The Choices of life, What if…
He did not want to go back where all started, where the choices he made had major impacts on what he became. He did not like much what he became for not letting the pain go. He was not even able to recognise himself on the mirror. His eyes were empty, no more hope, no more love… Nothing left of his youth in Tree Hill.
He took his sit on the plane knowing from the start that he was making a mistake but she needs him… They need him and he knew that he did not have any other choices.
His name is Lucas Scott and he is a 26 year old men with no hope and no future ahead.
Nathan was there, in Tree Hill airport so exited to see his brother. In fact, he will probably never tell him that but he missed his brother like crazy. Lucas was one of the only person who always stand by him and he is sure that he would have finished college without Lucas and Haley help. And now, finally they are going to be reunited after 4 years.
When the plane landed, Nathan rushed to the arrivals and tried to Located Lucas on the crowd. Suddenly, he felt a presence behind him. When he turned around and Lucas his heart almost burst with joy but it only lasted for a few seconds. In fact, when he looked into his eyes, he knew straight away that he was not the same person anymore. What did happen in Cambridge?
Nathan: Hey Bro!! I'm so glad to see you. Gosh you sure did change.
Lucas: Thank. I am really happy to see you too Nat. I thought you'll brought Haley James and Julia with you to pick me up.
Nathan: No, I wanted some brotherly time you now. You are the only one I can do that with you now (said Nathan with a smile).
Lucas just stood there looking at him. He tried to contain his tears. How can he stayed away for so long? He is loved and maybe that love can bring back some hope in his life.
Nathan: Luke?… The earth is calling Lucas Scott!
Lucas: Hum? Hey I'm sorry. Did you say something?
Nathan: Well… I guess we need to go now. Haley is so exited to see you even if the events which brought you here are not the best!!! She is driving me crazy. She loves you very much you know and she missed you more than you can imagine.
Lucas: I know she did but I'm here… At least for now.
They drove to Nathan's house without a word. Lucas was just staring through the window. Tree Hill did change a lot since he was there. He tried to remember how he felt back then and, for a couple of minutes, he forgot the guilt and the pain which was haunting him.
Haley was staring at the window, waiting for Nathan to be back with Lucas. She started thinking to the last time she saw him. It was just a couple of days after college graduation, his first book had been a major success and Harvard contacted him to become a teacher and he accepted. She understood his decision. She was the only one who knew how he really felt for three years and she could not blame him for wanting to disappear. She thought that a change will ease his mind but when he did not came back the first summer she knew that something was wrong. Moreover, he missed during the following years so many important events touching people being close to him that she was scared to lose him forever but now… The return to memory lane stopped there because she heard the car. She opened the door and run to them.
Lucas just had the time to get off the car when she jumped into his arms.
Haley: Luke!!! Oh my god you are here!!!! I missed you so much. Let me look at you!
Lucas: Hey sister in law!! I missed you even more.
She took two steps back and did a close inspection. He could not lie to her. She knew him too well, he was a part of her. She took him in her arms again and said quietly
Haley: What did happen to you Luke? You are more broken then you were before. Your smile don't fool me you know. Who did that to you? You seem to be empty inside. There is nothing left in your eyes than pain and sadness.
He knew that lying would not help him. She knew him too well but he could not talk about it. Not now, not ever. He was scared that by talking about it the pain would kill him even if now a part of him was already dead. He was dead since May 3 years ago.
Lucas: Come on Haley, I'm just tired and you know what brings me here. It is not what I can call some happy time ok? I'll be better in a few days.
Haley: If its your story… But I'll find you, I always do.
Nathan: Hey you guys!! Come on in!! I won't wait forever. Especially you Mrs Scott.
Haley: Ok we are coming.
Lucas: Gosh he is in the hurry!!
Haley: I know, but its late you know. James wanted to wait for you but he has a game tomorrow and he really needs to sleep. But you will see him in the morning
Lucas: I can't Haley sorry, but I have to go to the hospital really early tomorrow. We did the test in Cambridge and they came back positive, I am compatible and she really needs me now.
Haley: Yes of Course, I'm silly. Don't worry he'll understand
Lucas: He already understood too much I guess. I'm sure that he knows by now how a terrible godfather I am.
Haley: No Luke, don't say that he knows that you love him very much.
Lucas arrived at the hospital at 7 am, he did not sleep and could not wait any longer. He went into her bedroom and looked at her. She was sleeping but she looked different, tired and thinner than he could imagine. How a terrible son was he? He did not see his own mother for 4 full years, always pretending he was busy with teaching or writing. He only let her come to visit once but, after the accident he never let her come back again. He did not want to share his pain and regrets. He thought that he deserved to suffer alone without taking anybody's feelings into consideration.
He started to whisper.
Lucas: Hey Mummy, I am here now. I won't let you alone again, I swear. I should have stand by you. I am so sorry for the pain I caused you. You are my world mum and I'll do anything I can to save you. I love you. Please fight till the surgery, I can't lose you. I am still your baby and I need you, Lily needs you in fact, everybody need you and…
The Man: You are right young man. Everybody needs her. She is in a induce coma you know. You don't need to whisper. But she will be find now. You are here.
Lucas: Sorry but who are you?
The man: Oh that true you don't know me. I am Sean, your mother husband. When you did not come to our wedding last summer, she thought you were upset and I am sorry if I have created this situation but I love her very much and I am doing anything in my power to make her and Lilly as happy as I possibly can. I am not trying to replace Keith into her heart or in Lilly's.
Lucas: I am so sorry Sean, I was not against your wedding I swear. I know you are making her happy. She told me that and I'll do anything when she'll be better to make her understand and I hope she will forgive me.
Sean: Don't worry she will. You are her heart Lucas. Never forget that. She can forgive you anything.