell you a secret.
I stopped loving you.
Maria rubbed her eyes and sat up in bed. She reached out for Sakutaro, but her fingers touched cold sheets.
The sunlight danced through her open window, a breeze flowing into the room and fluttering her curtains. The room is empty. Her toys are silent, scattered along the floor. Porcelain rabbits are smashed. Dolls' heads are no longer attached to their necks. Her glass tea set - smashed. Everything is broken. Broken, broken - just like her. Just like Maria.
She doesn't know it, but her heart is broken. She can't feel it anymore. She can't feel the pain, the ripping and tearing at the seams.
I loved you.
But
it wasn't enough.
That night.
Cloaked in darkness, while her mother was out, Maria had smashed everything. Every single life she'd given her toys she crushed in an instant. She destroyed it all - If there was no Sakutaro, was there even..anything?
Was it all fake?
Was it..?
She'd been screaming, sobbing, throwing things and stepping on them while they cried out for her but she didn't hear them. Her heart was snapping and she was hurting and seeing red - why was she always happy? Why did she always have to be happy?Why couldn't someone care for her for once, why couldn't someone tell her to be angry and cruel and vicious instead of a polite, sweet girl and
It was all HER fault. Rosa's fault.
Maria wanted to crush her too.
Do you know what it's like -?
To see all of
that
stuffing that
life pouring out of
your best friend and -
She loved Sakutaro. She loved him and now he was gone and she was alone alone alone like she had always been
but she was a witch right? Right? She could destroy everyone, destroy everything, find her happiness and -
But Sakutaro, Sakutaro.
He'd never be back.
Never never never -
She imagined twisting her mother's neck until her stuffing came out.
Red red red, everywhere, blood, Sakutaro screaming, shattering glass
He was gone.
She was gone.
Crack. Slap.
Why don't you just die, Maria? Stop playing with stupid stuffed animals, you're a baby, stop practicing magic you baby, you embarrassment, you weren't supposed to be born -
It was all
gone.