CHAPTER 1 - UNCONTROLLED EMOTIONS

It was already late and dark. Gabriel was wondering through the dark woods, not sure where he was going. Everything was different since he left heaven and his family behind. He loved them, all of his brothers and sisters, but at the same time they were just driving him crazy. The regular fights between Michael and Lucifer became worse and just unbearable for him. He couldn't handle it anymore. And the worst thing was, that their father did nothing to stop them. How was he ever going to be able to deal with all this family trouble? It was too much for him, so he just left. But now, as he thought about it, it would have been quite some fun, playing with his younger siblings, taking care of them, teach them how to protect the most precious possession of their father, the humans, and show them the world. Now, as he was standing in the middle of some random woods, darkness around him, he started to regret his decision. He was one of the oldest brothers, he should've been there for the younger ones. But now it was too late. There was nothing he could do.

Gabriel stuffed his hands into his pockets and walked through the woods. He wasn't even sure why he was here. But it didn't matter to him right now. All he needed was some fresh air to get his mind straight again. Then, suddenly, he saw a bright light in the skies. And then another one, and another one. What was going on? Was there a meteor shower or something? He looked up at the sky. The realization hit him like a fist in the face. Those were no meteors! Those were his brothers and sisters! The Angels! They were all… falling! He couldn't believe his eyes! But right in front of him, they were just falling from the sky like raindrops. Who could have caused this?! Now he regretted it even more, just to have left all of his siblings behind and let THIS happen. He felt so bad, guilty and angry at the same time. For the first time in his life, he didn't have his emotions under control! Still staring at the falling angels, his anger began to overcome his guilt. He needed to do something about this. There was no way of letting this all just happen. No way!

Full with anger and hate, he wanted to pay his old home a visit. But he couldn't. The gates to heaven were closed! That would explain the falling angels. Who could be this cruel and could have done this to his family? He swore to himself to find the one responsible for the fall of his siblings and get some pay back!

His anger started to boil within him and he barley could hold it in. Not able to enter heaven was even more painful and caused his anger to rise. Never before Gabriel experienced so much anger, hate and negative emotions. He felt something, something that he never really felt before, something that his father never wanted him to feel. Revenge. He wanted to revenge for this. Whoever did this, would pay, and Gabriel would assure that personally.

Unsure of what he would do now, he started walking faster, maybe he could save some of his brothers and sisters. Maybe not everything was lost. There was still a little flash of hope inside him. After all, he was an archangel with remarkable powers. There must be something he could do.

Suddenly, his eyes caught something in the darkness. He took a closer look and recognized the shapes of a person lying on the ground. Carefully, Gabriel approached the still unknown person. Through the light of the falling angels, he could see a trench coat. He gulped. Please, don't let this happen to me, he thought by himself as he was approaching the person. There was still a little sign of hope inside of him. But as we was coming closer, his misgiving started to come true and it burned inside of him like a fire.

Gabriel kneeled down and tried to hold back his tears. His anger flew away in just a second after he saw his younger brother, Castiel, lying in front of him. hurt, beat up, weak and fragile. Why him? What has he done to deserve this? He was always Gabriel's younger, sweet and innocent brother.

Carefully Gabriel wrapped his arms around his younger brother and looked at him. Was he even still alive? Could he have survived this fall? It was looking bad for his little brother, he was hurt pretty badly. But then again, Castiel always has been a fighter, and pushed to the end. God's little soldier.

"Castiel? Cassie?" Gabriel's voice trembled. "Come on Cassie, wake up!" But there was no response from the former angel. Gabriel tightened his grip a little and closed his eyes. His whole body was trembling and he felt the first tears on his face. It was no use to resist his emotions, so he let his sadness run free. Uncontrolled emotions overwhelmed the archangel, all this was too much for him. Thinking about his brothers fight, thinking about leaving his family, seeing them fall form the sky and now finding Castiel like this. Where was his father in all this? How could he just have let this all happen?

"You can't do this to me, Cas!" he whispered sobbing full of sadness. Gently he ran his fingers through Castiel's dark hair and looked at him. He was bleeding and his face beaten up. Deep wounds and blood covered his face. Other bruises filled the empty spots in his face. He looked to weak. What happened to him? Gabriel looked up at the sky. There were still angels falling down. How many would even survive this fall?

"Please, he's my little bro! You can't take him away from me!" Gabriel yelled up to the sky. His voice was still trembling and now full with anger. The tears were running down his face. The sadness and anger burned inside him and were like sting to his heart.

"Please father! I'm begging you! Give him back to me!" With those last words gabriel started to cry again. He wanted his little brother back, no matter the cost! If the others didn't survive, Castiel was the only thing he had left to call family. Gabriel was sitting, there, on the cold ground with Castiel in his arms, still weeping over his brother.

But then, suddenly something moved in Gabriel's arms. He opened his eyes and looks at Castiel. His fingers began to move and that little flash of hope returned to Gabriel. He wasn't dead!

"Cas! Cas can you hear me?" he asked, almost stumbling upon his own words. Slowly Castiel opened his eyes and looked at his older brother. He uttered some painful noises and tried to say something. But he was too weak. Castiel raised his hand but didn't get very far. Gabriel took his arm and gently laid it on Castiel's chest.

"It's okay, Cassie. I got you." Gabriel whispered still crying. No tears of sorrow but of joy. His brother was still alive! At least he had one of his brothers back. Gabriel still had his arms wrapped around Castiel.

"G…Gabriel…?" Castiel mumbled in pain and looked confused at his brother. "How did you… I thought…" he couldn't continue. Speaking cost him too much pain and so he leaned against his brother's chest and closed his eyes again. He wasn't an angel anymore, he fell, he was human now.

"Don't talk, save your strength, little bro." Gabriel said now a bit more calm. He wiped the tears of his face and wrapped his arms again around Castiel, to protect him. No one could hurt him now, his big brother would always be there from now on, to protect him, to look after him. Gently Gabriel could heal most of Castiel's woods, but the fall made his brother even weaker and he really needed some rest. But not here. If not here, where then? Where could he go where his brother could be save? Gabriel looked around him. Nothing but trees and darkness.

"Come on, Cassie, we got to get out of here. You need some rest and get used to being human." Gabriel looked at his little brother, who's eyes were still closed. Fondly he ran his fingers through Castiel's hair again. The uncontrolled emotions inside began to stabilize and Gabriel had himself under control again. Although he was still trembling and trying to get over this shock.

"The… Winchesters have a…" Castiel tried to talk again, still with his eyes closed. Gabriel didn't want him to speak, but they really needed a safe place to go.

"What? What do they have?" Gabriel asked. He was mad at himself for pushing Cas so hard, but at the moment he had no other choice. He would make it all up to him once they were safe.

"A… a bunker…" Cas mumbled silently. He could barley speak. Gabriel needed a moment to understand what he was saying. He had heard that the Winchester brothers had some sort of secret bunker now. They probably wouldn't mind if he got Cas there, just till he was feeling better.

"Okay, Cas. I'm getting us there. Just hold on!" Gabriel tightened his grip a little more and with a flap of an angel's wing they were at the bunker of the Winchesters. Gabriel took a look around. Nobody seemed to be there.