Disclaimer: I do not own Veronica Mars, it's all Rob Thomas.
She sighed as she finally unpacked the last box of her belongings. She'd just moved back home after being with the FBI for the past five years. She went there for her internship, they offered her a job and the option to study close by. It was too good an opportunity to pass up, even if it meant she left everything she'd ever know behind. It was also the chance to forget a few things as well, Logan, the name used to burn as it passed through her lips. Her heart ached, her center ached even more. After being offered the job, she talked to her dad for what seemed like hours about everything.
"Are you sure this is what you want?"
"Yeah Dad, I want and need this. A chance to start over, a chance to forget."
"You can't base your decision on Logan though."
"I know and understand that, but I'd be lying to myself if I said it had nothing to do with him."
"And what about Piz?"
"I've already talked to him and we broke up. It was never going to work anyways, my heart just wasn't in it." She said with a soft sigh.
"I will support your decision, whatever you need to do I'll be there for you."
"Thanks Dad. I love you."
"I love you too honey."
She returned home after her internship finished to pack up her things and to get ready to move, saying goodbye to all her friends and her Dad. She made a list of all the people she needed to see before she left, she read them out to herself as she finished.
-Dad
-Wallace
-Mac
-Weevil
-Piz
-Parker
-Logan??
She looked at the last night, question marks next to it. Would it really matter if she didn't say goodbye to him? It was a part of the reason she was leaving Neptune after all. She left her Dad to last, and began with her goodbyes as soon as she'd finished packing up all of her belongings in boxes and packed them in her car.
She hugged him tightly, as the tears softly fell down her cheeks. "I'll be seeing you Wallace." She said with a soft laugh.
"You know, this ain't the last time we'll see each other. Been through too much in the last few years Veronica."
"I know, I know. It's just sad still though. I hate goodbyes, still have like five more after this."
"Is Logan one of those five?"
"I'm still not sure yet. Might just write him a letter and send it or give it to you to give to him." She laughed softly trying to hide the hurt she felt when thinking about him.
"You won't do that V. Even though your hurting he still means too much to you."
"That's the worse part about it all."
"It'll be okay, you'll see. Now go, have fun, kill some bad guys and come back to us in one piece. You hear me?"
"I hear you, thank you for everything Wallace. You've been a true friend over the years."
"Right back at ya." They both laughed and hugged once more as she left for the door, on to the next person she needed to see. --
"I can't believe your leaving me."
"I'm sorry Mac, but I need to do this. It's an amazing opportunity, I'd be silly if I didn't take it."
"I know, but it's just your leaving. You'll come back and visit though, and never forget us?"
"I promise to come back and visit, plus I still may need you expertise in a few things on a case if I ever get one."
Mac chuckled softly before hugging her friend. "Okay, go and change the world Veronica Mars, like we all know you can and will."
"Thanks Mac." --
He sat on his motorbike as he looked out towards the ocean. He knew she was standing behind him without her even saying a word. "Come to say goodbye, I should feel so lucky."
"Aww, come on. You know I wouldn't leave without saying goodbye to you Weevil."
"Well I'd like to think that V."
"Well good. I'll miss you."
"I'll miss you too. Won't be able to get into anymore trouble anymore, won't have you here to save my ass." He said with a deep chuckle.
"You'll just have to wait till I visit then."
"You take care V."
"I will you too." --
"Life is funny, you know. We weren't together long, but I really liked you even loved maybe."
"I'm so sorry Piz. This has nothing to do with you, it's all me. Something I need to do for myself. I've been thinking about everyone else for far too long, I need this."
"So it has nothing to do with Logan?"
"No it has nothing to do with him, all me."
"Okay then. Take care of yourself, and keep in touch Veronica."
"I promise I will." --
"Thank you Veronica for everything you've done for me, with the rape thing and all. I'm sorry as well about what happened between Logan and I, I didn't think it would hurt you as much as it did."
"Don't worry about it Parker, it's fine and I'm over it."
"Okay, I just needed you to know. I realized that he wasn't that into me. It's you he wanted and still wanted. I was just a pawn, something to dangle in front of you to make you jealous. Well that's what I think he was trying to do anyways."
