I just stand there, trying to lose myself in his eyes, like I used to. However, his eyes are now made of stone, which is so hard that it creates a massive barrier between us. He has destroyed something that I once held close at heart. I don't understand. I want to say something, but I can't. He turns away from me, and angrily stomps back out the door. I look to Julian. He knows. He knows how I feel. It hurts him. His eyes show it. He doesn't want to let me go, but he knows that he has to. He kisses my forward and mouths,"Go." I break away from him race to find Alex again. I stop in my tracks as I finally make out the outline of his body. It is late afternoon, and yet the sky casts the earth in a dark gray shadow. It is raining heavily. It is raining so hard and so fast, that I can barely see. The cold stings my eyes. I realize I'm not wearing a jacket. The freezing air wraps its fingers around my bare arms. The moment his shape appears the frigid air releases me from its grip and I feel a slight bit of warmth run through me. He is standing here, with his head down, as the rain pounds into him. His clothes are soaked. Just by his posture, I can tell he upset. However, its more than upset. I can't think of a word to describe it, but all I know is that he is hurt, and its my fault. "Alex", I say. He doesn't move. "Alex", I shout this time. He jumps. He then turns to me. For a moment, I can barely see his eyes aren't barricading me from getting lost within. However, they go up the moment he realizes who said his name. He crosses his arms and turns away. "Alex", I scream again. This time he turns back, clenches his fists tightly, his body tenses, and he sets his jaw. "How could you", he retorts,"How could you?"