Hallelujah, an o.c. fanfic

Hallelujah

Category: The OC
Characters: Ryan & Marissa.

Summary: Ryan/Marissa one shot set after episode 102.

Set during episode 102

Music: Jeff Buckley - Hallelujah

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Well I heard there was a secret chord
that David played and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do ya?
Well it goes like this:
The fourth, the fifth, the minor fall and the major lift
the baffled king composing Hallelujah

If there's one thing Ryan Atwood hates, it's the dark. He wasn't really sure why he never liked it, but it probably had something to do with his upbringing, with the darkness usually bringing a drunken mother passed out on the couch.

But he dealt with it, because that's what Atwood's do. They 'suck it up' and 'take it like a man' as his dad used to say. But Ryan didn't feel like an Atwood, he felt like an outcast, because he was.

Hallelujah

Hallelujah...

His mom had abandoned him, leaving town without any regards toward her son that she had raised for the past 16 years and his dad was in jail, serving hard time for robbery. So here he was, in a run down, incomplete model home, hiding out from the Cohen's, Sandy and Kirsten, the only people in Newport who had been even a little nice to him. Well, other than Seth and Marissa.

Seth was an odd one that was for sure. The kid didn't appear to have any friends, and seemed to stay home a lot, playing video games and reading comic books.

Then there was Marissa…she was different than any other girl he had ever met. She had looks and a personality, two qualities of which Ryan had never seen in one girl. Every time he looked into her eyes he just wanted to…but he wouldn't, because it wouldn't be right.

She was the Newport princess and he was just that kid from Chino who punched people.

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Well your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew ya
And she tied you to her kitchen chair
She broke your throne and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

"This song reminds me of you" she said as she looked over at him, where he stood, with his back facing away from her, in front of the CD player.

He turned around and smiled at her, beckoning for her to come into the room, which she did.

"I thought you were with Luke" he said, as he tried to hide the fact that he was glad she had came.

Hallelujah

"I was…" she stopped, looking as if she wasn't sure whether she should say it or not. "I don't know why I'm here" she said with a grin as she looked over at him nervously.

"I just wanted to see you…since you're leaving tomorrow…" she said quickly, avoiding eye contact with him.

She looked back up. "And what if I never…what if we never…" she couldn't form a sentence with his eyes looking at her like that. She cleared her throat.

"Maybe I could spend the night" she looked back up at him and captured his gaze.

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Baby I've been here before
I've seen this room and I've walked this floor, (You know)
I used to live alone before I knew ya
And I've seen your flag on the marble arch
and love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

"You can't stay" he said quietly, avoiding her eyes. "…if we spend the night…" he trailed off, finally looking back up at her "I wouldn't be able to leave."

She was getting closer, he could feel her hot breath on his neck as she got closer and closer.

"Then don't" she said quietly as she got closer and closer.

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Hallelujah

He started to back away.

"Yeah you have to go back to school in the fall" he said sadly, "and I just what? Hang around here? Hiding like some ghost?" he was starting to get mad, and he wasn't even sure why. "Till the cops find me and I have to disappear again?"

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Well there was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show that to me do ya
But remember when I moved in you
And the holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

She blinked back tears that she didn't know had formed in her eyes as he stepped closer towards her. She wondered if this was it, if he would finally allow her into his heart and into his life.

"We're from different worlds" he said quietly, and she struggled to keep the tears at bay.

"That's not true!" she said a little louder than he had, as she stepped closer.

Hallelujah

"I'm not like you" he said, she felt the tears trickle down her cheeks silently.

"Go" he said sharply, as he motioned towards the door. She didn't move.

"Go" he said quieter this time, and she obeyed, taking off out the door and into the brisk summer air.

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Maybe there's a God above
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew ya
And it's not a cry that you hear at night

She ran outside, sobbing harder than she had ever sobbed in a really long time. She felt as if she wouldn't be able to stop ever. She jumped into her jeep and sped off into the night, oblivious to what was happening around her as she cried into the steering wheel.

It's not somebody who's seen the light

As he ran outside after her and watched her jump into the car, he knew he was too late. He felt tears springing to his eyes and be fought against them. He sighed and turned around, heading back into the model home, as the tears silently slipped down his rugged face.

It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah

Hallelujah…