WHAT'S LEFT OF ME CHAPTER 1

Sonny couldn't Believe that he had been so stupid and wrong with what he just done , he really thought that will was saying that he was interested ,so he lean in towards will and kissed him on the lips.

Will was so mad at sonny that he had done that , and after telling sonny off he walked away leaving sonny in the park very confused , sonny just hoped that he hadn't damaged his friendship with will , he had to go back to work so he headed back to Common Grounds hoping to get his mind off it .

Will needed to have some one to talk too, so he headed to his grandmother's apartment hoping to have a chat with her.

'' knock knock

'' hello will , come in ''

'' you weren't going out or anything was you , because I can leave if you were ?''

'' no I wasn't sit down will , do you want a cup of tea or soda ?'' as she refilled her cup of tea .

''will tell me what has you so uptight''

'' I think I might have just hurt someone ,that I could maybe love with time''

''will you could never hurt anyone that bad ,but you need to be honest with yourself on how you felt when it happen , if it really was so bad ,once you have done that you then I really think that it won't seem so bad will, you need to follow what your heart wants never worry about what your family or friends will say or act , this is about you will no one else , does this help you ?''.

'' yes it did , but I always feel better after talking to you ''as they both walked to the door holding hands . Will kissed her on the cheek and went in search for someone .

Sonny had tried to get his mind off the kiss but he just couldn't forget how it felt to kiss will's lips , he had been in love with will from day one , he knew that it wouldn't be any use because will was never going to say those the truth that he was gay.

Sonny looked up and found Brian standing next to the counter looking at him , he knew that he was interested in him, but sonny's heart would always belong to will even if he didn't want it , they decided to have a coffee though to talk .

Will walked around Horton town thinking about all the times that he had been around sonny , how sonny would cheer him up when he was feeling down , by the time he got to Common Grounds he had realized just how much having sonny in his life every day, he opened the door and looked in hoping that it wasn't too busy so that he and sonny could talk but what he saw cut life a knife , seeing someone wiping away the coffee remains from his lips was just to much ,he turned away and closed the door leaving sonny behind .

Will rang into Tad who was walking alone the path , he could see that will's eyes were a bit glassy as he walked away after they had words, he watched will walk away with his head down , so decided to find out what had will so mad and upset , he move over to the door of the coffee shop and opened it up, what he was seeing would normally make him turn his head the other way in disgust but this made him mad and wild so he stepped inside and shut the door ,walking over he got closer to sonny .

'' god you move on fast , wasn't he enough for you , I am so glad that he turned away just now , I guess I have lost my taste for coffee thanks . Leaving a confused sonny behind .

Suddenly he realized that will had been here just now and that needed to leave for a reason , when he looked at Brian he knew straight away what will had witnessed just now , he needed to find him now so he told the waitress that he was leaving earlier and he said goodbye to Brian without a glance back.

Will didn't want to go home to a empty house or worse to find his mother home , so he just walked around town trying to forget what he had seen with his own eyes just now , he knew that it was his own fault that maybe sonny wanted to move on after his reaction and words today, somehow he found himself sitting on the couch , when he thought back to that night when he been drunk and had a terrible first kiss with that guy Neil now sitting here he wished it had been sonny, but now he would never get that chance again , this made will start crying again ,so he got up to walk further on .

Just as will got up to leave sonny walked through into the court pretending not to see him will started to walk away but sonny saw him and yelled out for him to wait .

'' Can we talk will please''

will didn't answer, sonny decided to say what was on his mind hoping that it wasn't too late .

You see will when I met you that first day I knew that you were IT for me , but I found out that you were straight , so I had to try and except that you would only be a friend to me , and at first I was fine with that , but the more we spent time hanging out , I found myself falling deep in love with you , so many times I have wished that I didn't feel this way for you , but I can't help how I feel , so many times I have wanted to reach for you but I never did but this morning when I found you , I was happy that you were alive so I let my feelings take over before I realized what was doing , I will never forgive myself if we can't be friends at least ''.

'' did you finish your coffee '' will asked

'' No I didn't decided that I didn't want it after all , not my brand ''

''oh''

'' will why did you come looking for me at work ?''

'' I wanted to tell that I was sorry for what I had said earlier , after I left you I went and had a long talk with someone , I finally come to realize that I can't deny who I am anymore I was coming to find you so that we could maybe talk but I realized I was too late so I left .'' will started to walk away but sonny reached out to stop him holding onto his arm .