"I promise it's all okay, I don't hate you for anything. You were just following your heart, nothing you can do about that."
"Even your heart makes a mistake sometimes."
"That it can, that it can."
"Well you take care Veronica and don't forget to keep in touch."
"I promise I will." --
Riding up in the elevator, her heart was doing this really annoying thing, beating so fast it hurt. She was nervous, she had told him she wanted him out of her life, that they couldn't be friends anymore. This was breaking that, but deep down she knew she couldn't not say goodbye to him. She'd regret it if she didn't. The elevator dinged, signaling she was on his floor. She slowly made her way to his door and stood outside just staring at it. She knocked on the door, Dick answered the door a few minutes later.
"Ronnie, what a surprise."
"Dick, is Logan around?"
"He's out on balcony with a drink in hand. As he has been pretty much since you guys broke up, though it's now worse since you don't even want to be friends with him anymore. Please put me out of me misery, it's depressing dude. Chicks don't dig it, which means I don't get any."
"Sorry to hear that Dick, I may make things worse though. I'm leaving today for Virginia, scored a job with the FBI and will finish my schooling there also."
"Just let him down easy, please. I'll leave you two alone. A Lovely young woman is waiting for the Dickinator. Take care though Ronnie." Dick said as he walked passed her and out the door he just opened.
She slowly made her way out to the balcony, she noticed Logan sitting there in his dressing down, he hadn't shaved in days by the look of it and in desperate need of a good shower - he reeked of alcohol. She sat down in the chair across from him and waited for him to speak or at least notice her. He took a long sip of the scotch in his hand before he sighed.
"Come to rub it in more then you have Veronica?"
"What are you talking about?"
"We can't be together, we can't even be friends, oh by the way I'm leaving town because of you. I know that's what your doing, you can fool everyone else all you want, you can't fool me."
"That's not true, it's an amazing opportunity and I'd be crazy if I didn't take it. Besides it's really none of your business why I'm doing this. I just thought I'd be a nice person and come say goodbye to you. Guess it was a big mistake."
She said and got up in a huff, she headed out to the door, reaching for the door knob as she felt his hand grab her free wrist and pull her towards him. They were so close, she could feel and smell his breath blowing in her face. It took her a minute before she looked up into his eyes, those chocolate colored eyes that showed so much love, loss, despair. Her hear broke all over again, this is what she didn't want and didn't need at this moment.
In a low, almost whisper he spoke. "Tell me your not leaving because of me, the truth this time."
"I'm.. um… not leaving because of you."
"That's not really the truth, you know it and I know it."
"Okay fine. One of the reasons I'm leaving is because of you, I can't take seeing you around anymore, hearing about you all the time, seeing places that remind me of you. It all hurts too much Logan, I can't take it anymore. I just can't." She said as the tears she tried so hard to hold in finally spilled over, slowly crawling down her cheeks.
He took his free hand, with his thumb and softly removed her tears from her cheeks. "I only wanted to hear the truth." He said before kissing her lips softly, a goodbye kiss.
"I do love you Logan, guess love isn't always enough." She said as she turned towards the door again.
"I love you too Veronica Mars, always have and always will. Take care alright, don't do anything stupid like I know you will."
A lot had changed in five years, all of her friends had finished college and we're off in the real world living their lives. Wallace had met a beautiful girl in his second last year of college, falling head over heels in love with her, they'd recently moved in together while finding their place in the world of careers. Mac surprisingly became involved with Dick in their senior year, things seemed to be going well for them. Piz and Parker got together not long after their second year began in college, they were happy, in love and recently engaged. Veronica was happy for them and was to be on of her bridesmaids.
The only thing she didn't know, was about Logan, as per her request no one spoke of him in conversations with her. All she did know, was that he still lived in the penthouse at the Neptune Grande. For all she knew he was married with a couple of kids, though that was a very big 'if'.
She walked out into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water out of the fridge, taking a couple of sips from it before grabbing her keys and going out to her car. There was only one way to find out what he was up to….
A/N:This is my first Fan Fic for Veronica Mars, what do you all think? Should I continue? Only one way for me to find out, by all of you reviewing. Any ideas you may have, let me know I may work them into the story. Sorry about any mistakes, I didn't have a beta for it.