The doll
Yuki Shizuka
"Without death… I am nothing. It is what I want, what I dream of… What I desire." This is what my master's last words were…
"Death is the reason I exist." This is what my master instilled in my imaginary mind. My master is an advocate of death and she has made me to embody how much she admires it. Death is the freedom that my master made me believe that is so lovely. It is beyond all elegance that the world could provide. Because of this Death she often tells me about, I am greatly loved by my master, my master who do not have a change of expression except when she talks fondly about this death. Oh! How I wish she could see death so that she could be happy! I wish I could follow her to that place that she often tells me.
She often tells me about a girl that once owned her. Like me, she was the favorite of that girl. Until the girl no longer spoke to her. Master told me the girl met with death and was freed from all suffering and pain she must've felt before. That is why master admires this death person. She wants to thank it for helping her master but she sees no other way to meet this death but to be like her master, she has to wish for this death to come to her and take her.
One night, my master sat next to me and said "This will be the last time I will be speaking to you. I have found a way to see death." I asked her what is it and if I can come with her but she replied in a soft voice "no… only I can do this. After this conversation, I can no longer talk to you. I do not know what will happen to you after I am gone… but you must find the way yourself if you want to come with me…" her words trailed in the darkness of the shadows in the little glass room we reside. I tried to talk to her but she no longer responded. I thought that she found death and I must find my way if I want to talk to her again. I must cease to exist for me to rejoin my master. I must concentrate and think about how she must've found the answer.
However, even how much I desire for this death that my master so admires, like her, I cannot die since we are NOT ALIVE. My master is a doll that has been abandoned by her master and I, I only exist in my master's imagination… forever…
…The end…