'' you can't say thing like that to me and then leave at least give me a few minutes to let me realize what you are saying .

'' sonny I have to many issues , I mean I can't even say the word out loud of fear that my perfect parents will find out and make it their fault that they have a son that is gay , just let me go ,and go back to the guy at the counter , I could see that he was very interested in you , being with me wouldn't be easy , you have to know that it would be so much easier for you to be with him sonny , he pulled his arm away and walked away.

Sonny wasn't going to give in so he followed will while he said

'' I don't want easy or over interested I don't care ,I want you , I love you , so what if your family isn't perfect neither is mine , suddenly will realized where he was standing and it made complete sense that he would be here but this time it felt so right to be under the archway with a man , suddenly he needed no wanted to feel sonny's lips on his again .

'' hey sonny '' as he turned around to face him silently hoping that he doesn't make a fool of himself

'' yea will '' sonny asked the question not sure if he really wanted to know it .

'' look where we are standing '' as he stepped backwards to the wall he looked sonny straight in the eyes letting him know , but when sonny didn't move closer ,will reached out and pulled sonny to him , sonny leaned in slowly giving will time to change his mind, but he didn't pushed him away ,sonny gently kissed will's mouth caressing his lips with tender kisses being gentle only after they needed to take a breath did sonny moved away from will 's face .

Even though it was a lovely and sweet kiss from sonny for a first kiss from him , but truthfully will had a different first kiss in mind ,for his real kiss with sonny ,and will could feel that sonny really wanted too, but didn't want to scared him or remind him of that other kiss when he was drunk.

'' sonny really kiss me baby'' so he moved in much closer placing his body against will's body and kiss him ,will let sonny's tongue into his mouth with a deep sigh ,will could feel his body coming to life under sonny's touches he could feel him crawling through his skin screaming for more , sonny knew that if they kept kissing like this here , then two things were going to happen for both of them , as sonny started to pull away he actually heard will moan deep in his throat .

'' fuck will if we don't stop this now we are going to make a scene that I know you are not ready for yet'' , sonny looked at will his lips, they were red and his hair was messy , his blue eyes were glazed over with raw want , his mouth was opened wide as he was trying to get air still to slow down his breathing .

'' god I want to kiss you again so bad right now, you have no idea how much I want you will''
he knew that he wasn't playing fair, but he licked his lips and reached for sonny which sonny didn't fight it , sonny let will take control this time , they were so lost in their own world that neither knew that they had a audience Brian had followed sonny ,what he could see now ,he knew that he had no real chance at sonny so he walked away from the couple leaving them .

Finally after needing air to breath ,sonny and will stopped kissing but will's hands were on sonny's hips to keep him near not letting him move from that spot .
'' will I need to go back to work for a few minutes to just sign the night sheets and make sure that the orders have been sent through , do you want to come and hang out babe''

will pushed sonny backwards a little so that he could step away from the wall and started to head for common grounds but not before reaching for sonny's hand.

Sonny was worried that someone would see will like this even though no one was really around so as he got closer to the shop sonny let go of will's hand's .

when they walked in the door sonny went straight for the office and will went got his free cup of coffee and sat down in the corner facing the counter but hidden away if need be as he waited for sonny he checked his messages , he had three messages to read one from his mother asking was he going to be home tonight , which he answered that he was staying at friends place,and one from his father which he skipped and the last one was from his loving grandmother , he opened it and read it

will I hope you found that person tonight and that you are finally happy maybe I will get to meet this young man that has you so worked up , yes will I have always known and I still love you xxx

when he got over the shock of her already knowing this without him even mentioning anything he sat there looking up at sonny moving about the place with a smile on his face that he had put there tonight will thought about what to say and started to typed in the send box ''yes I think I can finally be really happy and in love, I have found a speical man that has loved me from day one, even though I didn't know that until tonight , I think I have loved him for a long time but just didn't know or want to let myself feel this way , I love you too always'' and with that written he hit the send button when he got no sudden reply will decided to turned off his phone for the night .
''hey baby wake up , sonny touched will's cheek to wake him up, smiling as will started to stir as he started to wake up , his t-shirt lifted up showing off his abs , sonny couldn't stop the moan coming from his mouth or his fingers reaching out to touch the skin that was under that top, feeling sonny's fingers touching his skin woke him up straight away , will could feel his body heating up from sonny's touch .

''sonny kiss me '' as he reached for sonny to bring him closer .

'' come home with me will '''.